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Sad Music :iconexoticshorty101:ExoticShorty101 1 0
Literature
Riot
It's like a riot inside my mind,
Something I'm not willing to fight,
It's like I'm buried deep,
Looking for something to keep,
I'm trying to hold on,
But I know I don't have long,
Cause I'm fighting this within,
And the lights starting to dim,
I feel I shouldn't bother,
Cause I'm not getting any stronger,
See this pain has me hostage,
And I'm feeling even more exhausted,
By the minute I'm losing reality,
By the minute I'm losing mortality,
See I'll be gone,
And everyone will have to live on,
This is reality and this is fact,
I'm not looking for someone to react,
I just don't want my time to be wasted,
But I know I'll never face this,
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Literature
World Of Fake
I'm worried,
Cause in this world,
Of fake,
Your the real,
That binds me together,
But I'm struggling,
Just to be alive,
See I'm wide awake,
Trying to fight my way through,
The darkness,
That is consuming me,
Just to find my way to you,
But I feel,
Detachment growing,
In place of the love,
I had for you,
I'm worried,
This world I knew,
IS falling apart,
Right in front of me,
Your the real,
That keeps me awake,
Thinking I'm not good enough,
But is the pain worth it,
I don't know,
I don't want my world to die,
But to let you go,
Is my best option,
In this world of fake,
You were my light,
Now I'm dying,
Slowly dying,
Cause there's no fight left,
In me....
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:iconexoticshorty101:ExoticShorty101 1 0
Literature
My Life
If I were to write,
A story of my life,
It would start with a fight,
With one side,
Being my pride,
And the other side,
Being my empty mind,
And my prides weapon?,
Every mistake I've made,
Making me wish all those years ago,
I wouldn't have stayed,
See that was a mistake,
Cause I'm still afraid,
Wishing to trade,
My life,
Cause the story of my life,
Is all just a fight,
Over keeping my pride,
And taking the right side,
When there is none,
No ones right,
When my hearts made of stone,
And all I've ever known,
Is fighting,
What are the options?,
Cause I don't know what's right,
Now that inside I'm divided,
I have no clue,
I have no clue...
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Literature
No Ones Favorite Person
I'm no ones favorite person,
Even if I tried,
It would just make things worse,
Than the tears I've cried,
Cause I'd only be betrayed,
So I'll never beg someone,
To stay,
Even when things go right,
I'm still terrified,
So I just might,
Lock myself up inside,
I'm no ones favorite person,
Even if I tried,
I don't need things to get worse,
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:iconexoticshorty101:ExoticShorty101 1 0
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Drowning, Yes Drowning :iconexoticshorty101:ExoticShorty101 1 0
Mature content
Your Voice :iconexoticshorty101:ExoticShorty101 1 0
Literature
Sickness
There's a sickness of my mind,
That I can't quite define,
There's a longing in my soul,
That tells me to never let go,
Yet I don't know why,
I still feel like I want to die,
I know I have a fate,
And Maybe I'll be something great,
Still I can hear the voices,
Of those I hold dear,
Yelling and screaming,
Telling me begging me,
To let the sickness inside,
To let the light subside,
And let the darkness eat me whole,
Yet I don't like what I'm being told,
And I can't even believe,
That this is just a disease,
A sickness of my mind,
That I can't define,
And an emptiness of my soul,
That will never be filled whole,
Yet I don't know why
Why I don't want to be alive,
But I know I have a fate,
And Maybe I'll be something great,
Still I can hear the voices,
Of those I hold dear,
Yelling and screaming,
Without any meaning,
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I'll Help :iconexoticshorty101:ExoticShorty101 0 0
Literature
Erase
Why is the truth so easy to hide,
And trust so easy to break,
Maybe I'm stuck in my pride,
But night after night I lay awake,
Thinking of ways to get you back,
Crying away,
Cause your a thing of my past,
And panicking cause my life's going nowhere,
I'm just walking alone,
But I swear,
I should have known,
You would break my trust,
And leave,
I'll just have to adjust,
And believe,
That I'll find my place,
Somewhere out there,
Is someone who will erase,
My despair,
And replace it,
With honest love,
To erase you,
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Literature
Unique
I can't believe your gone,
After days of ignoring me,
Maybe I am wrong,
But I hope that you see,
I'm unique,
One of a kind,
And I'm going after my dreams,
So there's no room for you,
In my life,
I know I might,
Contradict my words,
But hopefully I'll learn,
That your gone,
After I wasted my time waiting,
While shaking,
With anxiety,
And crying,
Cause I thought we were okay,
But I can say,
I wasted my time trying,
While you spent yours lying,
To me,
So your gone,
And I'm okay,
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:iconexoticshorty101:ExoticShorty101 1 0
Literature
Done
Time and again I find myself lost,
For words to say,
And the cost?,
My time of day,
Wasted on you,
Wasted on thinking of ways,
To get you back,
Wasted,
Now you see,
I have to throw you away,
Along with the others,
Who have hurt me,
I am lost,
For words to say,
To tell you,
I am done,
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Literature
Terrified
In my mind I'm terrified,
Still I hide,
It from everyone,
As depressing as my life is,
I'm supposed to just deal with it?,
And to let it get the best of me,
No!,
I refuse,
To lose,
I am broken,
And with words not spoken,
I express to you,
How terrible it feels,
Cause the pain is all to real,
In a world full of fake,
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Literature
The Answer
Once again you want me,
Only cause your lonely,
I don't know what will be,
The answer,
My heart loves you,
My mind hates you,
And I'm stuck between,
What the answer is,
Once again you want me,
Only cause your lonely,
I don't know what will be,
The answer,
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Literature
Spiraling
I'm spiraling into the unknown,
Although there's a fire burning inside these bones,
All my emotions can't be shown,
Cause each and every step,
Into the right direction,
Has kept,
Me alone,
Inside the darkest depths,
Of my mind,
Yet there's still the calling,
And yearning,
Of something new,
But I'm spiraling into the unknown,
All alone,
My emotions can't be shown,
And I'm tripping,
Slowly slipping,
Only to be saved once again,
Just to live miserably,
In the same way,
As I had before,
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Literature
Questioning
You were in my dreams,
While I'm stuck it seems,
On a empty hope,
Cause you keep pushing me farther,
And my demons are dragging me under,
Under it all again,
So far gone I seem,
To be,
If maybe I had someone to lean,
To then I could survive,
But that's a joke,
A not funny joke,
You were in my dreams,
And tonight I don't want that,
I will not lead myself on,
Cause you keep pushing me farther,
Than from where I want to be,
I am unstable,
And mentally insane,
So far gone I am,
Lost in the hope of what could be,
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Literature
- S o r r y -
- S o r r y -
Dear Me,
                    I'm sorry for so many things.
                    Sorry for making promises I couldn't keep,
                    Sorry for making you believe,
                    Sorry for making you remember all the pain.
                    I'm sorry your immune system sucks,
                    Sorry about your insecurities,
    
