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Four Horseman am I

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Four Horseman am I

Pestilence I bring to destroy my the fruit of my efforts. Plague my self with mental illness War I created through my own actions Death will come at my on hand. I am my own personal apocalypse.

Lost

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Lost

I keep looking but can not find what I seek. Maybe I don't even know what it is I am looking for. On my journey to find what is missing, I have become lost. Now I am looking for myself

Void

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Void

My heart rests in this place A void created by my own mistakes In this dark void I hear a call I shell go and follow this voice Once more let us see if we can leave this void.

After Love

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After Love

For we all know — and those who've been through a break up know it better than most — that with love comes the risk of loss and the risk of being hurt. And we also know that we're wired for love, that no matter how many times you've been hurt, you'll likely try again at some point.

The Path of Self Love

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The Path of Self Love

"Loving oneself is the prerequisite for our psychological and spiritual sanity. We have been created to honor and love our existence. This is the deepest reason behind the instinct of survival among all living things. However, as we evolve, so does the concept of self-love. There is lower self-love and higher self-love; there is distorted self-love and there is conscious, intelligent and awakened self-love. In order to love oneself, one needs to know oneself and become intimate with the subtle dimensions of one’s existence. That self that we are born to love is not static; it is constantly changing. The very reason for its existence is

Self Truth

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Self Truth

I am the thing i fear most. I am in truth the worst of the worst. I am my worst enemy. Can I learn to love myself again? Only time my heal my guilt.

Void

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Void

The moment when there is nothing left to say. The emptiness is a void that never seems to fill up.

The Game

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The Game

Starting back at square one means you get to play the game differently. This time I plan to win.

The beach

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The beach

Did you ever feel like you are waiting for the waves to break.  Hoping for the shoreline to change. Like you are lost in a rip current and just waiting for a breath of fresh air.

Truth

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Truth

Well I am back after a much needed break from the net. Alot has changed and somethings remain the same. My experiences have brought me to a new point in my life. Although I was/am still heart broken  because I allowed outside influence to cloud my better judgment. These influences made me act in a manner that destroyed any chance of a possible friendship with a great person; who is now gone from my life. I had thought about writing them and try to explain myself and actions but I have come to the conclusion; this may make matters worse.  I chosen to let it go by writing here. This situation has become a life lesson and I am so very sorry fo
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Four Horseman am I

F

Four Horseman am I

Pestilence I bring to destroy my the fruit of my efforts. Plague my self with mental illness War I created through my own actions Death will come at my on hand. I am my own personal apocalypse.

Lost

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Lost

I keep looking but can not find what I seek. Maybe I don't even know what it is I am looking for. On my journey to find what is missing, I have become lost. Now I am looking for myself

Void

V

Void

My heart rests in this place A void created by my own mistakes In this dark void I hear a call I shell go and follow this voice Once more let us see if we can leave this void.

After Love

A

After Love

For we all know — and those who've been through a break up know it better than most — that with love comes the risk of loss and the risk of being hurt. And we also know that we're wired for love, that no matter how many times you've been hurt, you'll likely try again at some point.

The Path of Self Love

T

The Path of Self Love

"Loving oneself is the prerequisite for our psychological and spiritual sanity. We have been created to honor and love our existence. This is the deepest reason behind the instinct of survival among all living things. However, as we evolve, so does the concept of self-love. There is lower self-love and higher self-love; there is distorted self-love and there is conscious, intelligent and awakened self-love. In order to love oneself, one needs to know oneself and become intimate with the subtle dimensions of one’s existence. That self that we are born to love is not static; it is constantly changing. The very reason for its existence is

Self Truth

S

Self Truth

I am the thing i fear most. I am in truth the worst of the worst. I am my worst enemy. Can I learn to love myself again? Only time my heal my guilt.

Void

V

Void

The moment when there is nothing left to say. The emptiness is a void that never seems to fill up.

The Game

T

The Game

Starting back at square one means you get to play the game differently. This time I plan to win.

The beach

T

The beach

Did you ever feel like you are waiting for the waves to break.  Hoping for the shoreline to change. Like you are lost in a rip current and just waiting for a breath of fresh air.

