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raila speaking again

Firstly I would like to apologize for the original journal I wrote.  It was rash.  But I'm sure that everyone can understand the cold upsetting feeling you get in the middle of the night when you find out one of the closest people to you has passed away.  So to be formal...

To Flutterby727's watchers...

I regret to say that Samantha Michelle Nance, mostly known by close friends as "Shelley" passed away yesturday. cbs11tv.com/local/20.year.old.…

I wish not to get into graphic detail about what I do know....but I will share that she was found murdered in her apartment.  I would also like to say that in light of this horrible situation I wish that you would all do your best to keep her in your hearts forever and to make her dream come true of becomming an artist with a well known name.  Not because of her sudden and early death...

But because of her beautiful personality, optimistic attitide, and the fact that she was an artist that never gave up.  Even when she felt that she couldn't make it, she never gave up.  I know that Shelley loves you all and highly appreciates the love she got while she was alive.

I will also like to state that I will no longer be leaving messages in this account, this will be the last journal I write here.  Shelley never did like me messing around on her page anyway

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Hello, this is cosmikfairy.

This will be the only time I ever log onto Shelley’s account because, like Raila said, she doesn’t like it when we mess with her stuff (though, I’m sure she’ll forgive me this one time).

Shelley was my best friend in high school. I would go over to her house every day after school, and we would play video games, draw, and get on dA. We were practically attached by the hip. Every time I go by her old house, I want to see her jumping on her trampoline twirling her baton. Enough about that, though…
This is my final letter to the best friend I’ve ever had the honor of knowing.

You were always there for me and forgave me even when I didn’t deserve it. You showed me what life could be like if you just laughed your way through it and never gave up your dreams. And even though I still cry when I talk about it, I still smile when I think back on all the great memories we have together. You have shown me how to be a better person, and I will try my hardest to do so. Like you told me so long ago, I will never stop being myself.

I love you, Shelley.
<3 ~Grady

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raila speaking again

It's sad I have to take back my words so fast.  But I would appreciate it if you did NOT leave negative comments here.  I don't really care what you think about this situation but for what it's worth Shelley's friends and family are comming to this page to read positive things...to see how she was loved from people....I have personally spoken with her family on the phone and they are very heartbroken about it as anyone would be that knew her.  The last thing anyone, myself included, wants right now is to hear negativity on this.  Please keep any bad comments to yourself.  While this situation may not be important to some, it is VERY real for us who are involved.  I thank you ahead of time for respecting this.

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cosmikfairy again.

They made an arrest today. Her boyfriend's room mate. That is about all I know. The articles are a mess, but at least you can find more information.

CBS 11 - cbs11tv.com/local/student.murd…
Dallas Morning News - www.dallasnews.com/sharedconte…
I had to go home (HOME home) today to go to the dentist. While I was there, I decided to stop by my Grampas house to get him to cut some PVC pipe that I needed for my sculpture project. Mom tried to buy me a hack saw to cut it myself, but I didn't like the idea of me owning a hack saw @___@ *pictures self falling down apartment stairs with it* but now that I think back, it would've come in handy for intruders. It'd be an AWESOME weapon (especially in Silent Hill) ANYWAY~

It went like this


Grandpa: *takes the pipe* you say half an inch?
Me: yeah, that's all I need for each cut.
Grandpa: alright *shoves something into my hands* here hang on to that for me will ya?
Me: .......Is this a..? Grampa you gave me a gun!? Is this thing...is this thing loaded!?
Grandma: DAVID! Don't be handing our grandkids guns!
Grandpa: *not paying attention*
Me: *looking in the revolver slots* Oh my god, it is loaded. You gave me a loaded gun D:!
Grandma: oh god *takes the gun from me*
Grandpa: *starts cutting/BUZZSAW* BZZZZZZZZT



so you see. my family is insane. But I love em anyway. And I may add that, that revolver did look pretty nice, it was just...a loaded gun in my hands. I'm always scared those things are just gonna go off soo....yeah. =/

well...Afest coming up. woo =)
  • Reading: the forest of hands and teeth
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
before I talk about that, I would like to say a huge thank you for everyone who visits/watches/comments/favs. :hug: I just realized I had over 44,000 hits so, thank you!! :heart:

so.....Anime fest next weekend huh? Holy smokes it snuck up on me!! I am now sewing like a mad woman to finish up these costumes (still am at this very moment actually) Anyone else going?

Also, in terms of meeting anyone from dA, I think the only person I'm really going to look for is nekokawai since he said he'd be there. Well...I guess that is if he's still going or not. I gotta find your table at Artists Alley!....if ..you're ..getting one o__o;; I'll stop talking now XD;;

Just a note for anyone who meets me, I'm rather shy and anxious the majority of the time, so if I start acting weird, please excuse me! I'll snap out of it sooner or later.

