I was clicking through my gallery and realized that I haven't put anything up in a full year as of yesterday. What's worse is it was a 'Google for pictures and drop them in' meme. The last piece of art work I actually put up was in 2008. Over 3 god damn years ago. That's honestly pathetic. Its been going on 5 years since I actually was in a art class of some sort. I never really used this site as somewhere to drop my class work but rather a side for the anime/manga stuff I was hooked on. The down side now is that's become all I ever work on, and its probably hurt me more than anything cause I just get lazier and lazier with things. I really love art, ever since I was little I've doodled and scribbled, sometimes on stuff I shouldn't have, so it saddens me to lose touch with it so. Plus I've got a painting/photography major friend that flat out said to me 'Pencil is a pussy medium'. Hell, sure why not, but its cheap, and I like it so fuck you. I wish I had a better jumping off point to get back into form. Classes aren't an option anymore, there's just no room. I never really appreciated it when I was in high school, but I need that "Draw this" and then get told how I screwed up. I guess a little structure helps right? I tried to get into a 'Draw every day' habit, but I started drawing the same thing over and over again, and eventual stopped to get other work done. I think I'm just disappointed in myself that I've left something I really loved behind.
You know you're getting old when you have enough of a life to look back on and have regrets.