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david guest
United Kingdom
i am a 22 year old english agoraphobe i love to game and draw i have been drawing from about 6 years old i should be better at it than i am
I had to answer the door to a postman this morning. I saw the van pull up I wanted to run to hide, but he had seen me. As he walked to the door I could feel it, the dread the feeling of doom. My heart pounding in my chest. The familiar sick feeling that starts just under my ribs and spread in waves out along my arms and legs. Tightening my skin so that it feels one layer thick and stretched impossibly thin. After a moment of pause I force myself to open the door. He stares at me blankly I begin to wonder if the pause had been to long  had he seen me through the frosted glass?.

I become hyper aware of every micro movement my body makes. I feel the warmth in my face and hands seconds later the pins and needles start, a cascade of red hot pin pricks over my forehead and hands, all my muscles tense as he asks my name I reply, he hands me the pad to sign my name as my mouth dries out I force out thank you. He turns and walks away. I shut the door and there it is the half forgotten rage, I punch the wall and scream and keep doing so till my hand starts to bleed as the skin becomes mottled purple and white the adrenaline  and rage fade, a dull pain in my hand remains and I know I will never be "normal"
  • Listening to: nothing
  • Reading: nothing
  • Watching: nothing
  • Playing: nothing
  • Eating: food
  • Drinking: nothing


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HwithC Featured By Owner Oct 26, 2012
hey endo it's hwc. sorry you left but can't say i blame you. it's such a negative place atm and tonight was awful. hope you're well and come back soon.
Endo--endo Featured By Owner Oct 27, 2012
i'm not coming back but thank you for your concern i'm done with that place you can find me here if you still want to talk :)
wgacton Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave :)
Endo--endo Featured By Owner Sep 22, 2012
your welcome
The-Living Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2012  Student General Artist
Jagtru Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
you got tagged [link] ;) write answers of you want ;)
Jagtru Featured By Owner Nov 24, 2011  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
xanti41 Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2011
thanks for fav

dont stop drawing!
Endo--endo Featured By Owner Oct 6, 2011
no thanks needed :)
Rednessss Featured By Owner Jul 7, 2011
Thank you very much for the +fav :)
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