It wasnt always like this. A year ago, rays of sunshine didn't think twice about touching my face.
Now they sometimes turn around at the very last instant.
I can't actually blame them. If I was in their skin, I would, too.
People sometimes have pale skin. They get inventive nicknames like "Paley" or "Whitey".
I wish I had ever gotten one of those. Me they just don't ever mention. Its as if they
fell asleep whenever I get near.
Inching uncomfortably around the top side of my mattress I try to find the same spot I lay in yesterday.
Ever since when it began, I'm having a hard time sleeping well.
Its not that I don't sleep, god forbid, I'd go cr... actually, I don't know what would happen
to me. Its that I don't sleep WELL.
Always waking up feeling like you didn't sleep at all would do a real number on anyone.
For me, though, its a vicious cycle. I don't sleep well, I get worse, I sleep worse, I get worser.
As you may have guessed, I am sick.
Skincancer. The worst kind. The kind that only