"Look at me you may think you see
Who I really am but you'll never know me
Who is that girl I see staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show who I am inside?"
I'm drawing the same actress again always beautiful and like as if the Sun grew inside her,spreading Light everywhere.Using a selfie she posted many years ago as a reference I wanted to play with the water-Dragon rebirth theme and also convey the vibrant joy of always being a surprise to what you are given the chance to do even more beautifully this time
I have been worried that I am completely trash as a person,only having the chance to use programs manually well to create portraits with the hope of that the joy presents i've granted would undo to me the feeling that I exist as a reminder that something is missing.I have been thinking the last years that i cannot be loved or that there was something wrong,even though even before consciously talking to them myselves were always reassuring me of my usefullness and giving me a nature blooming green light to go ahead fearlessly that i might meet obstacles unready to deal with.What the psychiatrist in charge of the night I was committed to the clinic ssaid the next morning and what my mother informed me of is that I am a person of very high intelligence whom the environment suffocates let;s assume due to the unsubstantial of the artistic nature.Further care will be taken of me from a social worker who seemed really open minded to me.If the girls feel safe they might even open up to her a bit.The fact that i co-share my body or that there is a compartmentalisation doesn't undo the fact that they are different people whom I cannot understand though i;m trying to get close as daughter would sing in run.I'm using descriptions as personal calendars to your tireness,to anyone bothering reading this.The artwork is just an exposion of self-blooming happiness as visually seeming.
Anyhow,also thank you everyone who is still active on this beautiful overloaded network,this old-school artists' cute village in which we are all a sweet family,you all mean everything to me and your feedback immediate or delayed is always like the brightest light in day or night!
Thank you very much
Dedicated to the tender ones
Btw,after all this chaos which was a mix of gained wisdom and experience,i've lost the chance of participating in the exams and a lesson has been completely lost despite endless hours of 3d-experimenting and mastering at the very end.It was an unexpected year,so upside down.The year started last August.
Have a good autumn everyone.
actress is Katerina Misichroni
alternative title is Reprise as in spirited away