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Dude, I'm fucking buff.
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More Than Me
At the beginning of August last year I created some goals for myself, within two months I had bigger ones, then even bigger. I just kept finding more reasons to love what I was doing and what was happening to me. Lifting became a passion of mine, it wasn't just some extra activity I did to keep in shape and become stronger; it became a turning point, I found happiness, for the first time six years I wasn't living with this deafening and suffocating depression and anxiety. I gained confidence, and the traps to back me up on that, I gained independence, with quads to match >.
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Or The Rest
It's pure and innocent, firm and gentle, and completely out of reach. My love for him was stronger than what I had believed it to be, when I was drowning in sorrow and frustration and he held onto me, pulled me closer into his atmosphere, in his arms where I stayed: safe and halfway to okay. But then he got up and I remembered that I wasn't good enough, for him or me or the rest of fucking people.
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Want
 It goes a little something like this: "When you want something so much that it hurts," It burns like  an urge you cant settle, an incessant pulling inside where nothing but what you want can perish. And it haunts you, paralyzes your emotions as they run wild, as your mental status becomes corrupt with one thought that trumps all. Everything you need to do becomes tainted with the one thing you want, with the one thing you don't have but still cant stand to lose. And you want it so bad that it hurts, no matter the pain you endure no turn of event will ever give it to you despite the thought of money and happiness, and luck, and chance, along
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Lady Liberty
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Comfortably Swooning
When I feel his hands on me but know it'll never happen; nothing meaningful. I give him thoughts throughout the day but never feel flustered over it, never confused or truly falling yet comfortably swooning. His body against mine, in a hug, in a bed, on the floor, on a long ride; just a "friendly" embrace on both parts, never meant to be anything more; because we both know it never will be. A mutual denial of a comfortable swooning. Hands between my legs, on my waist, on my ass, in my own; his head on my chest, his hands in my shirt, under my blanket, our legs tangled together, still only a "friendly" gesture, neither say of it, neither care;
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Untitled
Removing you from you Taking all that you are made of and giving it to the world Exposing every feature of your narrow body to everyone Expelling the very things the keep you alive I left your rotten corpse on a corner Not a worry in my head, you’re but a stain on my hands Nothing of you remains valuable as you lay empty and broken You are finished, I have eviscerated you.
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Volumes of Hate
Cut my throat; hate me Take my life; shame me Eat my soul; hurt me Sacrifice my body; kill me Hang my clothes; love me Drain my blood; need me Use my hair; want me Gouge my eyes; feel me
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Crystal Clear
Keep your head clear Hold your tongue Your chance will come To prove your worth in words Though your actions speak Their eyes don’t Listen To my thoughts won’t you listen Instead staring into the sky so clear I hear your fears when you speak I see your troubles at the tip of your tongue Though your masterpiece is not of words And in so your true calling will come Let their remarks come Close your ears, don’t listen To their rambling of ignorant words Keep your intentions clear Let not an odious remark from your tongue No evil shall you see, no evil shall you hear, no evil shall you speak To dogs we can’t speak Yet t
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Damaged
Finished, she lay Broken, cut, scared Damaged. She found her Until you found your way to her. Battling With conviction, she proclaimed, "No more." Healing With love, she shielded her. From you Growing Once damaged and finished the fire lay burnt She battled you to save her She ended the infliction The self infliction from you. She is her. She is you. You are her.
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Damages
You damaged her. She was perfect before you arrived Flawless. Not a cut not a scar to be seen    Until you found your way to her. So beautiful and strong Fragile and melodic And she was everything she needed to be.    Until you found your way to her. None broke her. None dulled her sharp wits. None dared to step too close to the fire burning inside.    Until you found your way to her. Until you; With your mangling hands;    you snapped her. With your iron assaults;    You made her weak. And you with your ice.    Your cold and narrow glare,    Your bitter and degrading humor, Your bucket of icy water from below; You finished her.
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More Than Me
At the beginning of August last year I created some goals for myself, within two months I had bigger ones, then even bigger. I just kept finding more reasons to love what I was doing and what was happening to me. Lifting became a passion of mine, it wasn't just some extra activity I did to keep in shape and become stronger; it became a turning point, I found happiness, for the first time six years I wasn't living with this deafening and suffocating depression and anxiety. I gained confidence, and the traps to back me up on that, I gained independence, with quads to match >.
