So... Here's another thing I just drew today and spent the last few hours on.
In short the picture is about how internal struggles affect me. Me being the white and black feline you see in the picture.
In more detail I'll explain the different elements in this drawing, so please bear with me...
Each of the coloured cats are labelled so they should be self explanatory, at the top is Lies, representing the internal and repetitive lies my brain would have looping in my head. Namely, "You're not good enough", "You're not pretty", "No one cares about me", "No one loves me", "I don't matter" and other things that repeat on loop causing me to break down with further issues and self doubts.
They feed each other like a negative flame, fuelling the fire as the other consumes my sanity and self worth.
Silence does nothing and causes one to not say or reach out even when they are in need. Usually my mind plays these small tricks on me convincing me that because I don't matter, that my issues aren't big enough of a deal to mention to anyone else.
This feeds into frustration, who further pins and torments me and my mind. Then when I try to get up, Anxiety and Stress keep me down, causing issues that further make me struggle to move anywhere.
The cat representing myself has faded pink on the skin where it's ideally faded, dull or unsaturated to represent a drained being, tired of the same torments and emotions that wreck havoc on their victim.
Even if I were to fight those emotions and feelings, I'd be weighed down even further by the weight of Negative self talk and the self hate that follows. It keeps me stuck in the same cycles that I try so hard to ignore, push away or handle.
I wanted to avoid the use of shadows and despite changing the overall mood, I understand it could make things more dramatic, however I wanted to keep the drawing rather simple, yet descriptive in looks alone.
I'm not in any way trying to seek attention or pity from anyone. It's merely a vent to get out and explain to others what my words would always fail to do. I'll admit at the moment I'm in a good and healthy mood, and I plan to make small healthy changes for my mind and body too. It's just going to take time and energy before I see the person I know others can see.
As this is a rather personal drawing of my experiences in my life, I'd appreciate no use, copy, modification, manipulation, trace, or other forms of redistributing this drawing.
These character designs aren't specifically mine, so you can use them to your hearts content (Simply as they are plain colours really)
Art drawn by me:
Time taken: 2-3 hours approx
Program used: Photoshop CS6
Tablet used: Wacom Intuos Pro (Medium)
If you liked the drawing or its representation, please feel free to comment down below, fav or share it. I hope you have a good morning, day, evening, night and remember, if you're going through something similar, there are people that care, even if your brain says otherwise.
I'm blessed to have the support system I do to make sense of these things or simply to vent to.