The White Devil from the Fjordlands
Stygian Stígandr Sætansen (aka Stian), the dangerous siderian (a large feline) Demon in my head.
My two oriental cats, in time that Nintu was missing - out there, somewhere...
Thankfully he came back after 15 devastating days!
See here an happy and very talkative Nintu www.youtube.com/watch?v=HkyWic…
|Siderians: tall, nearly horse-sized felines. This species looks like a tiger-oriental cat hybrid. Some individuals have some elements of Eurasian lynx as well.|
Me with my "fuck it" attitude...
This is the icy Northern world (Tromsø, Norway, 69°40'N) where I live and feel home.
The first, second and fourth photos are made by me. The third, fifth and sixth photos are made by my friend Frank Meissner - 500px.com/greyarea
Probably the weirdest feline you've ever met.
"My brain has frozen over; it is slippery"
Quotes that I support:
- Where there is a will, there is a way
- What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.
- "but it IS a bit drafty in here"
- "and now I'm hiddened" ...just watch this www.youtube.com/watch?v=rLw-9d…
Email: note me first.
You can find me on tumblr:
reignofsiderians.tumblr.com/ (Siderian stuff, WIPS and sketches, inspirations)
felisglacialis.tumblr.com/ (personal nonsense)
felisglacialisphoto.tumblr.com… (my photos from Norway)
lions-in-art.tumblr.com/ (Lions in art)
And here the blog of my black siderian fellow Håkan
The title is a quote from Pirates of the Caribbean3… and I will explain it throughout the text.
Some of you guys may have read this status update: www.deviantart.com/felisglacia…
Out of plain confusion, frustration and defense, I find it time to make this publicly with more details.
I feel wronged by someone on DA and now I will explain why.
I have been accused of treason, art-theft and even more vaguely -or more specifically - energy-vampirism. Yes, that sounds confusing, and so it was for me.
In my status-update I kept this someone anonymous, out of respect. But since this someone keeps subtly –and yet vicously- villainizing me and skewing the facts in his status-updates by using his own 'condition' as an excuse and shield, I have decided to reveal who this someone is and show my side of the rather peculiar story. Because, in contrast to him – I have nothing, really nothing to hide and I have no reason to empty my DA-account and remove all traces of my art. So this someone is Vill - Villiedoom formerly known as AledaneF, Anev0lk, Ledou and many other names.
Here is the main point of the peculiar story:
It is mostly centered around my black feline spirit (‘character’), the siderian named Håkan:
My drawings of him www.deviantart.com/felisglacia… seem to drive Vill nuts for rather strange reasons. According to Vill, the way that I represent Håkan with dark fiery colours (in contrast to my usual icy blue -so yes, that is a change) and the fact that I show some of his vulnerability, is a form of energy-theft (!!???) from Vill’s black k0tie character/spirit named Afen/Atram/Vaid/Miar/the Black Wanderer (yes, he had many names).
Anyway -let’s start at the beginning when Vill and me just got to know each other. When I first met Vill in late 2015, his k0tie species and his black character Afen looked vastly different (see links further down in the text). I was interested in his art and we became friends – we even did an art-trade and a collab. However, over the course of only a few months, his k0ties turned in to siderian-look-alikes to such extent that I felt very uncomfortable. Vill and me discussed the sudden similarities extensively. Because yes, remarkable coincidences happen. True coincidences. Great minds think alike – that counts for many artists too. Also, inspiration and learning from eachother is natural in art and it’s not necessarily plagiarism. I, too, was inspired by Vill’s spiritual art and interesting techniques. Vill on his turn, said that he was very inspired by my art and by siderians.
But still, all kinds of typical siderian-features emerged in k0ties. Features that I hadn’t seen in other felines or in k0ties, except siderians (like oriental cat/tiger body, long lion-like face, huge paws, long legs, shoulder crests, sleek manes, long beards, kinked big ears). I don’t hold copyright on these features, but it was the total picture and the number of “remarkable coincidences” that began to make me feel uncomfortable. Even the typical way that I drew paws and sleek mane, I saw exactly back in his k0ties sta.sh/0taey8pko9n (note that I used more recent drawings as example). His whole k0tie species got such a strong siderian-vibe that another artists began to notice it. sta.sh/0223o5jaxm3c
Anyway, we discussed the discomfort that I felt but he didn’t see it as a problem. He said the following things when I brought up the issue about k0ties turning into siderian-look-alikes:
Despite the fricion I somehow became tolerant to the remarkable similarities. I still don’t know how I suddenly ‘gave in’. Maybe it was the spirituality behind Vill’s art that convinced me that this is just how we see our feline species. Allright….so….as the years passed, I still saw his art and characters become in a way even closer and I never felt entirely comfortable about it but tried to ignore it and get over it myself. Even the rather typical features of my white siderian fellow Stian (whose name curiously enough...means Wanderer), I saw back in one of his characters. And yes, Vill said that he had been very inspired by Stian in particular, so is this another remarkable coincidence? sta.sh/01hrnah94y2g
But no matter what, we remained friends and talked extensively about mutual inspiration, uniqueness, similarity and deep spirituality. We supported each other in difficult times; I even defended him against ‘attacks’ from others about similarities between our species and characters/spirits. But then… the moment that I began to draw Håkan in spring 2018, radically changed everything. Suddenly Vill was extremely sensitive about any similarities that he saw between Håkan and his Black Wanderer (of whom I was not even aware, existed...I only vaguelly knew 'Afen'), mostly due to this drawing:
This is something he said about another artist and the issue with similarities in general, that he was suddenly bothered about (because of this drawing that appeared around the same time - www.deviantart.com/caracamara/… ):
...A fair fear as an artist who loves their species and work...but I come back to the legitimacy of the claims that it is all his only.
