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I can't think clearly in the way I usually do... this worries me greatly, I can't seem to stop being thoughtful or not thoughtful enough... I don't like this... I'm missing something important... voices I usually talk and converse with- not like full on voices in my head! I think so anyway....
But, personalities that help me through things while I've been depressed, and kept my mind off things... I think why I feel off and out of it is because how I'm now out of school, and at a point of life where I have free choice to do what I want, and most of the worries and problems that had me depressed and down changed this year as I developed a kinda new personality to use in life so I won't be worried or stressed... I think that messed my cycle as I kinda am changed... I feel out of touch of what I was, what I still want to be... I mean I still am, but it feels a bit faded, even when evidence of the personalities I had before are still there, it kinda doesn't feel the same...
I'm tempted to say I want to be depressed and stressed, having reason to worry just to be how I was before... and I wish I would still have my friends and people I knew in school who graduated around... I needed the multiple people who had different views... it keeps me reminded of my goals and wants on who I want to be...
Anyway's sorry for venting on here, but being thoughtful about the conscious and aware of it for most of the time kinda does this to you... at times I wish to be simple, but when this happens, when it does, I want out and want to be back to being complicated... I seek balance in duality... 

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onehitpoint Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2017  Student General Artist
You have no idea how much i can relate im not trying to say i understand you or some bs like that just yeah
FNOKitty Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2017  Student General Artist
Well, it's nice to hear that you may relate to it as you say, even if you do say you don't understand.
onehitpoint Featured By Owner Jun 16, 2017  Student General Artist
Yeah if you need some help i can be someone to talk to :3
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