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Someone gifted me with a core membership for a bit and I only just noticed a few days ago, and I've only remembered to do this now, what does that say about me and my focus when on here?

At any rate, I wanted to tell whomever it was that I am flattered and grateful for it!
Thank you so much! 

Oh! And a belated Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year and all of that stuff!
  • Listening to: ASMR
Ah, Halloween! I do love it. Time to sit in my room, ignore the brats knocking at my door, and eat handfuls of sweets!

  • Listening to: Fireworks go off--WHAT? WHY?
  • Drinking: Tea
Well, 2016, you're rubbish so far. Two remarkable people are now gone. Cancer is a right bellend. I'm so upset and heartbroken over the news.

  • Listening to: Smash Mouth - All Star
...that Gemma's small heart grew three sizes that day.

I'm going to be doing free commissions for people for Christmas time-ish -- I know I'm starting this late, shut up. (December - January)
This could be:
~ A drawing/Illustration
~ 3D Render (keep in mind I'll be using DAZ Studio so am limited on what I can and cannot do)
~ Literature (Fanfiction or otherwise)

You must be as detailed as you can when giving information on what you want, please. References may be required.
I also cannot promise that I will get it done for Christmas day, it really depends on what it is I'm asked to do. I can also decline a request if I think I will not be able to do it justice.

Note me or comment on this journal.

I may be a grump during Christmas time, but I'm still nice. Right?

  • Listening to: Smash Mouth - All Star
Not only am I going to try and sketch (and/or paint) daily, but I'm going to write daily and I'm now taking commissions:

Commission Sheet 2015 by GothicVampireFreak

  • Watching: Markiplier
Title says it all!


Golly, time seems to have flown by and I hate it.

I'm leaving University for good soon. Degree Show and Graduation in June. 

I'm going to miss all of my classmates, my class has been a second family to me almost, I've bonded with them all in different ways and I'm going to miss all their faces and voices. Same goes for my lecturers. Hopefully I will keep in touch with them all one way or another.

In other news, because of Borderlands: The Pre-Sequel and Tales from The Borderlands, my love for Handsome Jack has skyrocketed. In Borderlands 2 I loved the guy. He's one of my favourite "Villains" of all time I think!

He is insane, yes, he's out of his damn, sexy, mind but bloody hell do I love to hate him! Or just love him. I am completely obsessed with him now, I know more about his character from the games and I'm in love. I fangirl whenever I hear and see him now, it's ridiculous. 

The Pre-Sequel is also a lot of fun, I've not played it all myself but my brother has and I have seen/heard all Jack stuff. Pre-Sequel has made me see certain characters in another light as well, seeing as I'm on Jack's side now and forever.

Tales from the Borderlands only serves to increase my love for Jack. I am longingly waiting for the next episode to come out so I can see more Jack...and so I can see where the story goes but mostly it's my love for Jack.

Overall my days have consisted of me doing Uni work until the early hours, stressing over life outside of education, having hard pangs whenever I think of the day I will walk away from my classmates, and daydreaming about Handsome Jack...

Yeah, I know, I know...

I still have yet to organise and plan my graduation too. I'm pretty pissed off with both the Degree Show and the Graduation because of one thing that connects the two, and that's money. My classmates and I have had to organise and pay for our own Degree Show, so we've had to band together, each pay something towards it, and ask friends and family to assist. If anyone has been a student before, they know that we students don't have a lot of cash to go splash around, nor the time, more so during the final years of our course, but we are expected to pay for our own Degree Show and also pay through the nose for guest tickets and our Graduation gowns and hats, why they aren't included in the immense price of the course I don't know. My course was around 3 grand and though I can get loans and whatnot, that money goes towards travel, food, equipment and whatever else is needed. I've already spend £75 on tickets so my family can come and see me graduate, next I need to pay around £90 for the silly gown and hat. I'm very tempted to just turn up in Hogwarts robes.

Hopefully my annoyance over the whole ordeal will have gone on the day otherwise... 

  • Listening to: Kongos - Come With Me Now
...birds sing hey ding... a-ding, a-ding, sweet lovers love... the spring.

"So much time and so little to do. Wait a minute. Strike that. Reverse it. Thank you."

Okay, enough of the Wonka quotes!

Spring is here! Well...basically here. It's still mighty nippy here in good ol' England but the sun is out-ish and the daffodils are sprouting, and the warmth of Spring should be close behind...way behind...but still coming!

I am very, very, VERY busy with University work. It is my last year and my final major project needs to be done--as well as external briefs and reports and all manner of other stuff. Some of my work will be posted on here I think! And in my breaks, in my spare time, I want to do other personal projects and arty stuff that keeps me calm and relaxed and not want to run away screaming or curl in a corner and weep...SO! Random other images/stories should be uploaded soon too, but it all depends on the time I have to do the things I enjoy.

There was an eclipse today also, one I missed because I was overcome with adoration for a lizard at Pets at Home! I need and want this lizard! The cute thing crawled right up to the glass cage when I looked in, licked the glass where I was and stared at me...I WANT THE LIZARD! I think he was a Juvenile Collared Lizard, but I can't be sure...and I wasn't paying attention to the label below the cage, I was distracted by the cuteness that was that adorable lizard! I really want to buy him now...

Anyway, this was just a small update on things.

Now it is time I go off and do more Uni work! Toodle-pip!

  • Watching: Cry Plays: Call of Cthulhu
...Still not a fan of it, however I wish everyone else a Happy Valentine's Day anyway... 

Valentine? Boring!  Sherlock VDAY Card by dauntingfire

A Very Dalek Valentines by amy-liu
Let's unleash Ragnarok, Valentine. by VincentChan
  • Watching: Cry Plays: Always Sometimes Monsters
Well, it's a new year! Let's hope it's a better year than the year before...not that last year was bad or anything, it's just something people say...I assume...

Anyway! No resolutions for me, I'd only forget or fail or just not do them, because I'm lazy...

I hope you all had a great new year party and whatever else. Hopefully you weren't silly and didn't get too drunk.

Things I'm looking forward to in the new year are:


Avengers: Age of Ultron
  • Watching: Star Trek
Is it just me, or are people not saying "Merry Christmas" anymore and instead they say "Happy Christmas"? It's always been "Merry" to me, "Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year" sounds better to me than "Happy Christmas and a Happy New Year". I hate how PC everything is getting...

I'm not taking offence or saying that I am right and everyone else is wrong, I'm not so ignorant or arrogant, I just hate how people change things "just because" nowadays, just because someone, somewhere, thinks it's Politically Correct.

Anyway, enough of that, I say Merry Christmas!

In other news, J.K. Rowling has written Draco Malfoy's story:…

She says that she is unnerved by fans liking Draco Malfoy, that he is not "concealing a heart of gold under all that sneering prejudice" and she doesn't understand why people like him so much. First of all, she made him likeable, no matter how hard she says she didn't and that she merely feels pity for Draco and nothing more. Fans were liking Draco Malfoy before the adorable and later handsome Tom Felton took the role. Draco Malfoy is not overly good but he isn't overly bad either; he's mean, conflicted, but there's some good somewhere, as has been shown in the books/films, and that's what people/fans like.

I love Draco Malfoy. He's bit of a prick sometimes, true, but most of my favourite characters are. He is a smart, talented person who'd not hurt-- --*awkward cough* who'd not hurt many people...much...Harry Potter doesn't count, I've wanted to stamp him in the face myself.

  • Listening to: Freak Kitchen - Freak of The Week
Things are tedious to me lately. (not in any particular order)

1. Christmas Adverts = Yes, I am a grump/grinch when it comes to Christmas but it's not just that...I see the same bloody adverts over and over and over again and it's just getting a tad frustrating.  Side-note:  That gif is horrifying, sorry in advance!

2. Katie Hopkins = The woman can be a complete and utter bitch, it's true. I admire how opinionated she is about everything but that's not to say I care what she is opinionated over. She can think and say whatever she wants, it doesn't affect me or change the way I, myself, think...but it does get on my nerves, and it's not just what she says that's getting annoying, but the fact that everyone is talking about her and that people are even trying to get her arrested, and it's just getting ridiculous. Also, she commented on Benedict Cumberbatch's fiancée when she had no reason to. She always has to comment on something, anything, just to get a response, and we all give it to her. Here's an idea, instead of petitioning on trying to get her arrested, how about we petition to have her twitter account deleted? Or for her to bog off and keep her opinions to herself? Or for her to change her children's names, because frankly they are appalling. Side-note:   She's an ugly cow, inside and out.

3. Kim Kardashian's arse = I'm sick of seeing her photoshopped arse everywhere I turn online. It's not attractive, showing off your buttocks like that, and it's getting beyond a joke now with the amount of other photoshopped images of her. First it was a laugh, now it's pathetic.  Side-note:  I know I'm sort of contradicting myself by having that gif there...