When Vill began to see a problem with Håkan ‘reminding him of his Black Wanderer’, we were still rather good friends but I was very confused about the sudden problem. We talked extensively about his feelings concerning the similarities with Håkan and the Black Wanderer and the fact that it suddenly hurt him. I cared about Vill and his spirit as a friend and I tried to help and understand him wherever I could. However, Vill brought up stunningly many similarities with his Black Wanderer that I didn’t know about - as I said before, I didn't even know about this Black Wanderer's existence before Vill told me. All kinds of details that he had never published online and had never spoken about before. Interestingly enough, he only came with all these ‘remarkable coincidences’ after I had written about Håkan publicly. This is what I said concerning this, when we still tried to talk it out:
Vill even went as far as saying that he had exactly the same idea as this drawing that I just linked above, for years but that he never dared to draw it. The fact that I just boldly drew these feelings and published it with the Black wanderers ‘energy, emotion and symbolism’ drove him nuts. But how on Earth could I have read his mind and then deliberately run away with ‘his –unpublished- idea’ ??? I was drawing Håkan and no-one else. Anyway, we tried to talk it out and I tried to support him with his mental issues because I still cared for him as a friend. The very last thing I personally said to him on 7 November 2018 (after that, we didn't speak to each other anymore) was a message of support and care:
However, in the months afterwards, I noticed that his idea that I had stolen his style, his symbolism, ideas and even drawings went wild. Then in March 2019, rather out of the blue, I got a note full of accusations of energy-vampirism and guilt-trips of how I had ruined his life with my drawings of Håkan. Afterwards, he blocked me and began villainizing me in a passive aggressive manner in comment and status-updates. I felt very much backstabbed since my last message was friendly and supportive. Here are some rather disturbing and confusing things that he said to me in this note:
So let me clarify – it is all about these drawings that seem to drive him crazy: www.deviantart.com/felisglacia…
And see here...his Black Wanderer compared to Håkan sta.sh/0nolknqivcz
I don't see much similarity with the earlier versions that I knew about. Also remarkable is the change of this Black Wanderer compared to the rather consistant look of Håkan over the past 7 years...
Then came the accusations of treason in status-updates and conversations with others:
So, me and my siderian fellow Håkan had become the villain who tore Vill and Miar/the Black Wanderer apart and made him give up on his stories and k0ties??? With his recent status updates, he tried to gain sympathy for all his issues and generate disgust among his watchers for the one –me- who has betrayed him and is now ruining his life. Sorry but…what the fucking fuck???!!!!
So…let me clarify this again. What I see of Håkan comes genuinely form him and me and I repeat it again, I did not know about Vill’s ‘Black Wanderer/Miar’. Because obviously, Vill was way too secretive. I only vaguely knew his fire-k0t Afen. But in my last quote, it seems that I was even willing to stop publishing my dear black fellow only because….drawing Håkan mysteriously hurts Vill???? So do I have to become nervous when I draw fire, black-orange/red or anything that Vill claims as his symbols, like eclipses, triangles, infinity signs ect ect? So then…this old drawing of mine must be very offensive for him:
So…the fact that he recognizes his spirit Miar in Håkan makes Håkan an energy-vampire and me an art-thief who doesn’t care about Vill’s feelings? Well, actually, I can recognize Håkan in other beings and other artworks too. There are many things/characters or whatever that remind me of Håkan or in which I could ‘see him’ (for example Dracula from the Castlevania anime). I even saw a lion on a documentary once, who was really a lot like Håkan in personality, mannerisms and ‘vibe’. Now…do I blame him for having stolen Håkan’s energy? No, of course not - this lion was just being himself. Moreover, I like to point out again that there is no copyright on the dark fire colour-scheme and on representing certain emotions through my art…
But then Vill went even further and called my (spiritual) feline species, the siderian, a fake version of his spiritual species; the k0ties… Right… let me clarify some things here. I have seen siderians and their precursors for 20 years and they have been rather unchanged for the last 10 years – that also counts for my style.