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Or The Rest
It's pure and innocent, firm and gentle, and completely out of reach. My love for him was stronger than what I had believed it to be, when I was drowning in sorrow and frustration and he held onto me, pulled me closer into his atmosphere, in his arms where I stayed: safe and halfway to okay. But then he got up and I remembered that I wasn't good enough, for him or me or the rest of fucking people.
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Want
 It goes a little something like this: "When you want something so much that it hurts," It burns like  an urge you cant settle, an incessant pulling inside where nothing but what you want can perish. And it haunts you, paralyzes your emotions as they run wild, as your mental status becomes corrupt with one thought that trumps all. Everything you need to do becomes tainted with the one thing you want, with the one thing you don't have but still cant stand to lose. And you want it so bad that it hurts, no matter the pain you endure no turn of event will ever give it to you despite the thought of money and happiness, and luck, and chance, along
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Lady Liberty
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Comfortably Swooning
When I feel his hands on me but know it'll never happen; nothing meaningful. I give him thoughts throughout the day but never feel flustered over it, never confused or truly falling yet comfortably swooning. His body against mine, in a hug, in a bed, on the floor, on a long ride; just a "friendly" embrace on both parts, never meant to be anything more; because we both know it never will be. A mutual denial of a comfortable swooning. Hands between my legs, on my waist, on my ass, in my own; his head on my chest, his hands in my shirt, under my blanket, our legs tangled together, still only a "friendly" gesture, neither say of it, neither care;
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Untitled
Removing you from you Taking all that you are made of and giving it to the world Exposing every feature of your narrow body to everyone Expelling the very things the keep you alive I left your rotten corpse on a corner Not a worry in my head, you’re but a stain on my hands Nothing of you remains valuable as you lay empty and broken You are finished, I have eviscerated you.
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Damaged
Finished, she lay Broken, cut, scared Damaged. She found her Until you found your way to her. Battling With conviction, she proclaimed, "No more." Healing With love, she shielded her. From you Growing Once damaged and finished the fire lay burnt She battled you to save her She ended the infliction The self infliction from you. She is her. She is you. You are her.
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Damages
You damaged her. She was perfect before you arrived Flawless. Not a cut not a scar to be seen    Until you found your way to her. So beautiful and strong Fragile and melodic And she was everything she needed to be.    Until you found your way to her. None broke her. None dulled her sharp wits. None dared to step too close to the fire burning inside.    Until you found your way to her. Until you; With your mangling hands;    you snapped her. With your iron assaults;    You made her weak. And you with your ice.    Your cold and narrow glare,    Your bitter and degrading humor, Your bucket of icy water from below; You finished her.
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My Bestest Friend
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I don't know what to title this
I'm still on hiatus but Ive just been really upset the last few hours and felt like writing down what would be the best pick me up in case any of you are feeling generous I'd really love a picture of vonnie (preferably some chibi) in a skillsUSA blazer, white collared button up dress shirt, and a black skirt that goes down to her knees with 6 fat black buttons on the skirt (they just look like black circles) and black curved toe heels. I know no one will draw her but I can at least refer to this journal later for requests or commissions or sosomething soery for the journal spam guys..
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Hitting the sack (of potatoes)
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Fun Beetle Sketch
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Liquid and Snake
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Warrior/hunter Concept
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Warrior/hunter Concept 2
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Bone Brawler 2
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Threadmill Cyberbeast
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Noodelbastard
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Im Still Alive.
Surprisingly enough I made it to adulthood, and currently still breathing and currently still kind of sad. Much love guys.
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I AM HOME!
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Holy Shit, Guys!
Damn, its been a wee bit of a time since if been on... I've got say I have missed DA.
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BoneMarrowBrotherStudent Traditional Artist
Thanks for watching, You won't be disappointed by my future works.
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MzKalamityHobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the :+fav:
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No problem, your piece was magnificent. Clap 
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MzKalamityHobbyist General Artist
Your poetry is also wonderful!
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Thank you, I am flattered. Meow :3 :happybounce: