Should I really be thinking about this right now? God I really just want to upset myself, don't I?
Thinking about my self worth during history class isn't the best for my performance. Granted, I've already finished all of my assignments, two days ahead of the class in fact, however the teacher already hates me. If I space out too much he will yell at me.
Watching those two together, really annoys me. Usually I have my emotions under control, I never get angry or sad. It's actually pretty disturbing. I never cry. I want to cry. I can't.
I'm just telling myself things I don't want to hear...or is it true. Is that really what he's thinking? Does he really think that since shes so much better than me, that that's why he is dating her and hating me?
I don't know what I did wrong, the only explanation is that he really does think I'm ugly and boring.
Why do I care?! I thought I liked Mila now. And I do, I dont even like him anymore, so why am I hating myself now? Mila is pretty, down to eart