Hey! Wow, Been fucking ages since I last visited this place... Big things have happened, lots of changes.
Speaking of changes, seems as though DeviantArt has updated the whole look and feel of the website. Unfortunately, they've still stuck with the crappy colour scheme. Oh well, I guess I'm not the artist of this establishment.
I feel that I've hugely neglected this site and it's people, And perhaps even the people that used to be in my life when I was a happier young lad, studying, not working. I've left a lot of things behind, and I'm going to use this journal on DeviantArt to hopefully restart my artistic spark!
Weather it's just been a hard time for me, adjusting to the independent life, more decisions and responsibilities, in fact I should sleep, I have work in less than 6 hours. Or weather I've just forgotten the things that make me happy.
Friends have tried telling me that it's alcohol that makes me happy... But it's VERY short term, and has side effects.
Family have said it's that they're not around... Perhaps, but I love the freedom.
Some closer friends have still stayed in contact with me, and I with them, And this has made life that little better.
But I feel, the reasons I feel the way I feel, has something to do with all of the above, and more!
It certainly feels good to have a girlfriend.
I'd love to have a better job.
A motorcycle would certainly full fill some fantasies.
Better income would allow for more comfortable living.
Better housemates, that aren't as ignorant, manipulative and stupid, would REALLY help, not only my living standard, but also my sanity and wellbeing.
Perhaps even healthier eating and living would also help...
The point I am trying to make is, I feel I've lost a lot of my personality and my own self being.
If art was my way of expressing myself, or even my way to a better job, since it is my field of study, then perhaps I need to stop being so lazy, stop wasting my time on Facebook, and actually get up and draw something! Model something! Create a logo or a website, for nothing! Just to get it out... Let my artistic creative side explode like a volcano erupting! Throwing glowing lava into the air, and oozing brilliant magma down the edges of myself...
The only way I can make this work, is to make a promise to myself, and to NOT forget about it.
If this idea does not succeed, then...
Well, We'll get to that if it comes around. Lol.
I may make another Journal entry later, to update you all... Or parhaps, to kick-off the artistic side, I should upload photos I've taken, or other artistic things I've made, in a way of telling a story of my past year and a half.
I shall finish this now and Upload another photo before sleeping.