Great-Guardian

Well I miss going to class, that I admit. I have pups now and again to raise to give away. I'm trying to figure out how to raise money to move out and be away from this household since I'm a maid here for my dad. Of course I'll miss this place but I need to move on.

 

So without further complaint. I'm making lion tails with some left over materials I have. I'll make other items too and maybe set up a booth at Izumicon. I don't know, just dreaming again. I do bead work as well so I don't know. I do make odd ball stuff and try to make new items.

Speaking of crafts. I'm taking requests from my friends of mine. Well friend mainly. I need to get back into drawing requests and stuff again. So if you want you can give me requests of things and you can pay me back in any way like drawings, credits, a song, some random poem or stories. Just something in return. ^_^ So come on down and give me requests and stuff.

  Don't know about this that much so yeah willing to try it.

   Don't know it but want to try it.

  Whatever the heck this is I'll try it.

Just throw anything at me and I'll try it.

Bring it on!!!

I nearly lost control of my emotions just now. Maybe I'm at the brim of the lid of my bottle. Just seeing these couples happy all the damn time. Especially when they are sitting next to me. In the beginning of the year it was okay since they were not that close but now they are careless and putting all that sickly talk and gruesome actions. This class is about getting our education and preparing for a future. I just want to tear out their hearts and throw them away from me so I won't have to see them again. For all that I know is that I might have developed a heart condition from this emotion. I locked my emotions away and have a slow steady stream flowing out to make me somewhat human. Every so often I have to release my excess emotion out to keep it under control. My heart cannot love anyone. It's been locked up for too long and I don't know how it can react anymore except when memories of love strike me down. Tugs and pulls happen and I have to react quickly by running away or lashing out at the target. A lonely world I live in but I know there are others who have it worse then me. Atleast I'm one of those few who chose to survive in this world and not parish into the abyss. There are some males who seem to like me...maybe love me but, I don't think I can love them back. My heart wanted one person only but she left me for another that might be a monster. Nothing I can do anymore but work...do something...work...distractions until my heart finally gives up. Darken Rose...where are you... Until I can come up with $6000+ then I can order a life size doll of my Darken Rose so I can be happy with him. It'll be false love but it will help me survive my life. Wait for me my Darken Rose. I'll get you somehow.

Well I went on a trip to Tulsa for the SkillsUSA competition. Sadly my team lost but one of my classmates get to go to nationals. So I'm kinda jealous but I'll do better next in different categories. Anyway on to the next list.

I discovered this site that gives the meaning of your name and if you enter a birthdate then you get a past life. So I did it and posted the results under my ID block. I knew I was male sometime ago. ^_^ lol
Thinking of this I decided to enter a few of my OCs to see what they get and I entered random birthdays so yeah.

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~Kiru~

What Does My Name Mean? Kiru, The Meaning of Names (1991-12-12)

What does the name "Kiru" mean? A name is much more than just a name!

K is for keen, your sense of honesty.
I is for interest, you show in others.
R is for refreshing, the sparkling you.
U is for uncanny, the way you know what to do.

Out of 5,364,811 records in the U.S. Social Security Administration public data, the name "Kiru" was not present. It is possible the name you are searching has less than five occurrences per year in each state. You might want to use a short version of your first name or perhaps your nickname.

On the other hand, you simply have a name that no one else in America is using. For 132 years only your parents have thought of using your name. Hoorah! You are a unique individual.

Your name in reverse order is "Urik". A random rearrangement of the letters in your name (anagram) will give 'Ukir'. (How do you pronounce that?)

Your past life Kiru:
I do not know how you feel about it, but you were a female in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of Korea approximately on 1250. Your profession was chemist, alchemist, poison manufacturer.

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:

You were sane, practical person, materialist with no spiritual consciousness. Your simple wisdom helped the weak and the poor.

Lessons that your last past life brought to present:

You should develop self-love and ability to implant hope into hearts of people. Ambition – is not everything. True wealth is buried in your soul.

~Tsudi~

What Does My Name Mean? Tsudi, The Meaning of Names (1990-9-7)

What does the name "Tsudi" mean? A name is much more than just a name!

T is for treasure, that of your friendship.
S is for serene, your calm time.
U is for unbreakable, your spirit is strong.
D is for dandy, a description of you!
I is for interest, you show in others.

Out of 5,364,811 records in the U.S. Social Security Administration public data, the name "Tsudi" was not present. It is possible the name you are searching has less than five occurrences per year in each state. You might want to use a short version of your first name or perhaps your nickname.

On the other hand, you simply have a name that no one else in America is using. For 132 years only your parents have thought of using your name. Hoorah! You are a unique individual.

Your name in reverse order is "Idust". A random rearrangement of the letters in your name (anagram) will give 'Dstui'. (How do you pronounce that?)

Your past life Tsudi:
I do not know how you feel about it, but you were a male in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of Southern China approximately on 1600. Your profession was builder of roads, bridges, docks.

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:
Revolutionary type. You inspired changes in any sphere — politics, business, religion, housekeeping. Could be a leader.

Lessons that your last past life brought to present:

You are bound to solve problems regarding pollution of environment, recycling, misuse of raw materials, elimination of radioactivity by all means including psychological methods.

~Zeldra~

What Does My Name Mean? Zeldra, The Meaning of Names (1992-2-13)

What does the name "Zeldra" mean? A name is much more than just a name!

Z is for zeal, your zest for life.
E is for enjoy, your life can be fun!
L is for lofty, your ambitions are high!
D is for discreet, you can keep a secret.
R is for reasonable, your understanding way.
A is for accepting, your forgiving nature.

Out of 5,364,811 records in the U.S. Social Security Administration public data, the name "Zeldra" was not present. It is possible the name you are searching has less than five occurrences per year in each state. You might want to use a short version of your first name or perhaps your nickname.

On the other hand, you simply have a name that no one else in America is using. For 132 years only your parents have thought of using your name. Hoorah! You are a unique individual.

Your name in reverse order is "Ardlez". A random rearrangement of the letters in your name (anagram) will give 'Aezrld'. (How do you pronounce that?)

Your past life Zeldra:
I do not know how you feel about it, but you were a female in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of Southern Africa approximately on 1575. Your profession was writer, dramatist, organizer of rituals.

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:
Ruthless character, carefully weighing your decisions in critical situations, with excellent self-control and strong will. Generally liked, but not always loved.

Lessons that your last past life brought to present:

Your lesson – to combat violence and disharmony in our world, to understand its roots and origins. All global problems have similar origins.

~Drazel~

What Does My Name Mean? Drazel, The Meaning of Names (1995-4-25)

What does the name "Drazel" mean? A name is much more than just a name!

D is for delight, a surprise from within.
R is for relax, you know how!
A is for accepting, your forgiving nature.
Z is for zeal, your zest for life.
E is for easy going, no ruffles here.
L is for listen, one of your best traits.

Out of 5,364,811 records in the U.S. Social Security Administration public data, the name "Drazel" was not present. It is possible the name you are searching has less than five occurrences per year in each state. You might want to use a short version of your first name or perhaps your nickname.

On the other hand, you simply have a name that no one else in America is using. For 132 years only your parents have thought of using your name. Hoorah! You are a unique individual.

Your name in reverse order is "Lezard". A random rearrangement of the letters in your name (anagram) will give 'Ezrdla'. (How do you pronounce that?)

Your past life Drazel:

I do not know how you feel about it, but you were a female in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of Mexico approximately on 1275. Your profession was builder of houses, temples, cathedrals.

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:
You had a mind of a scientist, always seeking new explanations. Environment often misunderstood you. Had a respectable knowledge.

Lessons that your last past life brought to present:

Magic is everywhere around you, in most usual, most ordinary incidents. Your lesson – to learn magic and to help people to see it clearly. You are a magician!

~Shadow~

What Does My Name Mean? Shadow, The Meaning of Names (1950-10-31)

What does the name "Shadow" mean? A name is much more than just a name!

S is for smile, it gives you face value.
H is for honest, something you hold dear.
A is for altruism, the unselfish you.
D is for delight, a surprise from within.
O is for openness, it's refresh
W is for wisdom, you acquire with age.

The name "Shadow" is of English origin and it means "Shade from Sun". It's a name commonly given to both boys and girls.

According to the 1995 U.S. Social Security Administration data, the name "Shadow" is not a popular baby girl's name in Texas. Imagine that, only 6 babies in Texas have the same name as you in 1995. Across the entire United States a total of only 49 babies also bear the same first name during the same year. From 1880 to 2011, the highest recorded use of the name "Shadow" was in 1993 with a total of 36 babies.

Since 1880, your name was recorded 819 times in the American baby names history.

Your name in reverse order is "Wodahs". A random rearrangement of the letters in your name (anagram) will give 'Awsodh'. (How do you pronounce that?)

Your past life Shadow:
I do not know how you feel about it, but you were a male in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of Alaska approximately on 1225. Your profession was designer, engineering, craftsman

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:

Seeker of truth and wisdom. You could have seen your future lives. Others perceived you as an idealist illuminating path to the future.

Lessons that your last past life brought to present:
You fulfill your lesson by helping old folks and children. You came to that life to learn to care about weak and helpless.

~Korazon~

What Does My Name Mean? Korazon, The Meaning of Names (1922-1-1)

What does the name "Korazon" mean? A name is much more than just a name!

K is for kindness, you always show.
O is for ornate, nothing plain here!
R is for reasonable, your understanding way.
A is for able, for you surely are.
Z is for zany, the funny side of you!
O is for ornate, nothing plain here!
N is for noble, your regal bearing.

Out of 5,364,811 records in the U.S. Social Security Administration public data, the name "Korazon" was not present. It is possible the name you are searching has less than five occurrences per year in each state. You might want to use a short version of your first name or perhaps your nickname.

On the other hand, you simply have a name that no one else in America is using. For 132 years only your parents have thought of using your name. Hoorah! You are a unique individual.

Your name in reverse order is "Nozarok". A random rearrangement of the letters in your name (anagram) will give 'Noorzka'. (How do you pronounce that?)

Your past life Korazon:
I do not know how you feel about it, but you were a male in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of North of Latin America approximately on 975. Your profession was entertainer, musician, poet, temple-dancer.

