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Just letting you know...

Sun Feb 16, 2014, 8:16 AM

...I've finally fixed my art-PC, so - LOTS OF WORK TO DO!

  • Listening to: Johnny Hollow

So I'm here for some analog trash.

  • Listening to: Johnny Hollow

i'm tired.

Wed Apr 17, 2013, 11:10 AM

I'm having an extremely exhausting working week(s). Really. There's some office tests, checks, re-checks, electricity failures, angry clients, etc., all in one, every day. All I can manage at evening time is to have a lazy snack (just to refill my batteries) and to kill someone in videogames (just to relax). And, trust me, I suffer, for I have at least three sketches to be finished. Two of them are senseless tumblr-only doodles, one's still in my mind so far... Not to mention some of the traditional paintings that only await the final touch of paintbrush. And I DO SUFFER. Because I have neither willpower no strengths to get them finished at once. You have no idea of how I want to, but I physically can't.

Add to this the multiple delays with getting the prints I ordered, like, almost a month ago, issues with post office and -20°C in the street. I'm usually fine with the latter, but having to wear over 7 kilos of clothes at a time CAN FRUSTRATE BLOODY ANYONE.

I'm waiting for the new moon to cut my hair, get a day off and get things done.
But these days I'm utterly useless, and I do apologize for that.

I have an announcement.

Mon Sep 19, 2011, 10:42 AM

Just try to understand and don't be offended.

Don't hesitate if I forget stuff; remind me.
I'm very upset when I notice I've forgotten what I promised...


Sun Sep 18, 2011, 6:27 AM

My Grams died today. I am still subconsciously afraid to wake her up.

I am suffering.

Sat Sep 17, 2011, 3:22 PM

Therefore, I paint sketches that don't make sense.
That's an instinct, I think...

After lots of grim things in my life, I decided to make something... well.
Something useful.
Something of a kind I love making.

So here's the news.
I started sending my items overseas.
Various items.
Strange items.
Geeky items, yes.

Nhey are very few, even if they are printed T-shirts.
They are maniacally packed, handwritten tags included.
They are being made very, VERY slow.

As soon as I get confirmations, that the delivery is OK, I'll reveal everything.
Let here be this teaser so far.

Teaser Tags by erebus-odora

  • Listening to: Poe ~ Walk The Walk

Google this:
a) Pseudomonas aeruginosa
b) cyclothymic personality disorder recrudescence
c) panic attacks (hell-o again)
and you'll get my life.
(a) section is not totally about me, but it's about a close relative we need to take care about. Damn zombie-like infection.

Plus, my relatives appear to be as inadequate as I am, or even madder, my work remains being a nice lunatic asylum for aggressive weirdos, and the upcoming birthday + 2 weeks of vacations SCARE THE SH*T OUT OF ME.

I can only do sketches in such mood.
And feel appropriately useless.

Apparently, I'm also going to have a minor Civil War with my Mom next morning (mere mistrust and misunderstanding can cause such things in my family), so I do ask for you to excuse my silence and lack of attempts of communication.
Stay well.
Gonna be back, if I get my pills soon...

  • Listening to: How To Destroy Angels ~ A Drowning

Help needed.

Mon Jul 11, 2011, 12:25 PM

I'm writing this entry because I want to help.
Look at this lady.

Only half human by MigraineSky

She is a lovely girl, true friend and real artist.
She has a younger brother and lots of unfinished projects.

Her father was killed by a car accident this Saturday.

Here's what she's written in her blog today:
too bad you have to live on and think about material things
i wish i could just sit in one place and stop living for a while

The thing is that we cannot fight what happened; but we can help. At least with money - just because anything, even the smallest donation, would be appreciated in this situation.
Her PayPal identificator is annahafer at gmail dot com.
ANYTHING will do; her family really needs support these days.

Not staying ignorant is the only way we can help them so far.

Just in case you're wondering...

Sun Jun 5, 2011, 11:48 AM

I manually counted the amount of things I gotta finish. Random projects, arts by requests, designs for my friends, letters to answer, thingies to edit… The list is over 20 items. So I asked my provider to cut me off the web for a month. It's not a long period, so I do hope I'm able to finish at least half of this list.

So I ask you to forgive me for being slightly silent these days; I'm using my neighbour's WiFi at the moment, so I'm trying to be quick and clear here.))

Take care, guys; I'll be back, I'll check everybody out, I'm gonna miss you for these few weeks…

Ciao :rose:

If you wish to contact me, see my twitter; I'm erebusodora there.
It's quite okay for me to read it thru mobile, so I'm online most days.))

  • Listening to: I: Scintilla ~ Prey For you
  • Reading: Moon over Soho
  • Playing: The Witcher 2
  • Drinking: orange juice

Post office opens at nine...

Tue Mar 22, 2011, 11:36 AM

I feel like I need to send a postcard.
Or a small gift.
Somewhere far, far away - over the borders.
I just need to know there are people that can feel less depressed than me, really. I mean this when I write this. I do suffer from panic attacks and headaches these days.