Siderians were there long before Vill even came to DA in 2014 (I joined in January 2007). Also, I don’t need Vill’s art to make mine. My work has always been very characteristic and I keep it this way. Yes, I take inspiration from other artists too and I learn new techniques, but why on Earth would I need to steal his ideas, his emotions and more importantly his character? I am way, way too proud to just plainly steal someone’s style, species, character or whatever – especially as it comes to siderians and my dear fellow Håkan, who was there LONG before I knew Vill.Whereas…here comes an interesting point. Vill keeps changing his style and he often mimics one artist in particular. Usually not to the point that I would call it plagiarism but enough that it is very recognizable. Although this is an example of some border-line similarities: sta.sh/01jkm5u76unv I would call it a “remarkable coincidence” that his styles are so close to the styles of other artists. He said something curious about that himself:
Now, here is another very curious thing that I noticed throughout the years. Vill has (obscurely) accused at least the following artists of art-theft and/or energy-vampirism in more or less the same way as he did to me:
Now…does the art of me and those artists look in any way similar? No I don’t think so…Strange that we all got accused of the same thing by Vill, who often radically changes his art-style, has had many accounts on DA (and elsewhere) and constantly changes the look of his k0ties. Another curious thing is that the profiles of the other artists are now nearly empty after Vill brought up the issue to them. I have read some of the conversations between him and Shanol/Shakhorht and was shocked by the degree in which the Shanol was guilt-tripped and manipulated into thinking that his art hurt Vill and that he should change it or even remove it (!!).
See here: sta.sh/0m8n5hk5hxh
One of the other artists once sent me a warning about Vill’s pattern because they too, had experienced the same thing and was accused of art-theft by Vill. See here: sta.sh/02eds9sqycbu
However, I mostly ignored this message because I wanted to give Vill a fair chance without prejudices. But… now I see that actually all warnings were exactly right. Indeed, I can identify the following pattern after having talked to some of the others.
This is the pattern that Vill followed - intentionally or not...:
So is this how he makes so many enemies and why he repeatedly needs to erase all traces of art from his old accounts? I don’t know but I’ve that suspicion.The argumentation that he used against me, Shanol and Kie-n-kit was that we stole “his style, language, symbolism, feeling, energy and character”….now in fact…I knew that he was inspired by a famous artist known as Khaosdog (sadly they left DA but they still have their art published elsewhere). A little search into Khaosdog’s older work showed something even more curious. All these things that Vill claims as “his style, language, energy, symbolism, emotions, feelings, aesthetics, compositions, ideas” I see back in Khaosdog’s work that was there long, long before Vill. sta.sh/05o8iipoxnh sta.sh/02gegf9pywdo sta.sh/0my3v8cchr2
So in other words…his accusations towards me and the other artists are quite hypocrite.
Last but not least….there the curious thing is that I’m on DA for so long, have nothing to hide and have no “enemies” that I need to fear, whereas Vill constantly shows up under a new identity, then suddenly empties his accounts and keeps being paranoid about old enemies that he made himself. Strange that in all those 12 years that I’m on DA, I have never made enemies this way and I have never needed to remove all traces of my art…. ?? And yet…I’m the villain according to his status-posts…. ??? I can’t recall ever having made an issue of such things until I got all the false accusations thrown towards me.
I would like to mention that all of the above hassle would not have been much of a big deal for me, if I wasn’t villainized and backstabbed by ‘my old friend’ this way. I would have been ok with the degree of inspiration and similarities...Yes, I felt uncomfortable with some similarities between k0ties and siderians and between certain spirits/characters. But if it wasn’t for all the strange accusations towards ME as the one who stole everything, I wouldn’t have been bothered and we would have remained friends with Vill. But now I have the strong need to straighten things up with some facts and to build a wall of defense around me, siderians and particularly my dear Håkan. So yes, I just felt like telling this and share some of my confusion and frustration. It may be overdone, but if one attacks siderians in this ugly way, I just don’t tolerate it and this is my way to defend what I hold dear. I am quite done being sketched as a villain and art-thief and as the one who has mentally destroyed Vill just because I draw Håkan and siderians? Sorry but no. I respect people’s mental issues and I stretch myself far to offer support, but my tolerance for such accusations has limits. Sad but true.
One thing is dead-certain; I’m not going to tolerate further guilt-trips and accusations towards me from no-one. I have now showed my story and I will continue to draw from the bottom of my icy feline soul. I don’t let anyone stand in the way for free choice of colour-schemes, natural elements and depicting emotions. I will continue to show siderians and my spiritual journeys with them as I’ve done the last 20 years.