Also, in terms of costumes, I believe I'm gonna be Rise (persona 4) on saturday! There's a possibility that I MAY be rei (Fatal Frame III) on saturday night but thats IF (IF!) I finish the costume in time! (theres a lot to be done still...) On Sunday, I'm considering being Fuuka (Persona 3) for a while because a girl dressing as Aigis asked me if I would be Fuuka with her, and photoshoots are always fun =)

Can't be there on Friday at all because my day is booked with classes from 8am to 9:30 pm and after that I'm too tired to care anyway.

So, that's pretty much my schedule I guess. I've been too bogged down with school work to really think about afest and get real excited for it, but hey I always have high hopes for anime cons =) (aka the only fun vacations I get nowadays)
  • Reading: the forest of hands and teeth
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
Sometimes I love to look up tutorials on how to draw random stuff. Upon my searches I ran into this: i19.photobucket.com/albums/b15…

LMAO. this never ceases to make me laugh. How long is this ad campaign going on for anyway...?

Oh yeah! I had told one of my teachers at AI about this, and they told me that the Art Institute of Pittsburgh was the main base for all AI schools. So, I'm advertising for AI period. o__o sweet! if only they would properly credit me on these.
  • Listening to: Devil's Trill
  • Reading: the forest of hands and teeth
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
sorry I haven't been around, I'm keeping up with homework. I haven't really been drawing much....at all...and it's bugging me. Whenever I do draw it's never anything I like which bugs me even more.

I have been accomplishing one thing though; embroidery. yeeeah.
ah the things I learn for cosplay. even sadder to think I may be wasting my time
  • Listening to: Vocaloid - Love is war
  • Reading: the forest of hands and teeth
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
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ok it's only a wig for cosplay, but I love it anyhow~
and yes, I'll go study for midterms now
  • Listening to: Vocaloid - Human Sacrifice Alice
  • Reading: the forest of hands and teeth
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
It's been a while. SO. here's some movies I've seen recently.

Let the right one in - tired of Twilight faggorty? Want to watch a movie with REAL vampires? you know, the ones that actually burn in sunlight and..uh..KILL people? Then this is a good movie to look into. It's a Swedish film, but there's actually an accurate english dub (so I learned from comparing it) It's scary, sweet, emotional...wow o_o; a real vampire love story. Seriously, I got more emotion from these kids (yes kids) in one scene then in the whole movie of Twilight. and when this vamp kills......*shudders*

here's the trailer--> www.youtube.com/watch?v=ICp4g9…

Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince - I really do think the HP movies are getting better (yes I like Order of Phoenix, sue me) but this one...daaaamn. The acting was top-notch, plenty of funny parts, balanced with the dark. Just...wow. Seeing it in Imax, I got to see the first 15 minutes of it in 3D which you think would be cool, but there wasn't much to it XD and then I don't think they used the Imax enough, eh....

Here's a full review over at my livejournal--> crimsonfatestar.livejournal.co…

Orphan - It was alright. I certainly think the twist was quite an original one, I didn't see it coming. I was thinking demon possessed little girl, but not that XD. So, good job movie. Also gotta say, that little girl can certainly act, and she was so freaky. However, the movie suffered from the 'jump scare' tactic. After the fifth time of failing to make me jump I was just sitting there thinking 'stop it, you fail. STOP DOING JUMP SCARES.' eh, it made my mom jump so I guess it got someone XD

well...I do play Silent Hill and Fatal Frame so...

I also think that this movie is the ultimate NEVER HAVE KIDS OF ANY KIND scare tactic. The opening scene could stop anyone from deciding to become pregnant. and if you consider adoption, TURN BACK NOW!!!

so ..yeah XD
  • Reading: the forest of hands and teeth
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
we decided that the movie Twilight is and always will be...a comedy for the ages.

yes.

Also, the FF Dissidia soundtrack is freaking AMAZING!!

....I will check messages soon, I swear...
  • Listening to: FF Dissidia soundtrack
  • Reading: the forest of hands and teeth
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
ok guys. I KNOW THERE ARE SOME FANS OUT THERE THAT WATCH ME(I'm looking at yoooou xAerisx mahahahahahahammyess) (shameless Lengendary Frog reference there)

WHAT DO YOU GUYS THINK ABOUT THE AVATAR MOVIE?

Honestly...I can't help but feel a little excited. The only thing so far that I have to complain about is how they made Sokka and Katara white. dude.....they are not white. period.