I need to know there's somebody out there, out of the melting snow lands, where I meet my sad friends and we drink our weird drinks.

I'm sleepy, and dreamy, and easily scared, and unwilling to speak. It will pass, I know. But today I'm making a wish and unpacking a pile of postcards.
Let me know, if you want to get one.

  • Reading: Rivers of London
  • Watching: The Mentalist
  • Drinking: tea with milk

Madness and Love

Sat Feb 19, 2011, 3:53 PM

It's really curious, you know.
I'm really not sure about this, maybe that's just my pills talking, but... you know, I'm a bit mad these days. I've finished a huge fiction (about 40 pages - that's a lot, when you speak of actually writing for 3-4 days only). I've painted three FINISHED pieces (not to speak about doodles; there are really A LOT of them).

These days, in spite of my illness (which is over, thank God - although I don't really want to go to work)), I'm...

Uh, well.
I'm being loved

This is such a funny feeling, really. I get messages from people who are concerned. I receive letters from people who actually declare themselves being in love (literally in love) with things I create. They tell me that my writing or painting somehow bring changes into their lives, that I somehow cheer them up, that I carry something beautiful in any thing I write or paint. I've got tons of those this week. And it deeply touches me, for I haven't asked for such  wonderful support. I've never had such sudden feedback - I understand, that there are different reasons for such thing, that it can be pure coincidence, but... so many people at one time... ouch. That is... AMAZING.

I am mostly quiet and craving for loneliness, I avoid big companies, but now... I cannot say "no", when people tell me: "Oh, you know, we would be glad to buy you a cup of coffee if you drop in that café you like, just in case". And I am really amazed, when I get letters with lines like: "There is something extremely irrational in my interest towards the things you create - and therefore this irrational hint makes this interest irresistible".

I am flattered, really, I am. I cannot find words to thank you, people.
I'm not used to this, you know.
And I think I cannot explain this.
But I really love each of you in return, just because it's natural - to love.

Thank you, and God bless you.

  • Listening to: Hannah Fury ~ Away
  • Reading: Mark Gatiss, bits o'this and that.
  • Drinking: cocoa

The Dog Days

Sat Feb 12, 2011, 1:44 PM

Guess, what?
I'm ill again.

And damn that all; I'm going to remain at home as long as it takes to REALLY recover and go back to that Hell that I call "my office". And - damn it all again: I'm gonna be OK, and you're gonna be OK, and everything's just gonna be ALL RIGHT. Just because I believe in it - and I also believe there are many people who are already sick of being NOT OK.

Sorry for such entry, but I still have high temperature and wrecked sleep schedule.
Trust in being fine, that's really helping.

  • Listening to: MSI ~ Shut Me Up
  • Watching: Poirot: The Clocks
  • Eating: pills
  • Drinking: white tea

Back to the smiling side...

Sat Jan 29, 2011, 12:33 PM

Finally, I decided to stop moaning. C'est la vie, et la vie est comme ça.
Gotta carry on; news still remain being upsetting for me every day, tho - but I can cope, I suppose. I really hope so, anyway.

I checked my memory stick today and found out, that I have rather many photo impressions to share. A green lantern here, an icy tree there, and so on...

But, more over, I found TONS of shots from my meetings with friends there. I didn't imagine (up to this point) that we spend SO MUCH TIME together, really cheering each other up. We've already seduced waiters into making odd dishes for us, we've built castles with sugar cubes, we've pretended to be zombies out in the streets, we've sung "Tainted Love" in a choir (at least six persons at some cafe, to the sheer delight of the waiters, again), we've even staged a murder story so far. Perhaps I just want to share the bits of that lovely insanity, that we produce when being together...

Glitters by erebus-odora Sweet Smile by erebus-odora

We are this way.
And I'm incredibly happy with the mere fact we know each other.

So, just in case you're in Moscow, get in touch; I feel like in such a company there can be no possible language borders...)))

Love you, guys.
Good luck, gonna be back sooner or later.



  • Listening to: Blue October ~ Come In Closer
  • Reading: Gail Carriger ~ Soulless
  • Watching: Sherlock BBC
  • Eating: biscuits
  • Drinking: berry juice

Domodedovo bomb

Mon Jan 24, 2011, 10:25 AM

I seriously cannot write about this.
I do hope there was none of your or mine friends and relatives.
But I REALLY can neither speak nor write about this; it's kinda dead zone, I get a headache when merely thinking about this.

And that "flashlights, and nightmares, and sudden explosions" song stuck in my head.
Feels like... too uneasy.

  • Drinking: cocoa

A bit of accidental truth.

Journal Entry: Sun Jan 23, 2011, 6:30 AM
If yesterday you were walking thru Moscow and met in some cafe a strange lady in old-fashioned black and grey dress, grey hat with goggles on it and with different eyes (black left one, red right one), it was me. And I'm being serious when writing this.

