|NPC designs for MegSyv 's Daughter of the Lilies daughterofthelilies.com|
Feel free to ask me questions; I don't do requests, though
1 point = a Llama badge
2 points = I look through your gallery (and fave)
5 points = a sketch of anything you want
10 points = a coloured work (traditional)
20 points = a coloured digital work (plus 2 extra for details)
30 points = a HUUUUUUUGE artwork for you^-^
Commission details: forestfairyunicorn.deviantart.…
So it’s been a while. And it’s been about two years since I was on suspension from school because I didn’t make the passing grade. Now, I was supposed to have only a year, but due to a miscommunication on my part, it’s been delayed to another year.
Which ends as I’ve already submitted a reinstatement, and I’m taking a spring course. However, that’s not why I’m writing this.
I have an addiction.
I’m addicted to using the computer a lot. Social media, online games, Youtube videos, online chatting. I don’t know how long I’ve been addicted to, but I’ve been told about 5 years.
And it’s worse the last couple of years.
It got to a head that when I went to my last appointment with my therapist on Thursday, having Mom come with to know of my progress. Mom told him of my computer habits, and he suggested that after 5 pm, I get off the computer. And have a 2 hour break away midday.
I hated it. I’m forced to take a new system that I largely hated, and it adds to my anxiety of ‘catching up.’
Yes, it’s Tumblr. And also FlightRising. Sometimes Youtube, too.
And I really need to stop. Problem, I like Tumblr and FR. I’ve met cool friends, found resources and inspirations, and have fun.
But it’s eating up my time. Time to create, to do needed tasks, to connect with loved ones. Some of the consequences of ‘catching up’ and being addicted is increasing depression (prolonged inactivity), a build-up of unfinished projects, an increasingly disorganized bedroom and art table, and a virtual reality that’s almost replacing my real life.
So what has happened the past couple of days has been me working on a system, which I excessively hated, since I’m physically cut off from the computer after 5.
And after a failed bargaining, and berating, after a long cry and tantrum, after a motherly cuddle and prayer and more crying, and after a talk, I’m on the system.
What it is, in the morning, before 9 am, I catch up on social media, emails, and other ‘pressing matters.” 9 to 11:30, is digital art time. 11:30 to 12:30 is break time (lunch, social media). 1-3 is active break. 2 hr away from computer and do something productive, like cleaning room. 3-5 is digital art time.
After 5, computer time is done. After that, for 4-5 hours, is traditional art time.
I can do watercolour, inks (recently), and acrylics (not often), and having my time taken up by computer kills my traditional artwork. In fact, during the last 3 and ½ months, I never did any traditional artwork except for schoolwork.
So yes, this system is needed. Especially since I’m back in school, and if I don’t discipline myself, I’ll fail. And I don’t want to do that, because I enjoyed my school.
This is an extremely bitter medicine for me to take, and I rejected it, despised it, and denied it. But like medicine, it’s to heal me, to help me, for me to be the best I can be.
The first couple of days on this medicine has been horrible, but bearable. Things will adjust, especially on days when I work, or when something comes up.
I can do this.
So I won’t be around much in terms of art streaming, late night chatting, or even movie streaming, but I’ll respond to things when I can. I’m still around, just not as much as before, especially after 5 pm EST.
I guess the Buckley’s medicine slogan is true: it tastes awful and it works.
Take care guys~
Sidenote: I’m thinking of having an arts-only blog on Tumblr. Problem is, I want to use my username forestfairyunicorn. Not sure what the personal blog (main)’s name should be, or if I should reblog my art to my art-only blog and delete the ones on the personal. Any ideas and help?
Hi! I'm Forestfairyunicorn, but you can call me Forestfairy, or like some of my friends, FFU, or Forry XDD
The following is inspired by a friend here. You know who you are.
I am an original, yet get inspiration from others.
I like the quiet, yet loud music.
I can be mature, yet childish.
I can speak my words, yet I am silent.
I am friendly, yet I am a loner.
I can be patient, yet impatient.
I love rats and snakes, but can't stand spiders and bugs.
I work hard, yet am lazy to what I should do.
I hate procrastination, yet I do it.
I know lots of things, yet I am clueless.
I can act, but am shy of the attention.
I like trying new things, but I hate the change.
I like to have fun, yet am afraid of what to do.
I smile with every passing day, yet cry over small things.
I accept who I am, yet wish I can be like others.
I try my best, yet I do my worst.
I have a light side, yet a dark part.
I am a granddaughter of angels, a child of Our Father, and yet I believe that I'm not worthy sometimes.
I am a Christian, and I'm proud of it.
I am mysterious, and my name is Forestfairyunicorn.
Current Residence: home
Favourite genre of music: Classical and basically epic
Favourite style of art: All kinds!! Especially Animation
Favourite cartoon character: Whichever interests me at the time.