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want to leave
give me your links to your profiles on other sites! I'm going to go through as many friends as possible to add them somewhere else so I don't need to come back to deviantart :).
not sure what to do
I want to like being on dA again like I used to all those months ago, but something is still making me get angry. It's probably a personal hangup about Eclipse or something and I've tried to get over it but I can't. I upload art here and submit to groups, and I feel like I'm betraying myself by doing so. But I've been active on this site (mostly andaelentari) for so long it's a part of my life that will never let go. I just don't know how to deal with my dissatisfaction because obviously I can't leave this place, but I don't want to visit a site that disorients me and makes me upset. Rawwwr.
loooong time no update
Hi :) I'm sorry I haven't been really on this site in forever. I think I spread myself too thin with sites and then lost all of them at once, except tumblr. And that's only sometimes. It's hard to upload sometimes when no one is there to give you feedback. Somehow I need to find a place where that can really happen; I've tried so many sites and I don't know if my approach is wrong or what. To help, I've been watching a video on Skillshare about creating a social media brand, but yeah, I'm not very good at it haha. Not really sure about where to start. My mental health is still all over the place, and I feel like I need new meds even if my psychiatrist thinks I'm being dramatic >>. That's why he's not a therapist I guess xD. The bipolar disorder and OCD and paranoia make it really hard to survive at work without cutting or leaving early because I've broken down in some way. This week so far is doing well so I guess there's that. I'm also still watching my nephew several times
state of the website
lol. I am posting this to tell y'all that Eclipse has ruined my enjoyment of dA, though I can't really pinpoint exactly which aspect is making me feel this way. Somehow it got difficult to stay on dA for very long, not even to check others' deviations or upload any of my own. It's like there's no point in some way? You just know you'll be overlooked or something, I don't know. Not to mention dA has been very dead lately anyway, making things worse. I really want to get at least my friends' and watchers' works faved and enjoyed and appreciated but I can't find any reason to. GRR. Anyway, I post most often on instagram and tumblr now, so you'll see most of my work on those apps and not here. I'm andaelentari on both sites if you want to see everything. Instagram and Tumblr are not perfect either but I have a community I can relate to on tumblr and instagram . . . is has it has been and hasn't changed in a way that makes me not want to go on it anymore.