4. Sexual Abuse claims on Youtube = I have nothing against people coming forward with allegations and seeking comfort and advice on Youtube, a big part of the Youtube community - me included though I hardly do much there - are there for the victims when they think no one else is, but what is getting irritating to me is the fact that, beyond Youtube, it seems nothing is being done about those that have been accused. I don't think they should be automatically guilty, there is such a thing as false claims, but I do think that if there is a huge amount of evidence stacked against them (like there is with Sam Pepper) then they should be banned/deleted/kicked off Youtube and other media sites. I'm angry to see Youtubers still dong Youtube (and probably still getting paid etc) whilst there is a large amount of evidence against them, or they have admitted to certain things, and nothing is being done about it. Those that have been more or less proven to have sexually assaulted someone, should not be on Youtube and should not be able to keep the millions upon millions of fans that are probably, largely, underage sporting them.  Side-note:   I know the most recent sexual abuse claims on Youtube are going through the police, and apparently others before have done as well, but I don't see any outcome from it all and it's pissing me off 

5. New series of Doctor Who = *SPOILER ALERT!*

People can disagree with me, I don't mind, but personally, to me, the episodes of the new series that I have seen have all been lacking. I only enjoyed and was interested in two episodes. Just two, and even those two had things that could have been done better. The thing that annoys me is that I know the writers and the directors can do better. It feels like they aren't putting much thought and energy into them, I mean, the moon as an egg? Seriously? That's just bad. Really, really, bad. And trees suddenly growing overnight only to save the world and then disintegrate away like they were never there in the first place? Dear lord! And the bit about people forgetting such a thing as well? What a load of bullshit! Come on Steven Moffat and writers, get your heads into gear, what on earth are you doing/thinking? I know they can do better, way better, yet they give out this rubbish? It isn't on!  Side-note:  I think most of Doctor Who hasn't been as good as it could have been, there is a lot of protectional there and I don't think it's been grabbed and used. I'm not a huge Who fan either, so that should be taken into account, but overall, I am very disappointed with the recent episodes.

6. Rigging a 3D character in Maya = This will be the last one. I can complain for England, so I have to stop it somewhere. Lately I've been rigging a Dolphin model that I modelled for an up and coming animation, and let me tell you it is the most tedious thing you could do. At first I thought it was fine and dandy, but then came naming the joints, creating the controllers for the joints, naming them, parenting them or grouping them and parenting them(in the correct order), and then comes the skinning and the paint weight-ing, and that is what I'm stuck on now. Not stuck as in I don't know what I'm doing, but stuck because it's taking me ages just to get the right bits to move with the right controllers/part of the model! It's all so annoying and long-winded and it's taking up time that I need!  Side-note:  However, even after complaining and knowing how boring it can be, how repetitive and time consuming, I still want to get better at it and hopefully do it as a job...yeah, I know I'm odd.

I feel much better now that is off my chest! I do adore a good rant/vent from time to time, as I'm sure most of you know by now.
As Halloween gets closer and closer, I've been thinking about my love for those fanged creatures known as Vampires and some of my favourites, and though I cannot possibly put them in order of the ones I like the best (because I love them all for different reasons) I thought, while I sit here multitasking between Uni work, keeping warm, and reading, I could write a random, silly journal entry and list my favourites...just because.

Sorry in advance for the amount of gifs...



Fright Night

Jerry Dandrige  

Buffy The Vampire Slayer

Spike A.K.A William the Bloody


Angelus (and sometimes Angel when he isn't a whiny arse)


Willow (as a Vampire from the episode The Wish)

True Blood

Eric Northman

Bill Compton (William Thomas Compton)



Interview with the Vampire/Queen of the Damned


Queen Akasha  

I think I'll stop with just one more gif...

  • Listening to: Pentatonix - White Winter Hymnal
  • Reading: Uni blog
  • Eating: Rich Tea Biscuits
*UPDATE* 08/10/15

Just heard that they are now expecting a baby and I am SO HAPPY ABOUT THE CUMBERBABY THAT I CANNOT STOP SQUEEING AND SMILING!!

Seriously, my cheeks hurt because of the amount of smiling I've been doing! 

CONGRATULATIONS Benedict and Sophie!

*UPDATED* 5 November 2014

I just became aware of Benedict being engaged and I am SO HAPPY FOR HIM! No, really, I am! :D

You'd think I wouldn't be but I really, truly am!

CONGRATULATIONS Benedict Cumberbatch and Sophie Hunter…


This Journal entry is just to tell everyone I am completely mental and quite fancy a man I won't ever know in person. I can only love him from afar. Hurrah for idiotic celebrity crushes!

Why do I have to crush on someone I don't know and that thousands of other women/girls gush hard over? Just why?