I feel recharged after yesterday's fun. That's a bit of relief for my crazy life these days.

Hope you are feeling better than me; well, I'm not sick anymore anyway, that matters.))
I'll feature here some odd stories of these days or some images from my watchlist... I do hope so. I've got a lot of stuff to tell, to show and to try to perform.

Love you all, again.
Smile, that helps.))

  • Listening to: The Soho Dolls ~ Bang Bang Bang Bang
  • Reading: Agatha Christie, "Dead Man's Folly"
  • Eating: banana
  • Drinking: milk

4 your consid.

Journal Entry: Sat Jan 1, 2011, 7:10 AM
Hoped I could sumbit more interesting stuff these days, but, sadly, ill.
Wish me luck and being healthy, being sick SUCKS.
Love u all.
Will check everything out whn I'm conscious.


  • Listening to: Collide ~ Pandora's box
  • Reading: Agatha Christie, "Evil Under Sun"
  • Eating: pills
  • Drinking: hot tea

Christie, Secret Order, TRON... madness, in short

Journal Entry: Wed Dec 22, 2010, 9:45 AM
It’s almost Christmas, and I see no reasons for remaining silent.
First of all, I’d love to admit I’m still alive (which makes me reasonably happy).
As for the second, I had almost no time for painting these months (miserable me).
As for the third…

I want to tell you about my little adventures here.

I’m being rather funny and generally stupid these months — mostly due to multiple stresses I experienced. I’m not going to give you details; I just want you to remember, ALWAYS remember that there’s nothing as important as family. Blood bonds, that sort of thing. Remember about them.

But I started the different story…

As you know, in early days of November I SUDDENLY achieved a “daily deviation” label on one of my graphic things. I drew this one under great stress and I nearly asked out loud for help in “author’s comments” section; well, I literally asked for luck. And imagine my feelings: I received feedback that can be measured in several thousands of different people's voices. I was flattered, embarrassed, madly happy and needed a shock blanket.

Wow, then, I said in my normal grim voice.
And got back to my sweet everyday angst, which haunts me so far (and it’s family issues, again). There was one thing that saved me… well, I lie. There were two things.

#1 was Agatha Christie via David Suchet proxy; I’m a huge fan of the “Agatha Christie’s Poirot” series (I’m gonna celebrate “20 Years Of Being A Fangirl” in 2011, really)), and the most recent adaptation of “Murder on the Orient Express” was an exquisite gift for my shattered feelings.

#2 was (and remains being)) the fact, that I somehow managed to become The Recruiter and Spiritual Leader of some tiny, friendly and secret Order))) I can give you a link with details, so that you can see the limits of our mutual madness (seriously, limits?! we don’t know them))), right here. We laughed so much that we started to cry, our weird stories were read out loud, we performed team “solve-the-crime” role-play games… God, we even talked several waiters into having drinks with us — and we did that so charmingly, that we’ve been actually invited to some “insider parties”.

Both for the sake of #1 and #2, I started making T-shirt designs on request.

Here comes the first (you see, that’s Dame Agatha Bloody Christie, her gardeners are always SO mischievous))

The Serial Gardener by erebus-odora

Here comes the second (see this entry for the reasons, it’s a LONG story)))

Grey Rainy Day Thing by erebus-odora

The most peculiar facts about these ones are that:
#1 made me acquainted with lovely Czech lady, who writes the most nice fiction;
#2 appeared to be retweeted by the author of the phrase, Michael Sheen.)))

The #2-thing still makes me giggle. Add to that the fact, that we actually found the retweet out at the day we went to see “TRON: The Legacy” (which is okay BTW, and Sheen’s the best of it))) Insider’s joke, yes, but so bloody funny.)))


I have to finish about five or six art projects, so far. I am obliged to finish four texts. I’m going to re-launch my website these days. And I pray for some opportunity to write more “how to” things; I have TOO MUCH work to do.

Let me be off with this…
…and mind that I’ll be back on Christmas Day, preferably with some art to be discussed.
:rose: :rose: :rose:

  • Listening to: Collide ~ Shifting
  • Reading: Agatha Christie, "Black Coffee"
  • Eating: fried potatoes
  • Drinking: orange juice

Now I know...

Journal Entry: Tue Nov 16, 2010, 1:50 PM
Now I know what's better than a DD.
Yes, I'm insanely grateful for the one I've got for this:

Undone by erebus-odora

It was... shocking, to be frank.

But now I really know what's even better.
It's tons of people wishing you luck.
Almost at one time.

You really have no idea of HOW you've made my day.
It's almost a miracle.


I'm dyslexic right now, sorry.
But I still love you, mind that.

  • Listening to: Gotan Project ~ La Gloria
  • Reading: Mark Gatiss. Well, mostly.
  • Eating: british cookies
  • Drinking: white tea