Truth

T

Truth

Well I am back after a much needed break from the net. Alot has changed and somethings remain the same. My experiences have brought me to a new point in my life. Although I was/am still heart broken  because I allowed outside influence to cloud my better judgment. These influences made me act in a manner that destroyed any chance of a possible friendship with a great person; who is now gone from my life. I had thought about writing them and try to explain myself and actions but I have come to the conclusion; this may make matters worse.  I chosen to let it go by writing here. This situation has become a life lesson and I am so very sorry fo

Questions of Confusion

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Questions of Confusion

If I can remember your name, then who am I? If I can't speak, then what do I say? If I can't see, where do I go? If I can't hear, then how do I listen If your not there, then who is next to me? Who am I? If I repeat, will I remember what I said? How do I tell what is real anymore? If I am not insane, then why am I locked up? If I am not sick, then why am I having treatment? If I am not 'myself' then who I am really? If I am not locked in, then why is the door locked? Why are there no windows in this room? If I am not a prisoner, then why do I have people watching me? If am a person then why do I have a number? Why do I wear the same clothes

The Dark

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The Dark

In the dark you fade away; It eats at you, In every which way. But in the day, You don't want to stay; So you hide away, Afraid of what they might say. How could they harm you if you're not there? Would they just talk to the thin air? Their voices, harsh, and words even harsher, Their faces, determined, with attitudes of fire. You hide away, In the dark, Dare not stray, Into the light - Lest you face, Their evil might. Dare not stray, Into the light - Unless you want, To live life right. Words can hurt, A slap, more so, But stand your ground; And others will follow. You're not alone, in the dark; You're not alone , make your mark.

Embers

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Embers

We stole life from death Saw light in the darkness In this our recklessness Banishing us to this hell Life apart has taught me Love is the truth of being In the winter of yearning Fire awaits love’s burning Kindled in the night blazing We set skies alight in haste For the dying embers falling Last but a breath of eternity Somewhere in time we live The dream we once knew Cradled in each other’s arms In rapture only gods believe Find me here at rest, asleep Awaiting the hour you return That day shall find earth awake In the new hope of the reborn

Waiting

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Waiting

His smile, Gone with the ship His words, Washed away by the sea. I didn't think that our last goodbye would really be the last. Written down in my past and his life. Now we wait, For the ship that brings him home. As a tide of black mourning, We raise up to say our final farewells. Goodbye my dear godfather, We love you.

come back my way.

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come back my way.

I had a Star In the palm of my hand It burnt me with its beauty I hit the Earth Crash-landed in the dirt But I lived to tell the tale I have these dreams Foggy and honest Only to rise with the sun And a feeling of nostalgia Though I thought we were falling I was the only one to land And I watched you fly away Hoping this was for the best Too proud to ask you to stay Silently knowing that one day You’d come back my way
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Him/You

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Him/You

You are the reason I seem to hold on.  Even though you are breaking down too, I try my best to be strong for both of us. I pray for the day you can accept me, even for my mistakes and faults.  I hope you know that the voices in my head wont let me live down the shame and guilt of my latest mistake and my heart breaks more every day because of it. And you are the only one Im telling the truth to about it.... Everybody else is told its hormones. I want to love you, and be loved in return. Figured it would help heal us both. Youre on the fence and I have my heart in hand ready to give to you, to trust you with, allowing you to crush it but

Mmm

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Mmm

You know your in trouble As a writer When you can't find the words to say Not writers block More like mmm His eyes are mmm The sound of his voice as he sang his favorite song is mmm The way it seemed like he was singing to you is mmm The way your stomach flipped was mmm The pain in your cheeks from smiling was mmm The thoughts in your mind were mmm The feel of his shoulder pillowing your head was mmm Mmm mmm mmm Mmmmmm mmm mmm I can't even describe how i feel right now Its just a big dopey smile And mmm

without each other (2015)

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without each other (2015)

i can't believe its been so long. could i have been so goddamn wrong? i remember naked dawns, i remember singing songs watching stars through moonlit palms now September comes along and i pretend that i'm so calm but it kills to know you're gone and you're never coming home we're destined to be alone with other lovers that we now own, but without each other we're still alone.

To An Ex I'd Rather Forget

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To An Ex I'd Rather Forget

I hope that you never think, think about me I hope that you don’t think you made me happy I hope that you didn’t believe, didn’t believe me When I said it wasn’t your fault, it was mine, When I said that I was fine, And you never crossed the line, I hope you know I lied. It took a year to admit how you hurt me, And another year to realize it wasn’t just me I hope you know how I was in pain, Every day, every day, every day… I hope that you didn’t believe, didn’t believe me When I said the fault was mine, it was fine, And you never crossed the line, I hope you know I lied. I hope that you neve

Maybe Love Is For The Wicked

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Maybe Love Is For The Wicked

Maybe it is heartache, confused in the brain. Maybe it is all fake, going borderline insane. Maybe love is for the wicked, too foolish to feel. Too tangled up in the pursuit to sort out what is real. For you, my love, against white we stain. Keeping it simple, keeping it plain. Because the more we lose the more we gain. & Forever, the verge, tilting with each beat. Leaving a roses-red trail and ramble on with cold feet. Giving all that I have because you are all that I need. But Maybe, I am amongst the wicked, too foolish to feel. Getting tangled up in the pursuit and I don't care for what is real.
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I want to believe in love again, some one out there will restore my faith.
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Giving this guy a chance... here I go again.

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