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  • Reading: Stark - Ben Elton
It has been a while.  I still check dA and everything but I have not been an active member.

Currently I am confused.  The unrequested love of my life has been turned down from his uni of choice and as such will stay in the area at winch uni.  I feel bad for him.  And yet insanely happy he is still around.  And that is muddling me the fuck up.

I don't know what to think...

Art perhaps to follow.
  • Listening to: To The Metal - Gamma Ray
  • Reading: Stark - Ben Elton
I'm not back...but I never went away...I don't spend much time here nowadays, but I do submit on occasion.

Keep watching.

It's just a matter of time.
  • Listening to: Burden - Opeth
  • Reading: Portent - James Herbert
...It's the fault of the Met Office, I'm sure.  I am certain they are in control.

Since I last posted, broke up with my boyfriend, been to Bloodstock and am STILL working at Sainsbury's.  oh well.

Here's to a sunny September!
  • Listening to: Oxygen - Soul Asylum
It's been a funny 4 months.  Found myself a boyfriend.  "ABOUT TIME!" I hear you cry.  Finally someone I can tolerate long enough to go out with.  It has been a long time coming and I am quite happy with the current situation.

So far, my life is fine, between working at Sainsbury's and haveing FUCKED UP dreams invloving psychopathic supervisors and attempted murder by the lead witch from Hocus Pocus.  God bless you, Bette Midler.

Spent the last couple of weeks lost in the immortal genius of Dave Pirner and Soul Aslyum, so going to slip back into that for a while.
Well, there is something weird about modern society.  The current economic climate means that circumstances can change at the drop of a hat.

They have.

I recently made the shocking discovery that I respect the Prime Minister.

Many people are blaming the current economic crisis facing the UK on him.  True enough he has made mistakes, that contributed to the problem.  First and formost allowing city bhankers to self-regulate.  What people do not realise is that it was a fantastic idea on paper.  It was the bankers that abused the power.

Brown is not blameless.

What he is doing, however is working hard to pull the developed world out of the hole it has dug for itself.  Brown is currently spearheading economic bailouts across Europe and even the United States.  He may have helped get us into this mess, but I can't think of anyone better to get us out of it.
  • Listening to: keys
  • Drinking: IPA
Something weird happened to me recently, and I found myself without my interplodz.  As such, I haven't spoken to anyone in a long time.

Thus, in order to remind my friends, aquaintances and hangers-on of who I am, I am tanking advantage of this handy little quiz that Pierre-Henri was kind enough (?) to tag me for.

I'm not going to tag anyone in particular but if you wanna do it go ahead.

Kind regards!

• × • A L L | A B O U T | M E • × •

- Name: Ryan-James
- Single or taken: Single :(
- Sex: Male
- Birthday: 4th Aug
- Sign: Leo
- Hair color: Black
- Eye color: Brown
- Height: 5' 6"
- Are you straight/bisexual/gay?: Latter

• × • F A S H I O N | S T U F F • × •

- Favorite place to shop for clothes?: Interplodz
- Favorite designer?: heh...
- What is your sexiest outfit?: As above
- What is your most comfortable outfit: erm...I have no idea
- What do you usually wear?: Jeans and band t

• × • S P E C I F I C S • × •

- What kind of shampoo do you use?: Head and Shoulders
- What are you listening to right now?: TV
- Who is the last person that called you?: Rob
- How many buddies are online right now?: Erm...

• × • F A V O U R I T E S • × •

- Food: curry
- Girls' names: dunno
- Boys' names: Jonathan
- Subjects in school: English
- Animals: Cat

• × • H A V E | Y O U | E V E R • ×

- Given anyone a bath?: Yes
- Smoked?: *cough*
- Bungee jumped?: Not as yet...maybe I should get that place from PH...
- Made yourself throw up?: yeah...
- Ever been in love?: I am now
- Made yourself cry to get out of trouble: No
- Cried when someone died?: No
- Lied?: Who hasn't?
- Fallen for your best friend?: Aye
- Rejected someone?: Aye
- Used someone?: Aye, but not deliberately
- Done something you regret?: Aye

