FangirlingTrinity

The pain rages, The tears flow, Friends are leaving, It’s not a pretty show. We keep on making the same mistakes, We keep using coverups to hide them. Some people act as if they aren’t involved, But when you think about it, It all revolves around us. Us as friends, Us as our own little family. The one family that could never stay happy. Our home lives, Never the same. They will all leave me, And I’ll leave too, Because obviously our friendship didn’t mean as much to you, As it did to me. And to think, This all started with an ‘I Love You’. The kind of love that ruined everything. The kind of love that ruine

Where did I go wrong? Is this able to be fixed? Is this all going to end up like this? How can I help you? How am I able to change? Will I ever be the same? What even happened? When will this end? Am I supposed to be feeling like this? Is this my punishment? Is this what I get for all the times I've been a huge jerk? Was this the feeling I made other’s feel? When did I change? Who is here for me? Will everyone leave me? Will I start cutting again? Who is the perfect one for me? Do I even have a perfect one? When will I die? How will I die? Who will stay with me? Do my parents hate me now? Are you leaving? Do you hate me? Because I hate

Wishes, what exactly are they? Hopes, dreams, they’re all the same- Most of them don’t even come true. “I wish I could disappear, “I wish this all would end, I wish I would end…” These don’t come true, These won’t come true. And yet I keep on wishing for them. Everybody experiences pain, Everybody has some bumps awaiting them, But that doesn't mean we should die. “Then why do I keep wishing for them to happen? “Why won't this pain just end?” Friends leave, People leave. That will always be a part of life. Are we just going to sit around and let it happen? Will we ever become mo

I want to fly high, I want to be free, But I’m so weak, It’s just a part of me. I hate being controlled, As if I’m a doll, Because my life is full of horrors, They never go away at all. I want to spread my wings, I want to fly high, Instead of watching my friends pass me by. I wanted to fly, I wanted to be free, But now I’m chained up, It’s just a part of me.