For a while now I’m trying to beat my self-loathing state as I try to make plans to move away and I’m being a massive bummer to be around for everyone here.
But facts don’t fucking lie, I’m losing patreon money, Im’ losing publicity in general, and it really stings to see your friends going on about how many commissions they got while I got three at best, two which from long time friends, not actual customers I’d say.
This worries me, REALLY REALLY worries me because I want to make the damn cash. I NEED to.
So let me lay out the situations okay?
I’m currently living with an abusive mom who called being trans a bad excuse for bad grades, constantly calling me lazy through out life. I’ve been told that nobody wants to hire me for a job because “nobody wants to hire a fat girl” since I was very young, around 15 or so and I might not act like it but I am living in FEAR of this woman.
This woman made me delete all my contacts