Other then that, the teaser looked epic. (I want the soundtrack now) but all the while I'm praying that it isn't another 'Dragonball Revolution' ........*vomits*

I'm trusting M. Night Shymalan for the most part, I don't consider him a bad director. come on, it's Avatar. How can you screw that up? hopefully, we won't find that out.

oh yeah and this crosses my mind cause everyone at school was talking about it today. oh us nerds, haha.
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
school starts again tomorrow.

yay?...
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
(clearly stolen from raila but anyway...XD; )

In an attempt to get to know my watchers better, I guess just comment in this journal about yourself. Doesn't matter if you already know me well or whatnot, it's all good! I've always wanted to do something like this but could never find a good day for it. Seeing as it's summer....yeeeah XD

So yeah, I'll go rummage around your profile destroy your gallery and make small talk.

me? uh... well. I'm a 20 year old animation student. I'm down to my last week of summer already which, let's face it, sucks. I enjoy rpgs and horror video games. (mention silent hill or fatal frame and I love you forever!!) oh oh! and Yu-Gi-Oh! too. I am a fan.

also, I'm only doing this for watchers, so if your just some random person who stopped by my page, saw this journal and is digging for pageviews...that's kinda sad...
  • Listening to: Harmony - Kokia
  • Watching: The Spoony Experiment
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
EDIT - Another one!? Someone in advertising must REALLY like that artwork cause it's popping up all over the place... particularly when I'm on Livejournal. If only these ads would credit the owner ya know?  

i19.photobucket.com/albums/b15…

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Since I've only gotten about an hour of sleep in the last 24 hours, and have been torturing my body brutally by trusting it to Six Flags most fierce roller coasters all day long (oh yes that was a joy) and since I was just staring at a giant spider on my ceiling that suddenly disappeared (I'll go to bed after this I swear) I thought I was hallucinating, but..eh....then I looked again....

i19.photobucket.com/albums/b15…

.....wtf XDXD that's clearly taken from this deviation --> flutterby727.deviantart.com/ar…

Pittsburgh? I've never even been to Pittburgh!

well, I guess that's sorta a downside whenever you win in a contest like that; they own that picture now, so I guess they can do what they want with it. Just came as a shocker; of all the art to use, you use mine? o___O ....  why?

lol. Pittsburgh.



good night :heart:

um....also. I'm doing much better, to people who might be wondering. I can eat normally now (with some pain of course) but I'm no longer getting sick and I can live, well, normally =) A week of my summer was wasted recovering from that surgery...so...eh. I gotta make the best of what's left. Six Flags and Transformers 2 was a pretty good start XD
  • Listening to: Vocaloid
  • Reading: Done with HP
  • Watching: 1000 ways to die
  • Playing: Devil Survivor
jesus christ on a cracker WHYYY

the wisdom teeth surgery couldn't have gone better, according to doctors. everything went perfectly fine. I passed out sleeping during it, thank god. I had a dream in a persona format, where I kept hanging out with friend and ranking up social links (is what I get when I played P4 all day before) and then I kept hearing drills and I felt something digging into my gums, but really...it kinda tickled. It felt, dare I say, good.

finally they woke me up and helped me into another room. everything on my face was numb and there was a bunch of gauze stuck in my mouth. Mom took me to whataburger to get a strawberry milkshake, where I had much difficulty eating it. Eating with a paralyzed mouth is strange. got lots of stares. I finally got it down though...

well, I slept a lot, waking up to a mouth full of blood each time. finally woke up feeling very hungry, but i could barely eat. started throwing up late last night. that hurt... finally got some good sleep after lots of meds and thank god my mouth stopped bleeding now, but my cheeks are swollen to high heaven. ow ow oww.... so sick of the taste of blood, dear god.

finally getting around to checking messages. yay. and nothing can seem to keep me from art. I'm painting something at the moment o__O
  • Reading: Harry Potter 7
  • Playing: replaying persona 4 &lt;3
I go in for surgery tomorrow. I guess it's nothing really big or anything, I'm getting my wisdom teeth out. thank god I only have 3 of them o___o;

so...yeah. If I'm not on lately, you'll know why

geez. I'm kinda nervous D:

(and I'm not joyful. the moods are not working for me o__O)
  • Reading: Harry Potter 7
  • Playing: replaying persona 4 &lt;3
I'M DONE! DONE DONE DONE DONE DONE

5 quarters to go, but it's summer time! screw everything else! I'm going to ...relax! (almost forgot the word...) I actually still have a psychology class tomorrow at 6pm, but I love that class so it's no big deal. I have no homework left and so I'm enjoying the great bliss. I haven't gotten much sleep the last couple of days cause of all the homework but it's ok, I took a 6 hour nap when I got home earlier.....uh...yeah...I'm wide awake now so, fun XD

