hello fellow artists and friends.
I sat on thiese thoughts for long time, I'd say at least 3 years, now the time to say it out loud has come.
As you have noticed my personal art is literally dead, i have blamed the lack of time, the lack of inspiration and various other factors, but the truth that must be told is...
The source of my personal pieces simply dried out.
The most part of it infact was a way to channel a huge amount of repressed rage, generated by a chain of factors too personal to disclose.
It was a way to let it out in the only way that was safe and somehow positive.
Such rage no longer exists, my soul is at peace, the fuel is simply...no longer there.
So is a happy news to be at peace, but almost all my most beloved characters no longer talk to me, the long novel i was writing is catching dust on a shelf and several scenes i was working on the past won't be finished any time soon.
I have no wish of provoking the sleeping beast in order to get back to my old art, it was painful and distressing, so i'll let it sleep peacefully.
I am still able to make promos at will, there is a technical side in them that make the creation process very different and less intense, but the vision, for that type of art, is generated in a completely different way, so that's safe.
Admitting this hasn't been easy, but this is the truth, this is why i haven't overcome a long lasting art block.
Now...the funny part.
In the past i have made announcements declarin the end of something, and everytime such announcement triggered an inspiration burst.
let's see if this time happens the same or not, but from what i am feeling right now, i have serious doubts. I am not living it as a negative thing, after all not being tortured by that noisy raging hurricane i had inside feels very, very good.
I worked hard as hell to overcome that monster, so even if part of my creativity is silent, at least i have the freedom within my soul to seek other sources and paths.
Sorry for the wall of text.