Hey kiddo,
I know life is pretty rough right now for you, but it's not going to last. So many things will get better, some just right around the corner. And all those things that make you different and get you bullied? All of those will make you such an amazing person. Just give everything a little time and you will figure it all out when you are ready. There will be so many surprises and mysteries. And all you need to do is be yourself and have some fun along the way. So hold your head up, and EVERYTHING will be amazing, just like you.
--your absolutely amazing older self
What waits in the depths of your abyss?
Surely not the lure of endless bliss...
All your nightmares come to life
Fear, regret and all the strife
One false step and you will ascertain
Hordes of demons waiting for your pain
Can you resist their calling?
How can you stop from falling?
Look inside to see your fate anew
Where your demons are just inside you
Well, I'm only a little shady, and I sure AF AIN'T slim...
So, it's been over a year-and-a-half since I dropped a new journal entry, and let me tell you... A LOT of stuff has happened. Some of it is pretty dark, and some isn't. Either way, I have a TON of artwork that has been building up since my last submission. I plan on making several submissions, and maybe other stuff as well. So, buckle-up kids! I hope to make this as fun as possible...
Finally... roll call? Anyone still reading my journal?
It has been a long time since we spoken to one another. I miss our conversations like we used to have in the chatroom. I was wondering where you disappeared off too so I am glad you contacted me again! I hope you are doing well.
I missed them, too. One of the highlights of my night back then. 😀
It's been a crazy past couple of years as you may tell by the art I posted last year. A lot of soul searching, depression and anxiety. But I feel that I am finally on the right path. Excited, impatient and overwhelmed all at once.
They finally got my anti-depressants / anxiety meds figured out and it is helping quite a bit. You'll also be happy to know that have lower my Ativan dose as well. If I wasn't addicted then, I was close.