• × • C U R R E N T • ×

Clothes: Black jeans, Rammstein T

Desktop picture: my avatar

CD: Latest Basshunter album

DVD in player: Love Actually

• × • L A S T | P E R S O N • ×

- Hugged: Dunno
- You IMed: Greg
- Talk to online: Greg

• × • A R E | Y O U • × •
- Understanding: Varies
- Hungry: No
- Open-minded: Aye
- Arrogant: Sometimes
- Insecure?: Incredbly
- Random?: Not really
- Smart: Yup
- Organized: Not really
- Shy: More reserved
- Difficult: Yeah
- Bored easily: Yeah

W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N T | TO •

Kill: erm

Slap: Don't want to say...but suffice to say...he is NEVER the problem

Get really wasted with: ...

Get high with: Nope.

Talk to offline: Greg

Talk to online: Greg, PH, etc

• × • R A N D O M • × •

In the morning I: Stumble around blindly looking for tea

Love is: That horrible feeling that you know you'll have to work in order to get owt good from a relationship, but still wanting to do it

I dream about: Greg

What do you notice first in the preferred sex?:

× • W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R •

Coke or Pepsi:

Flowers or candy: Flowers

Tall or short: Doesnt matter to me

• × • W H O • × •

Makes you laugh the most?: Thomas

Makes you smile: Greg

Gives you a funny feeling when you look at them?: Greg

• × • D O | Y O U | E V E R • × •
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to IM you?: Aye...waiting for Greg

Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Heh...nah

Wish you were younger: Nope

Cry because someone said something to you?: Nope

• × • N U M B E R • × •

Of times I have had my heart broken: 2

Of guys I've kissed: 1...maybe 2...depends whether that was a hicky

Of girls I've kissed: 0

Of CD's I own: 20?

Of scars on my body: 8
  • Listening to: Jorn
  • Drinking: 5 day old water
Holy fuck I'm 18.

Any ideas how it happened?


It has taken too long!
  • Listening to: HIGNFY
  • Drinking: Ale
6000 pageviews, nice!

It is encouraging that people do actually look at my page despite the absence of whoring pageviews on my part :D

Cheers to all who have dropped by, feel free to keep coming by and critique, please!

Thanks a lot!
  • Listening to: Vater Unser - E Nomine
  • Drinking: Tea
It seems I have gotten myself into a slavery debate!

Talking to a black guy, topic of slavery came up, he said he felt that white people should apoligise for it.  Not only did I feel this was pointless and shallow, I also felt it was horrifically generalising.

With my questioning, he made the claim that my nationality is not a factor of consideration, because I am still white.

Here's the deal.  I'm Irish.  My family did not buy into slavery, and the real Irish people could not have kept slaves if they wanted to.  I should not and will not apologise.  That is essentially apologising for being white.

On a general stage, modern white people did not keep slaves.  Modern black people are not slaves.  Someone who has done nothing wrong should not have to apologise to someone who has not been wronged, it's absurd.

I will openly express my abhorrance at slavery, and that is all I believe anyone should do.

It was long ago.
  • Listening to: Medusa - Clan of Xymox
  • Eating: Smoked Haddock Chowder
  • Drinking: Tea
It's not unlike coming home to find out that Lawrence Llewellyn Bowen has broken into your house and has redecorated the walls and rearranged your furniture.

I am pleased with the new design although it can use a bit of de-bugging.  But it'll get there!

New features of win, I'm loving it.
  • Listening to: Tunnel of Love - Dire Straits
  • Eating: Chocolate
  • Drinking: Dr Pepper the love of my life has disappeared for two weeks...13 days and counting...Not coping with that very well at all, so kind words would go down well.

One of my best friends is UNBELIEVEABLY close to the edge, and it is killing me.  I wish I could do more to help.

I don't have a job yet, and I desperately need one.

This past couple of weeks has sucked big time.  On the bipolar scale of 1-fucked, I am off the end.

Fingers crossed for the future?

Hope all's well with the rest of you, etc...

Slán go fóill!
Some faith in humanity has been restored after seeing a reports of a huge protest against knife crime taking place in London.  It is good that teenagers are willing to speak out for a worthwhile cause.

This is in stark contrast with the recent protest of Emos, who clearly have nothing better to do than march on the Royal Mail.


I have a new avatar...what do you think?  I changed it because I am not such a Rammstein fanboi anymore.


Greg (the guy I am in love with) is going away on saturday for two weeks and I am feeling low.  Cheer up?


Ryan x
It is a sad reflection on the ignorance of ones country when an advert is pulled off-air because it features two men kissing.  The advert in question, a Heinz Deli advert which features a mother swapped for a stereotypical New York Deli worker.  As the husband leaves he gives his "wife" a small peck on the lips before he goes.

This advert attracted 202 complaints to advertising standards from parents who did not want to explain to their children why two men were kissing.  The fact of the matter is, it's not about them protecting their children.  No matter how you look at it, there is nothing there to protect them from.  In reality, it is people who use their children to mask their true homophobia.

Everyone who complained about that advert should hang their heads.  It is unacceptable that a small kiss between two men is deemed "offensive" in the supposed modern and accepting society of the United Kingdom.
  • Drinking: Bulmers
To "him"

My life has taken a bit of a funny turn.

After thinking about it for a while, I realised that it wasn't just a silly crush.  The more I started to think of you I realised that I loved you more and more every day.  You mean the world to me, and the thought of not including you in my life plans makes me not want to make them.

You are beautiful.  The most beautiful person I have ever seen.  You are one of the best listeners I have ever encountered.  You are funny.  You are smart and most of all you are one of the most open minded people I have encountered.

You continue to astound me with how sweet you can be, and I am honoured to be your friend.  Although, I wish I could be something more.

I wish I could say this to your face, but I suddenly come over all shy.  So instead, I put it here, where you will not encounter it.

I love you so much.

  • Drinking: Tea
I would like to take a moment to register my disgust at the recent behaviour of anti-China protestors in London.  Attacking a schoolboy for the flame, and spraying fire extinguishers in peoples faces as they ran with the flame.

While I agree that China's behaviour regarding Tibet is immoral and wrong, to attack innocent people over it only makes you as bad as China, and I am revolted by it.

This country knows nothing of peaceful protest, instead prefers to degrade itself by assaulting people who are running for an organisation representing peace and unity.  As we have seen with the like of animal rights, radicals are happy to resort to terrorism to get their point across, so I can only hope this does not become the case with Tibet as well.  

Well done to all legitimate peaceful protesters.
  • Drinking: Tea
Ryan needs things...these are as follows:

A boyfriend
A good job
A motorcycle
Time off

If you can help with any of the above, feel free to.
  • Listening to: Let Me Be Your Armour - Assemblage 23
  • Drinking: Tea
Ok, it's hard for me to talk about myself...well, I mean I can babble on about all my shit, and bore you to tears with my woes, but I can't really talk much beyond that.  If I try to do so, I always sound a bit special.  Whatever happened to a good old fashioned question?

I am such a grumpy old man.
  • Listening to: Let Me Be Your Armour - Assemblage 23
  • Drinking: Tea
Yeah, I know...a tag...but what can I do?  I can't back out now!

8 things about myself...I struggle to think of 3, so this should be interesting.

1. Post these rules.

2.Each tagged person must post 8 things about theirself on their journal.

3. At the end, you have to choose and tag 8 people and post their icons on the same journal.

4. Go to their pages and send a message saying you tagged them.

5. No tag-backs

you all ready for this?

1] I am an immigrant to the UK.

2] I listen to music, constantly

3] I have been stabbed

4] I am gay

5] I am good to the people who are good to me.

6] I am addicted to curry

7] I emjoy mindless films as well as intelligent films

8] I am actually the straightest gay guy you will ever meet.


I tag whoever reads this.
  • Listening to: Airplane - Sordal
  • Drinking: Tea
Stein R Sordal, and his Facebook page need your help!

Do them, and me a favour by listening to the music on it, and if you like it (and are a member of Facebook) why not "become a fan" and then buy his album?

I defy you not to like it.

  • Listening to: Cocaine Girl - Badmouth
  • Drinking: Dr Pepper
Attention everyone.

I am shamelessly plugging the magazine I set up a while back on MySpace, so i am going to offer the link here.

For fans of hard rock/metal and are possibly interested in finding more music.

I have been in contact witha  few artists, and am building professional relationships...It's just a readership that I need.

So go there!  No excuses!