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:

You were sane, practical person, materialist with no spiritual consciousness. Your simple wisdom helped the weak and the poor.

Lessons that your last past life brought to present:
You should develop your talent for love, happiness and enthusiasm and to distribute these feelings to all people.

Now do you remember?

~Dyzanu~

What Does My Name Mean? Dyzanu, The Meaning of Names (1922-5-27)

What does the name "Dyzanu" mean? A name is much more than just a name!

D is for dazzle, the sparkle of you.
Y is for young, the years never show!
Z is for zeal, your zest for life.
A is for activities, for you have many.
N is for nice, need I say more?
U is for unique, your love of life.

Out of 5,364,811 records in the U.S. Social Security Administration public data, the name "Dyzanu" was not present. It is possible the name you are searching has less than five occurrences per year in each state. You might want to use a short version of your first name or perhaps your nickname.

On the other hand, you simply have a name that no one else in America is using. For 132 years only your parents have thought of using your name. Hoorah! You are a unique individual.

Your name in reverse order is "Unazyd". A random rearrangement of the letters in your name (anagram) will give 'Azdnuy'. (How do you pronounce that?)

Your past life Dyzanu:
I do not know how you feel about it, but you were a male in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of Tibet approximately on 950. Your profession was banker, usurer, moneylender, judge.

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:
Bohemian personality, mysterious, highly gifted, capable of understanding ancient books. Magical abilities, could be a servant of dark forces.

Lessons that your last past life brought to present:
The timid, lonely and self-confident people are everywhere, and your problem – to overcome these tendencies in yourself and then to help other people.

~Unazyd~

What Does My Name Mean? Unazyd, The Meaning of Names (1922-11-3)

What does the name "Unazyd" mean? A name is much more than just a name!

U is for uncanny, the way you know what to do.
N is for neatness, your orderly way.
A is for acquaintance, the many friends you know.
Z is for zeal, your zest for life.
Y is for youthful, your eternal look.
D is for desire, your thoughts do aspire.

Out of 5,364,811 records in the U.S. Social Security Administration public data, the name "Unazyd" was not present. It is possible the name you are searching has less than five occurrences per year in each state. You might want to use a short version of your first name or perhaps your nickname.

On the other hand, you simply have a name that no one else in America is using. For 132 years only your parents have thought of using your name. Hoorah! You are a unique individual.

Your name in reverse order is "Dyzanu". A random rearrangement of the letters in your name (anagram) will give 'Yaudzn'. (How do you pronounce that?)

Your past life Unazyd:
I do not know how you feel about it, but you were a male in your last earthly incarnation. You were born somewhere around the territory of Southern China approximately on 1075. Your profession was shepherd, horseman, forester.

Your brief psychological profile in that past life:
Revolutionary type. You inspired changes in any sphere — politics, business, religion, housekeeping. Could be a leader.

Lessons that your last past life brought to present:
You are bound to solve problems regarding pollution of environment, recycling, misuse of raw materials, elimination of radioactivity by all means including psychological methods.
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Most of those actually kind of matched up with the character's character. The gods though, I had to give them the most farthest year to be their birth year. I had a laugh at them and thought to back to mine. Mine kinda sucked compared to theirs. Oh well. Atleast I had fun.

Well today is my 21st birthday but nothing special to do or get. Just a day with some cake and a few friends. Happy Birthday to me!

Valentine's Day...just the sound of it makes me cringe. I think in one point in time I did like it but that's a myth to be discovered.
I never liked it because:
1. All couples are out and about.
2. Lovey dovey talks
3. Kisses surrounding me (not on me but around me)
4. Love
5. Confessions of love (to others, not me)
6. Couples
7. Love auras
8. Gifts/roses
9. Hearts
10. The whole damn day

Being a forever alone seems to suit me better since I don't like love in general. Too many complications all together.

On that note, I actually sent a Valentine's gift, on DA, to me telling me and quote, "Just to fill that empty space/heart." Yeah I'm that low but I don't give a damn anymore. I gave up a long time ago and may not be there again anytime soon.

Welp! Time to get back to doing homework, art, dreams, and stuff. See ya dudes later.

Just to question those who actually pay attention. If I made a My Little Pony comic of another fan made comic, will anyone read it? I know I got other comics to make (mostly the Wareka's Past comic but I couldn't think of the story line) but yeah if I made MLP comics of the Rainbow Factory will anyone read it? My version is about the same but I twist it around to fill in the gaps and loops of the story. I love the story but did you ever notice that the beginning started out good and suspenseful then started to turn into this silly less scary story and does loop holes in a bunch of places. Yeah I'm trying to cover those up with a turn of evil. Sure, the failed are grinned into rainbows is evil but you must expand your reign without suspicion until you're ready to take over...well the world. I'm sure that some brony is going to get angry about this idea for this one part of the story so I'll keep it to myself until the comic page comes out. I rather set it in stone so I won't change it because people don't like the idea and say "Impossible! Change it!". Too late, I already threw it out there with some plausible logic so deal with it.
.......I sounded like a douche there but meh. I'll get working on it.