Commission for ~Bui on Furaffinity.
New most SFW commission I've taken coming through!
Was mindful of trying something new in a lot of ways with this, including lighting, composition, feral, perspective, and painting backgrounds. Since my skill with backgrounds is lacking, decided I wanted to go all out with this one, and it's a bit sloppy when you look at it, but I think it came out pretty good. Grass is the bane of my existence though.
Also, if Furret looks a little big, keep in mind that Furret is officially 5'11. That's bigger than a Charizard. And if you think that should make Virizion look short in comparison, Virizion on all fours is 6'7. This concludes this week's episode of "Pokemon Who Are Way Bigger Than You Thought They Were".
So, on a much more serious note, I wanna give a bit of an update/rant, so if you're not interested, just ignore it.
Okay, so... this pic's been nearly done for a while now, about two weeks actually, but I couldn't really bring myself to even lift my pen without a surge of anxiety this past Holiday break. Aside from being busy, I guess even on break, levels of stress didn't really fade at all, and they hardly do over breaks for me honestly. I usually don't get too much time to just relax without multi-tasking something else at the same time, but that can also distract me a lot from what I'm supposed to be doing. And I've developed this shitty habit of counting the hours, which mostly scares me into thinking about where my life'll be in just a few years. My friends often get mad at my that I almost never spend a lengthy amount of time with them anymore, but I treat this and college like jobs, and I'm not gonna just shirk the responsibilities I've taken from people who've paid me money to do so. And, sometimes I have to pick college work to prioritize my day over drawing. Maybe this is all just part of becoming an adult, I dunno.
Just, between this, college, and my own projects, it's been hard to juggle the two as effectively as I would've liked, and I'm kinda wondering if it's been taking a toll on my mental health. Not trying to make anyone who's commissioned me feel guilty, the opposite actually. This is more of an apology actually. I tend to beat myself up a lot over my art, but I really hate how long it's taken me with commissions over the past year. A lot of that is because when I hit a certain level of stress, or my mood is just absolutely crappy, I just can't draw. I try, I don't like how it comes out, it makes me feel even worse, and I end up trying again tomorrow. Makes it extra hard to control my mood, what with having depression, the people in my IRL life, and just me being a rather pessimistic person in general. It's stupid, but sitting down to draw sometimes feels like a battle to me, and I hate that it is. Another reason is that I could easily post art I'm not happy with, but like hell I'm going to do that. So, a lot of time can often come from me trying new things with my art or finding ways to make it look different from something I've already drawn. Which, can lead me into taking way longer than I should with certain processes.
But enough of me being a whiny bitch, that's not the reason I'm typing all of this. I wanted to say I'm really sorry for anyone who's had to wait even over a month for me to get to their commission, especially to those who've waited like, what, five months? I wouldn't blame any of you for getting upset with me, though I'm lucky that very few of you actually have. I'm really grateful for all of your patience, I seriously am. Though I wasn't just talking shit before when I've claimed to be getting faster, I genuinely have been drawing a lot faster than months ago through experimenting with my art. But overall, just wanted to give an apology, as well as a lite version of my perspective on things as of late. Gonna try to be better this year, so count on that.
Would've been more meaningful of this came out on New Year's day, but ah well. :V