(TW: Suicide/Bereavement) For most of you, it's been pretty much radio silence from me for that last couple months. Others may have either heard from the grapevine or I have reached out to personally for emotional support, but on June 30th I lost my husband, unexpectedly, to suicide. Words cannot describe how difficult this has been for me. My husband was my rock and foundation, my best friend, my provider, and I feel lost without him. I am currently keeping myself afloat with the small amount of funds we had in our savings prior to his passing, the generous donations of loved ones, my recent approval for foodstamps and I have taken in a roommate to try and help alleviate some of the expenses of my home. That being said, I have no income and I have been unemployed for the last five years. I have started the process of putting together a resume and have started looking for work, but this is a very scary time for me and I fear that combined with my grief, my depression and anxiety are