Having a disability, mental, gender and mobility issues is not fun
Restricted by continuous pain, lack of function in mind and body
Everyday activities are not always easy, and feel like a mission
The days that go by of wishing for a genie in a bottle to make it go away
To live an ordinary life without pain, without struggle, without suffering
As I age, I watch these things grow worse in world
Where technology isn’t focused on medical miracles but
on war and greed.
The day of the assessment, fear of the future of losing home
Fear of loosing everything , fear of being misunderstood
Fear of being misinterpreted and assumed and judged.
Just another number off the welfare system, fear of being culled.
Fear of experiencing more trauma on top of past traumas.
The fear of being drained to cope in a nightmare dystopia
Deterioration of mental and physical health from the stress and fear.
Wondering if you are going to die
By your own hands by suicide, to escape it all, while failing to cop