Why am I so hated?
Why do I have to be hated?
It isn't fair being treated so differently on here, I am a human to, i made mistakes just like you
I'm tired of saying sorry, I'm tired of being that nice person that always says sorry and it doesn't do nothing, it's like you guys don't see me as a person, it's like you guys see me as nothing
I'm tired of being nice to people, saying sorry saying hi, just to be turned away
And my friends, think about the support I gave you guys, think about the nice things I said to you guys
Look at me, I am a suffering mentally challenged adult with a slight bit of ADHD, but that doesn't mean you guys should look away from me and treat me so differently
For the past five years I have said sorry, but it doesn't do good
People telling me to say sorry, and I end up saying sorry just to be told they won't accept it
I have been abandoned on a high way when I was just a infant, my mom would always beat me up, my dad would always take me away from home in the middle of the night with no clothes, no money, not even a place to go, just to be picked back up by the cops to take me home to where my mom would yell at me, and oh yea this is true
Being picked on in school, being told I won't be successful, being picked on by my own mom, school, teachers, and now you guys
I shouldn't be ashamed, you all should be ashamed, don't just look at this like some troll
I have problems, I had a miserable life, I want to kill myself, but I'm to afraid to end it all
It hurts being ignored by so many of you I deserve to be treated the same
You don't know how I feel, it fucking hurts to be turned away, I cry everyday when I'm alone because of how much of a mess up I am to you guys, I only joined this community just to feel welcome and happy, just to be told I am not, it fucking hurts
I'm not happy I am hated on here or anywhere, and you guys think I enjoy it, I don't, I cry everyday because of this it bothers me
I have alot of shame, that shame makes me cry when I think of all the hurtful things, now I suffer from ptsd because of this
Now my friends hate me, now I am hated, thanks to that Mel or Sean dude now I am hated
It's hard enough I have to be hated and picked on by my family
This isn't a cartoon where you all hate one person for the mistakes he does
This is reality, let it go, I'm human to, why don't you guys see that
Why do you all hate me so much, I tried to change and apologize but none of you will accept it
Why am I so fucking hated?
Is it because you guys do want me to end my life and be happy?
If thays the case then that's missed up
Why should I be hated.