I must confess that coming back from cancer and chemotherapy was a hard road, one that I am still on, but now at least I feel life flooding back in. In March it will be one year of being cancer free. In this past year I faced a lot of hardships, financial troubles and the loss of friends. Yet, I learned to find a deeper faith, deeper strength, become more resourceful and the friendships that remained grew deeper.
One thing that was a consistent thread throughout my life and the thread that also gave me release through this ordeal was drawing.
I am not nearly the artist I want to be nor am I the artist that I need to be, I am still growing
"I am not greedy for many followers" ~ Buddha
Have you ever craved more followers? Wanted your work faved more? Wanted your prints to sell here on deviant? Who hasn't? Yet to be honest sometimes, not always, but sometimes it really isn't about you. Some may take what I am saying as bad advice or worse simple cynicism. Yet you have read all the tutorials on the web about being noticed on deviant and your have done the work, submitted your work to groups, posted in forums, commented on other people's work and tried to make yourself a presence. Still, your pageviews haven't grown, the number of your faves never exceeds over 200 or worse 40.
It has been over a year now since I was diagnosed with Stage 3C cancer. I am still around trolling the sod. My creative spirit has rekindled and I am feeling like I went through a rite of passage.
Not only has the creative spirit been reignited, I feel the need now to continue to create, to draw and learn more about digital painting. There has been some of you in the Deviant community that have been supportive and I thank you.
Chemotherapy is something I would not wish on anyone. If you know someone suffering from cancer, give them your support. Cancer is an insidious thing, it can strike you unawares so if you are over 40, get checked out
Ity has been a good day. There is much to be grateful for. I had an appointment with my oncologist and things are looking beter. She gave me a perscription for the numbess in my hands and feet. It is a neuropathy drug and takes a week to become effective.
Hopefully it will work and I can get back to drawing again.
To those in Boston, my prayers are with you.
To those that have bought prints on cafepress and zazzle, thank you.
I have finished my chemo rounds and have returned to the call center where I work. There has been a side effect though, my fingers and feet have an comfortable numbess. I can still draw though sublte details have become harder. I have been assured that it will pass, but it is a matter of time. Fortunately the walcom tablet does not argue with the numbess much. In time I intend to return to Tales of Obscuro as well as crafting new pictures.
Chemo was a trial and no party. But in the end it seems for now all is well.
Thanks to all that were concerned and like my art. I am not done for yet and I am harder than a cock roach to kill. =)