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The inconvenient truth

Journal Entry: Thu May 16, 2019, 11:12 AM
hello fellow artists and friends.

I sat on thiese thoughts for long time, I'd say at least 3 years, now the time to say it out loud has come.
As you have noticed my personal art is literally dead, i have blamed the lack of time, the lack of inspiration and various other factors, but the truth that must be told is...

The source of my personal pieces simply dried out.
The most part of it infact was a way to channel a huge amount of repressed rage, generated by a chain of factors too personal to disclose.
It was a way to let it out in the only way that was safe and somehow positive.

Such rage no longer exists, my soul is at peace, the fuel is longer there.
So is a happy news to be at peace, but almost all my most beloved characters no longer talk to me, the long novel i was writing is catching dust on a shelf and several scenes i was working on the past won't be finished any time soon.
I have no wish of provoking the sleeping beast in order to get back to my old art, it was painful and distressing, so i'll let it sleep peacefully.

I am still able to make promos at will, there is a technical side in them that make the creation process very different and less intense, but the vision, for that type of art, is generated in a completely different way, so that's safe.

Admitting this hasn't been easy, but this is the truth, this is why i haven't overcome a long lasting art block.

Now...the funny part.
In the past i have made announcements declarin the end of something, and everytime such announcement triggered an inspiration burst.
let's see if this time happens the same or not, but from what i am feeling right now, i have serious doubts. I am not living it as a negative thing, after all not being tortured by that noisy raging hurricane i had inside feels very, very good.
I worked hard as hell to overcome that monster, so even if part of my creativity is silent, at least i have the freedom within my soul to seek other sources and paths. :)

Sorry for the wall of text.


YOU'RE NEXT! (choose your theme for an art featuring to come) 

12 deviants said Sci-fi ( the future is here!)
12 deviants said Medieval-Fantasy
8 deviants said I want to mix them all! ( challenge)
4 deviants said Surreal ( gravity and physics don't exist here)
4 deviants said Conceptual-Emotional ( the feelz)
4 deviants said Music
3 deviants said Seasonal ( fall-winter)
3 deviants said Color based ( warm palette)
2 deviants said Color based ( cold palette)


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7ix Featured By Owner Apr 21, 2019  Student Photographer
Thank you so much for points!  7f00 by Dark-Arctic-Fox  
For me it is a great assistance and support in this period..

2014.10.29 - What does the fox Say by HanniBuns by Dark-Arctic-Fox 
minininja77 Featured By Owner Apr 15, 2019  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Beautiful gallery you have!
ThePaperTiger Featured By Owner Apr 9, 2019  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the :+devwatch:! :)
Master-Of-Fear Featured By Owner Mar 22, 2019   Traditional Artist
Thank you so much for the watch! Means a lot! :la:
NapalmArsenal Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2019  Professional Artist
Thanks for all the faves!! =) Love your work also!! 
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