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Literature
Dream
I'm feeling lonely
In a world that's too full
I'm feeling stressed out
In a life that's too dull
I'm feeling so scared
But I don't want to scream
I just want to close my eyes
And dream
I want to dream about you
And peace on earth
I want to dream about love
For what it's worth
I want to dream about me
With a smile on my face
Going hiking on a mountain
At a moderate pace
I'm feeling trapped here
In my own little mind
I'm feeling left out
And left behind
I'm feeling worn down
Torn at the seam
I just want to close my eyes
And dream
I want to dream about life
That's happier
I want to dream that I
Dreamed up every war
I want to dream that I'm there
At that friendly place
Just about to say hello
To a familiar face
I'm feeling tired
I wish I could sleep
I'm feeling so sad
That I could weep
I'm feeling messed up
And I just want to dream
I just want to dream
I just want to dream
:iconJessaMar:JessaMar
:iconjessamar:JessaMar 8 5
Literature
Everything
Everything I ever do
Somehow relates right back to you
Everything I ever write
Mentions you and then takes flight
You distract my every thought
And every memory is fraught
With references to you and me
As something we will never be
Every time I go to bed
I wish I was with you instead
Every time I meet a guy
I think of you and pass him by
You haunt my feelings like a ghost
My love is chains and you're a post
I can't escape or feel your touch
(A hard post doesn't comfort much)
Every moment we're apart
I feel bruises in my heart
Every moment you're with me
I feel wistful and so free
You persevere like no-one else
At being just the same yourself
That I should not love but I do
Because there's no-one quite like you
:iconJessaMar:JessaMar
:iconjessamar:JessaMar 9 33
Literature
Depression
Life's not easy, love's not real
I can't explain the way I feel
Time heals pain but pain is time
Smiles hurt too bad, laughter's a crime
Tears are always there for me
And I could cry myself a sea
Sadness doesn't go away
At least I have anger too today
Life sucks, no different phrasing there
I wish there was a world where
Things could turn out differently
Sometimes I wish that so intently
That I get lost within my mind
Looking for something I'll never find
:iconJessaMar:JessaMar
:iconjessamar:JessaMar 685 191
Literature
Depression
Lay down your right to be human.
Put on a dazzling smile so that no one can see your pain.
You hide it all so well, but underneath your shirt you can still feel the scars.
No one knows what it is like to be you.
Your smile is but one in a billion,
A mask that you wear to ward off the questions.
Your scars are your war paint,
But this is a losing battle.
You are sent to face the demons all alone, though they will never leave your side.
So keep that pretty smile steady,
And don't let one tear drop from those stormy eyes.
Put on your war paint and go out into the world, where your smile makes you just like them.
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Literature
Alone Just Me
Alone, just me
sitting in the dark.
Alone, just me
walking in the park.
Alone, just me
is all i really need.
Alone, just me
that\'s all I\'ll ever be.
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:iconwillwashere:willwashere 6 0
Literature
This Cage
I live in a cage,
it keeps me from being like you,
and keeps me, me
I live in a cage,
with the bars of ignorance
locking me in.
I live in a cage,
sperated from society,
sperated from happiness.
I live in a cage,
how and why is known
to all, but me.
I live in a cage,
i just wish to be free.
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:iconwillwashere:willwashere 9 1
Literature
Depression is
Depression is an ocean,
unpredictable and unwavering.
Its depths are deep.
Its Highs are shallow.
Depression is the sky,
amazing and determined.
Its depths reach our soul.
Its highs touch the heavens.
Depression is the sun,
Mysterious and huge.
Its depths are unimaginable.
Its Highs wish to swallow the earth.
Depression is...me...is it you?
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Sad music,
Doesn't kill the pain,
It only destroys what remains,

I don't care,
So why don't you get your share,
Of pain,

I don't know,
I only feel,
And I feel too much,

Sad music,
Drowns me again,
Due to the memories,

Of us together,
That tear me apart,
Over and over,

I don't care,
I only want to drink away the memories,
Of us together,

I don't know why,
But I don't care,
Anymore,

Sad music,
Drags me down,
So I can drown,
It's like a riot inside my mind,
Something I'm not willing to fight,
It's like I'm buried deep,
Looking for something to keep,

I'm trying to hold on,
But I know I don't have long,
Cause I'm fighting this within,
And the lights starting to dim,

I feel I shouldn't bother,
Cause I'm not getting any stronger,
See this pain has me hostage,
And I'm feeling even more exhausted,

By the minute I'm losing reality,
By the minute I'm losing mortality,
See I'll be gone,
And everyone will have to live on,

This is reality and this is fact,
I'm not looking for someone to react,
I just don't want my time to be wasted,
But I know I'll never face this,
I'm worried,
Cause in this world,
Of fake,
Your the real,
That binds me together,
But I'm struggling,
Just to be alive,
See I'm wide awake,
Trying to fight my way through,
The darkness,
That is consuming me,
Just to find my way to you,
But I feel,
Detachment growing,
In place of the love,
I had for you,
I'm worried,
This world I knew,
IS falling apart,
Right in front of me,
Your the real,
That keeps me awake,
Thinking I'm not good enough,
But is the pain worth it,
I don't know,
I don't want my world to die,
But to let you go,
Is my best option,
In this world of fake,
You were my light,
Now I'm dying,
Slowly dying,
Cause there's no fight left,
In me....
If I were to write,
A story of my life,
It would start with a fight,
With one side,
Being my pride,
And the other side,
Being my empty mind,
And my prides weapon?,
Every mistake I've made,
Making me wish all those years ago,
I wouldn't have stayed,
See that was a mistake,
Cause I'm still afraid,
Wishing to trade,
My life,
Cause the story of my life,
Is all just a fight,
Over keeping my pride,
And taking the right side,
When there is none,
No ones right,
When my hearts made of stone,
And all I've ever known,
Is fighting,
What are the options?,
Cause I don't know what's right,
Now that inside I'm divided,
I have no clue,
I have no clue...
I'm no ones favorite person,
Even if I tried,
It would just make things worse,
Than the tears I've cried,

Cause I'd only be betrayed,
So I'll never beg someone,
To stay,

Even when things go right,
I'm still terrified,
So I just might,
Lock myself up inside,

I'm no ones favorite person,
Even if I tried,
I don't need things to get worse,

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PyrrahDakwhil Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2018  Student Writer
Thank you so much for the faves and for the watch!!!  I appreciate it a lot!!!

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ExoticShorty101 Featured By Owner Oct 7, 2018  Student Writer
You're welcome!!
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PrincessOzmaOfOz Featured By Owner May 30, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thank you for the fave, my dear❤️ wishing you well💞hugs
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ExoticShorty101 Featured By Owner May 30, 2018  Student Writer
Your welcome!! And thank you :D I wish you well too...
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sebatianxreader Featured By Owner May 3, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you so much for the fave and I hope you enjoyed or going to enjoy the story! I'm going to try and make more stories like that later.
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ExoticShorty101 Featured By Owner May 3, 2018  Student Writer
Your welcome :D
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lisalj76 Featured By Owner May 3, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you for adding me to your watch list. I appreciate that you enjoy my work. :)
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ExoticShorty101 Featured By Owner May 3, 2018  Student Writer
Thank you for commenting :D And your welcome!!
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PrincessOzmaOfOz Featured By Owner Mar 30, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Thanks for faving, my dear❤️
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Thank YOU for faving :D
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