I may be able to post some artwork very soon. I made a deal with myself that I would post no art until I finished the sketch I owe to xAerisx and with that just about done, get ready for that and more
  • Reading: Harry Potter 7
  • Playing: replaying persona 4 &lt;3
s286.photobucket.com/albums/ll…

I hope I got them all @_@....so...many...

and in case you're wondering, I'm actually NOT out for summer yet. won't be for another week.....homework, finals....oh gawd...
then summer, wisdom teeth surgery. GAWDDAMNIT!

anyways, there was a seriously bad storm just earlier. green sky, sirens, sideways rain. preeetty freaky.
  • Reading: Harry Potter 7
  • Playing: persona 4
got a new router to replace the old one! internet is fine now!

sooo....Akon was fun =) I enjoyed it very much. There was quite a persona group there so I was thrilled!

I also got to meet Shaun Healey (uh...Endling) and found that he was a very nice guy 8D I told him thanks for not dying on us (no...I really did. I don't kid) I just wish I wasn't shaking so much while meeting him, damn my anxiety issues. Zombiesmile was also really cool =) And WTF I MET MARZGURL. (from thatguywiththeglasses.com) I had no idea she was gonna be there, so that was quite a surprise XD Just went up to her randomly in line and asked for her picture. she was awesome!

So, besides that, we watched Star Wars and Silent Hill vs Star Trek. Pyramid Head. Enough said. In fact, this years Pyramid Head was the best I have ever seen. EVER.

In fact, there were a lot of Kick Ass costumes this year! and there was actually a giant group of Yu-gi-Oh! cosplayers XD I showed them meh love! (YGO fan at heart) they were pretty cool. someone actually cosplayed grampa. GRAMPA O___O! buuut yes XD

I took so many pictures....I haven't even uploaded them all yet o___o but I will put up a link in a journal as soon as I get them up!
  • Reading: Harry Potter 7
  • Playing: persona 4
my internet WAS fixed...for about one day last week. now I think it is officially dead. my router committed suicide, or ...something...

so yeah, no more internet for me. I guess the break is good for me though, I know I'm addicted to the internet and have withdrawals and stuff (sad) so I guess the days without it are...healthy?

I've been doing nothing but sewing. No. really. I love it now that I'm getting the hang of it. I've finished my Fuuka outfit (YAAAY) and can't wait for Akon this weekend.

I'm still drawing, yeees. and I still haven't forgotten what I owe to people. SO....thank you for your patience guys. :heart: and I hope to see most of you guys at Akon this weekend!! ...(in Dallas Tx)
  • Reading: Harry Potter 7
journal bump.


and randomly, I enjoy these. even if Micel IS known as 'sir slits-his-wrists' (HE ISNT EMO D:!!!) but it's still funny XD oh yeah, and there's inside jokes. lots of em o o

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  • Reading: Harry Potter 7
when me and raila discuss FF7

雷! says:
how sad....Rufus lived through the shinra building's destruction but Denzel's parents didn't.....Rufus was an asshole he should have died.....but he was damn cute and hot guys can't die
Shelley says:
we dont even get an explanation of how he survived either. damn cloud
雷! says:
oh he managd to escape...thats all
Shelley says:
bullshit he was shot dead on
雷! says:
hell Tseng was shot in the head but somehow he survived...tch
雷! says:
yet Aeris stayed dead...oh give me a fucking break
Shelley says:
no see
雷! says:
btw I was right....
"FF7: Chase of Denzel"
Shelley says:
tseng was stabbed dead by sephiroth, left in the ancient temple and then the temple was crunched down to a VERY SMALL SIZE. now see why he was in the movie was just...wrong
Shelley says:
hm...CoD again
雷! says:
gawd can they milk it anymore
雷! says:
that cow is running dry....its saying "bitch STOP!  My udders are turning RED!"
Shelley says:
lets see
Shelley says:
FF7
FF7: AC
FF7: BC
FF7: CC
FF7: DC
FF7: EC
FF7: ACC
FF7: CoD
雷! says:
SEE!
Shelley says:
FUCKIN A STOP JUST STOP
雷! says:
not even including KH appearances and in other games
Shelley says:
EXACTLY
Shelley says:
....*gonna put this in my journal*

and so the you see.....STOP RAPING THINGS FOR ALL ITS WORTH SQUARE ENIX D: *cries*
*goes back to sewing stuff*
  • Reading: Harry Potter 7