I am still alive.
I never thought I'd be one of these people who stopped posting, writing and managing the groups... And here I am.
I guess I owe an apology for all my group members, which are many people... I am sorry.
Yeah, I am not going to justify myself, but I frankly thought of leaving DA, as I don't have time, nor will to do anything on this platform anymore. Actually socializing on the internet never was my strong side. I prefer to see the people I talk to...
Lately I was so busy with losing and finding a new job, managing stuff at home, family matters, these blasted studies I need to complete... Finally I finished all the tests I had this summer, Now I need to write two seminars (Big written tasks) to conclude my BA.
And the other course I was taking...
Also now I've got a nephew. She is the sweetest kid ever. I really love her.
Drawing seems so distant... It feels that I no longer know how to...
Although I've been this June on the workshop with Bobby Chui, Kei Acadera and Sam Neilson, which are amazing people and artists.
It was inspirational and emotional for me.
For anyone who might be unfamiliar with their art:
So, yeah... My work completely consumes my dreams, yet, finally I have stable income... I don't need to count every single penny... I feel more free and hopeful that way, regarding my future in my personal life.
I probably never admitted here before, how much a stable work is important to provide yourself in life.
Yet, it is been a while since I touched my books... I feel like my brains loose their imagination, inspiration and will to create.
I am scarred it will disappear and I will feel empty within... Work is important, but... I don't want to live - to work. I want to work, so I'd be able to live the life I want.
Well anyways, I'm generally ok. I just need somehow to come to understanding, what place art, photography, literature and singing hold in my life...
I will not promise any empty promises, I don't wish to let anyone down, but I'll keep trying doing my best.
I hope you are all alright.
So hopefully see you around,