.dying to live...die young to live
."love yourself"they said; I didn't listen,I was too busy chasing words and butterfliescaught up in hellos and goodbyes,I loved books, raindrops and starry skies;sunlight and lonely places out of sight"love yourself"they said; I tripped and bled–how can I love myself? I'm a messof thoughts and feelings and seething stress;a small pawn in life's game of chess,wonder full and meaningless."love yourself"they said; I'd rather not,knowing the earth is spinning deep in space,a glass marble filled with our mistakeswe'll all disappear without a tracesome day, so I'll just fly away"love yourself"they said; I look around–see trees and flowers blooming spring,remember innocent bleeding daydreams,bittersweet fragile beautiful thingsshatter my veins, tear at my seams"love yourself"they said; but insteadI'll love the things I always havethough it's been years, I'm crazy sadthat nothing's changed–time's just a dragand I've realized I might never be on tra
oxygeni don't know what's come over methese days,it feels so hard to breathei'm still tangled caught up in allthe timesyou were my hopes my dreams
i ami am a daughter, i am a sisteri am a writer, i am a dreameri am a thousand birds frozen in flighti am a lullaby whispered at nighti am a million 'i love you's,i am a billion 'i love you too'si am a never-ending train of thought-i am a ship unanchored, tempest-tosti am a sighing, aching hurricanei am a child dancing in the raini am a castle with diamond brick wallsi am a street light: moths answer my calli am a whale singing songs to the black,i am the promise he couldn't take back -i am a universe falling apart;a broken star, a dying heart.
[introduction]I call it Here - a confusing, dangerous world where dreams blend in with each other. Every daydream, every nightmare anyone is having in this present moment exists Here, on the back of my eyelids.Being in Here isn’t a choice. I don’t sleep, I don’t dream. I just wander. Every time I close my eyes...But here is different from real life; what I call “Now”. Because in Here, I can do anything. If I draw something with my mind, it will appear; whatever I paint with my thoughts comes into existence. Which is useful when running from monsters.Or fighting them, but that’s something much more complicated. Trust me, you don't want to fight a monster.