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Severina by Enamorte Severina :iconenamorte:Enamorte 66 5 Chocolate Cherry by Enamorte Chocolate Cherry :iconenamorte:Enamorte 130 8 Anne Hedonia III by Enamorte Anne Hedonia III :iconenamorte:Enamorte 116 9 Virtue and Vice by Enamorte Virtue and Vice :iconenamorte:Enamorte 166 8 Cosmic Duality by Enamorte Cosmic Duality :iconenamorte:Enamorte 88 13 Whispers in the Dark by Enamorte Whispers in the Dark :iconenamorte:Enamorte 87 7 Crystal Tears by Enamorte Crystal Tears :iconenamorte:Enamorte 124 15 No Redemption by Enamorte No Redemption :iconenamorte:Enamorte 107 2 Az and Fae 2019 by Enamorte Az and Fae 2019 :iconenamorte:Enamorte 147 10 Lost Love by Enamorte Lost Love :iconenamorte:Enamorte 172 4 Letting Go by Enamorte Letting Go :iconenamorte:Enamorte 111 2 Goth Beauty - Pink by Enamorte Goth Beauty - Pink :iconenamorte:Enamorte 126 4 Goth Beauty - White by Enamorte Goth Beauty - White :iconenamorte:Enamorte 174 6 Goth Beauty - Black by Enamorte Goth Beauty - Black :iconenamorte:Enamorte 124 5 Au Revoir by Enamorte Au Revoir :iconenamorte:Enamorte 175 3 Goth Beauty - Red by Enamorte Goth Beauty - Red :iconenamorte:Enamorte 138 3


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I'm so frustrated. I hate everything I make. I change my style, my technique, my medium, to see if I like it better, but it just feels false.

There are other artists that I wish I could make art like, but that seems wrong, too. I don't want to just copy someone else, even if I could manage to do it well. But I don't seem to like anything I do.

Maybe I just want to be someone else. Someone who actually knows how to make a living as an artist and isn't mute with social anxiety. People might actually like me as a real person then instead of seeing me as a distant weirdo who never answers their comments

What do you do when you hate your art? When it's not a technical/skill-based problem, but an artistic one? Like, how do they get their ideas? How do they think up so many details to put in a piece? that one's really stymied me for a long time. You know artists who cram tons of intricate details into their work? How tf do they think that shit up? I'm not talking about how they actually draw it, because drawing any amount of detail is just a matter of patience. I'm not asking how to draw the details, I'm asking *what* do you draw for these details?

I'm not articulating myself clearly

don't worry about it if you don't understand

I feel like such a failure. this is not where I hoped I would be in my mid 30s. probably because I spent my teens and 20s banking on a pipe dream that I wasn't willing to do the work for rather than making real plans for my life. But that pipe dream was the only thing I've ever wanted to do at any point in my life, and I don't even want that anymore. You could say that I could make plans now for my life, but there isn't anything I want to do with it.


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American-Australian. Artist since 2001, eccentric recluse since 1983. Do not expose to direct sunlight. Best enjoyed by those who are either high or just really fucking depressed.



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Enamorte Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009   Digital Artist
Yes, just a new account for me :) :heart:
madcarrot Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009
Don't think you can ever escape from me. I will always find you. *creepy stare* 8|
Enamorte Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009   Digital Artist

MelissaDalton Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009  Student Digital Artist
Thanks for the watch!
Enamorte Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2009   Digital Artist
haha, you're welcome! ;) :heart:
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