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My Thoughts Turn 2019 by ever-wishing My Thoughts Turn 2019 :iconever-wishing:ever-wishing 4 4 Romantic Muses Smiley Set by ever-wishing Romantic Muses Smiley Set :iconever-wishing:ever-wishing 9 2 Satyrs from the Deep by ever-wishing Satyrs from the Deep :iconever-wishing:ever-wishing 7 2 Flambouyance Base Set by ever-wishing Flambouyance Base Set :iconever-wishing:ever-wishing 12 2 Made In Man - AKA Manliness Base by ever-wishing Made In Man - AKA Manliness Base :iconever-wishing:ever-wishing 13 4 Romantic Muse Original by ever-wishing
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_self V. by josefinejonssonphoto _self V. :iconjosefinejonssonphoto:josefinejonssonphoto 791 30 _Self 2018. by josefinejonssonphoto _Self 2018. :iconjosefinejonssonphoto:josefinejonssonphoto 458 34 _Glasses IV. by josefinejonssonphoto _Glasses IV. :iconjosefinejonssonphoto:josefinejonssonphoto 902 16 _self 2017 II. by josefinejonssonphoto _self 2017 II. :iconjosefinejonssonphoto:josefinejonssonphoto 894 60 _lost in W II. by josefinejonssonphoto _lost in W II. :iconjosefinejonssonphoto:josefinejonssonphoto 970 13 _Nicole. by josefinejonssonphoto _Nicole. :iconjosefinejonssonphoto:josefinejonssonphoto 430 29 Zendaya Coleman ~ WordPress Theme by BrielleFantasy Zendaya Coleman ~ WordPress Theme :iconbriellefantasy:BrielleFantasy 10 7 Unique - A WordPress Theme by Henerz-Design Unique - A WordPress Theme :iconhenerz-design:Henerz-Design 21 16 wordpress kevin blog v1 by LeMex wordpress kevin blog v1 :iconlemex:LeMex 18 32 Ashley Benson Wordpress Theme by unbrokengraphics Ashley Benson Wordpress Theme :iconunbrokengraphics:unbrokengraphics 16 9 Adam Driver Fansite | WordPress Theme by BrielleFantasy Adam Driver Fansite | WordPress Theme :iconbriellefantasy:BrielleFantasy 19 2 GUI - WordPress Theme by detrans GUI - WordPress Theme :icondetrans:detrans 796 141 -stock- Help VI -stock- by PixelMeBlu -stock- Help VI -stock- :iconpixelmeblu:PixelMeBlu 11 5 Meet The F U C K by ASSMAN-BUTTBAG Meet The F U C K :iconassman-buttbag:ASSMAN-BUTTBAG 8 2 Pixel WIP, m/m couple // updated 13/Dec/12 by Peccantis Pixel WIP, m/m couple // updated 13/Dec/12 :iconpeccantis:Peccantis 1 1 Happy Winter by Lynxiie Happy Winter :iconlynxiie:Lynxiie 1 0
Showing art at random that I've collected for various reasons, but they all have one thing in common... they rock!
I keep checking back here from time to time and I realized my last two updates from four years ago are rather depressing and worrysome. I won't lie, things didn't get better. They got worse, a lot worse, before they got better. Liz left me, I moved into a new relationship almost immediately with an abusive man who didn't and couldn't realize he had a problem. My doctors medicated me to the point where I didn't care. I was doing nothing, I was thinking nothing and I didn't want to do anything about it. 

Something had to give. So, I did. I gave up the medication. I talked to Richard, the boyfriend at the time (omg yes it was a MAN), about his issues. I gave up trying to get SSI and started looking for a job. I was diagnosed with quite a few things, including, but not limited to, hypothyroidism, borderline personality disorder, fibromyalgia and anemia. I also found out I'm allergic to a million things, including wheat and dogs. It didn't take long for Richard to dump me and it took me even less time to, per his advice, find someone new. This time, I didn't move in with the new boyfriend. I wanted my recovery to be mine, I wanted it to be my victory and I didn't want to share it with anyone else. He respected that... for a little while. I found a job after becoming homeless for a while, which was unpleasant, but doable. Then, Daniel let me go too. That was almost three months ago. 

I'm still working with the aforementioned employer, although I am now waiting on my federal clearance so that I can keep said job, but one step at a time, right? I'm unmedicated, I'm employed, I'm independent, I'm living in an apartment and about to move into my own apartment, I'm studying for my permit, I'm working on repairing my laptop, I cut out wheat from my diet, I have a new boyfriend, I'm staying on top of my doctors and.. 

..I'm happier with myself and my life than I have been in a very, very long time. I hope this update was worth the 4 year wait, folks. I missed all of you. 

Expect some truly terrible art soon. Cause it's coming. I've got the itch. 
  • Listening to: Hold Each Other - A Great Big World
  • Playing: on DeviantART
  • Eating: Everything Wheat-Free.
  • Drinking: Diet Wild Cherry Pepsi

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J. Aly Barber
Artist | Hobbyist | Digital Art
United States
Sometimes, we can fight to come back. We can fight to stand up, we can fight to speak, we can fight to be where we want to be. Sometimes, life let's us. Sometimes, it doesn't.


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boot-cheese-3000 Featured By Owner Jun 24, 2016
Happy Birthday Fairy Princess Bride!!!!:iconhappybirthdaysignplz::iconbirthdaycakeplz::iconbouquetplz::party::airborne::dance::boogie::beer::iconwineplz::weed::iconmushroomplz::drunk::puke::iconbedsexplz:
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celestialsunberry Featured By Owner Jun 22, 2016  Professional Digital Artist
Happy Birthday! ^^
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TheFellowWithTheHat Featured By Owner Aug 22, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Your art is Sierra levels of fantastic, really! c:

Did you, by any chance, work on the King's Quest series or Space Quest?
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MsMellaa Featured By Owner Apr 6, 2015  Hobbyist General Artist
I was wondering.. I'm making a website, a sort of guide on pixel art online.. It includes information on history of pixel art, the community, the differences in styles/techniques etc..
But there's also a part that has tutorials and resources, where people can find all kinds of tutorials, bases, pallets etc.
Would you mind if I named a couple of your tutorials/resources on there (with link to the full file here on DA)?

I'm not open yet, but almost finished ^-^

I hope to hear from you soon..
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