I keep checking back here from time to time and I realized my last two updates from four years ago are rather depressing and worrysome. I won't lie, things didn't get better. They got worse, a lot worse, before they got better. Liz left me, I moved into a new relationship almost immediately with an abusive man who didn't and couldn't realize he had a problem. My doctors medicated me to the point where I didn't care. I was doing nothing, I was thinking nothing and I didn't want to do anything about it.
Something had to give. So, I did. I gave up the medication. I talked to Richard, the boyfriend at the time (omg yes it was a MAN), about his issues. I gave up trying to get SSI and started looking for a job. I was diagnosed with quite a few things, including, but not limited to, hypothyroidism, borderline personality disorder, fibromyalgia and anemia. I also found out I'm allergic to a million things, including wheat and dogs. It didn't take long for Richard to dump me and it took me even less time to, per his advice, find someone new. This time, I didn't move in with the new boyfriend. I wanted my recovery to be mine, I wanted it to be my victory and I didn't want to share it with anyone else. He respected that... for a little while. I found a job after becoming homeless for a while, which was unpleasant, but doable. Then, Daniel let me go too. That was almost three months ago.
I'm still working with the aforementioned employer, although I am now waiting on my federal clearance so that I can keep said job, but one step at a time, right? I'm unmedicated, I'm employed, I'm independent, I'm living in an apartment and about to move into my own apartment, I'm studying for my permit, I'm working on repairing my laptop, I cut out wheat from my diet, I have a new boyfriend, I'm staying on top of my doctors and..
..I'm happier with myself and my life than I have been in a very, very long time. I hope this update was worth the 4 year wait, folks. I missed all of you.
Expect some truly terrible art soon. Cause it's coming. I've got the itch.
Listening to: Hold Each Other - A Great Big World
Playing: on DeviantART
Eating: Everything Wheat-Free.
Drinking: Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi