Loosing Inspiration
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As many noticed I haven't really posted here, or many other places often. Well I've been busy with university and work, so I haven't had time to do much. Although I do have a large amount of free time after classes, which my mind tends to wonder and occupy the time. There are times where I want to draw but I lose motivation to do so. Honestly, when I try to draw something I always despise it because I know someone else can one-up me and laugh in my face. Especially when I see others improve and draw better works than myself, it demotivates me to continue. Sure, I shouldn't judge my work to others, and only compare my work to my work... but, it still burns into my mind, feeds my doubt, and makes me no longer continue something I use to enjoy.
-I still continue to draw, only more faintly because of my lack of noticeable improvement over the year. Though often thought about stopping to draw altogether numerous of times, I keep at it somewhat. Not sure what else to think about this, all I know that my mind is pressuring me to give up in general... but I'm not fond of losing to anyone/anything. [I HATE LOSING]
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KazakhKauProfessional Traditional Artist
AJ nailed it,
I myself, just today, saw an album of artwork a young artist created; the work she created was impossibly good,
I think she's a year older than me, but the album was posted in the last two years; that's insane. I wish I could just take her skill and make it my own. There will always be someone better than someone, the only way it's different is how we see it: being jealous or inspired?
I'm both, yet more envious than inspired.
school work is getting in the way of what I want to do, however what I "need" to do isn't really fun and it's draining my energy and peace of mind,
I really can't notice my improvements because most of the stuff I do is half-assed (school work)
However the stuff that I like to do, I put in the spare energy and time (not a lot)
I get exhausted easily when all I'm doing is designing; IMO designing is not fun at all, I hate it, why am I studying it? I don't know!! But the best way for me to keep my sanity is to keep an open mind, even if it means wasting potential. However if you aren't me, don't take that BS advise, I'm crazy and stubborn sometime.
I bet if you joined some groups of your interest you could get some inspiration from them, I sure did. The more groups the better :D The more you post the more recognition you'll get :D 
That's how a fool like me dreams of fame on the internet :shrug:
Hell, no one likes losing. So don't give up, I don't like to see any artist to give up. AJ talks about your Miiverse  drawings, post those, I'm curious to see them now
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GabtrafStudent General Artist
I know a couple of artists who are younger than me and can exceed me both in art and understanding people. Yet there are a few that think my artwork is good, despite them being extremely good at their craft and well-known on the internet. I'm kind of iffy when it comes to groups, not sure if that's for me. [As much as I like to be noticed on the internet, I'll wait till I start streaming games with my friends on their channel they're creating]
-As for where I currently post my art I'll post the link for you, gabtraf.tumblr.com/tagged/my%2…
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KazakhKauProfessional Traditional Artist
They are crazy good, but they're doing what they do because they know what their style is, 
Unlike myself, I just tend to draw samurai, violence/vulgarity, intense lighting, and decent detail,
It's what I know and maybe I shouldn't compare what I do to what others do because it will only lead me on to someone else's coat tails, I don't want to do that. But it is really hard not to sometimes.
Me sometimes "hey, that looks like it's really popular, maybe if I do what they're doing I'll be recognized," Perfect, I am now recognized as that guy that copied the style of this other artist. I don't want that,
What I finally realized is not being inspired by others so much that I want to be exactly like them, instead I want to do something new and be that inspiration, easier said than done right?

If groups aren't for you, I respect that.

Good luck on your gaming channel, it sound like fun; online games like LoL, Dota, other PvP titles?

Dude, your Miiverse drawings are great, you really have your anatomy style down perfect, those miiverse messages really need to allow more space for drawing.
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AdetoStudent Filmographer
I know man, it sucks. I was actually think about this at school today, just walking to get something to eat, thinking about some drawings I did last night, I realized how lacking I am compared to others. 

Coincidentally (or maybe not), I was on the bus going home and a couple and another lady noticed I was carrying an art case. They asked to see my art and I showed them. For about 20 minutes they continued to tell me that I should keep going and to never give up my drawing goals like they did (the woman said she'd given up drawing, and the man from the couple said that he turned down the art institute).

That really gave me the boost I needed, but I didn't draw when I got home cuz I was tired from doing the homework all night. Haha, but I'm up now to do some drawing cuz I still got the boost from earlier today.

You're being a hard on yourself though. 
I followed you back on tumblr and saw some of your miiverse drawings. You've definitely improved since your last post on here. But stay hard on yourself, it creates good discipline.
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GabtrafStudent General Artist
Thanks, it really means a lot to read this. My mind hasn't been kind to me, so it's been draining my will away from the very things I love doing. 
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AdetoStudent Filmographer
No problem man. I like to think this is natural for artists, or people in general. The struggle makes us tougher.
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