Before Sherlock, before Benedict portrayed one of my favourite fictional characters, I hardly knew much about him, I had seen him in passing in Heartbeat and Fortysomething (wherein he was Hugh Laurie's son!) and other such things, but he instantly came to my attention when he took on Sherlock Holmes. At first I hated the thought of the show, when I first heard of it I was annoyed that they were modernising Sherlock Holmes and thought it would be rubbish, and thought the man with the weird face would make a balls up of Sherlock...but man was I wrong. The first few moments of the first episode and I was hooked.

I fell in love with Benedict's Sherlock, not Benedict himself, just his Sherlock...but then I had to go and watch interviews with him didn't I? I had to find out that the man is multi talented and a perfectly lovely, courteous and intelligent bloke, a true gentleman (or so he comes across). The more I watched of him, the more I fell for Benedict himself. It's stupid, I know. I don't know him, I can't possibly like him as much as I think I do, but bloody hell I do...he seems so brilliant and is gorgeous, both with his weirdly attractive looks and his fantastic personality. And those eyes...

I hope I get to meet him, have him autograph something or have a picture with him. I swear I'm not one of those crazy really, I'm not. I won't scream or faint or anything like that. I'd be nervous, sure, and probably blush completely crimson, but I won't hug him and never let go or anything like that... 

Benedict Cumberbatch I really, really, really like you. Love you even, in a don't-know-you-but-love-you-anyway sort of way.

...Why am I so weird? I need help.

  • Listening to: Pentatonix - Papaoutai feat. Lindsey Stirling
On Wednesday I went to the premiere of The Imitation Game (as the title of this Journal said). It was amazing, for one thing I went along the red carpet, but also the film was brilliant as were the cast! It was a very moving and great film and I suggest and recommend people giving it a watch. Though I did not get the autographs I thought I would get (people on the red carpet were ushered into the cinema whilst the cast went around and signed things and posed for photos with the people that had lined outside for hours for a chance to meet their heroes) I enjoyed the entire night immensely! London is always something to visit no matter the occasion. 

  • Listening to: Van Canto - Wishmaster
It's almost time I go back to Uni. I cannot wait yet I am nervous and scared what it will bring. Once I go back I shall be in my Third year of Animation, my last year, and I know it will be hard work and I know I am sure to do my best, but I still fret, as everyone does.

Though, during my summer, I thought I had ample time to get some of my Summer project done and my final project started, I haven't done all that I wanted. A lot of mishaps and problems arose during the summer and I did not get to do/finish all that I intended, however, this has not put me off or brought me down. At least I got something down and have something to show/talk about once I'm back!

In other random news, I recently heard that Sherlock series 4 will be "devastating" and that it made the crew cry... were they good tears or bad tears? I'm not sure how to feel about this, I have many ideas/guesses on what it could be but it could also be something completely different. I'll just have to wait and see I suppose.


Also, I heard that some obsessed fan of Benedict Cumberbatch has found out where he lives and is posting his address online, this needs to be stopped. If you see this person/address please report and block! This has angered me and quite a lot of fans, this is just pathetic, unacceptable behaviour!

  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Tea!
It might be a tad mushy or whatever but I don't care. This Journal is to say a massive THANK YOU to Daniel Corrales :icontransitoryspace: whom has been a constant help ever since we started conversing on here. He's helped me so much already with modelling in Maya, giving me a tone of PDF files to read through to help with my progress and tutorials to watch.
So, to Dan, I say thank you, thanks so much :meow: :highfive: :tighthug:

  • Listening to: Ralph Vaughan Williams- Household music (1920)
So, it's nearly Valentine's Day, a day I'm not a fan of, however in spite of that fact, I shall be uploading a Valentine's Day themed image...sort of, and I wish everyone else a Happy Valentine's Day. :heart:

...and so on :meow:

I don't know about anyone else but I never succeed or fulfil my resolutions, not properly anyway. I always seem to forget about them or I'm just plain lazy.

This time, this year, I shan't bother with resolutions, I don't think. 
All I need on New Years is a big mug of hot tea and the third series of Sherlock on the tele! Oh yes! I'm definitely looking forward to seeing that!

The launch trailer resulted in me squealing quite loudly in excitement:…

And the mini episode had me speechless...well, no that's a lie, after reading John's blog online and then watching the mini episode, I couldn't stop talking! I mean, Anderson, really? I wasn't expecting that at all!…

So, that's my New Years in a nutshell. Sherlock and tea.

I hope all of you have a good New Years planned and if you all have resolutions, I hope you'll stick to them, I know I can't seem to.
  • Watching: Game Grumps
  • Eating: An Apple