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Yeah I can never sleep, its one of those times in a day where I am wishing for sleep but my mind has way to much to think about. So much to say to people that just can't be said. Its not that I am afraid to.... no its that I am not allowed to (supposed to). That's one thing anyway, another is that feeling in the pit of my stomach like I am being lied to but I can't figure out who it is that I know that's doing so. See already way to much thinking going on.

Then there is the feeling of my chest being squeezed so tight that I feel like I am going to burst into tears but I wont let myself. I would talk to someone but the only person I trust I barely if ever talk to anymore. I miss talking to this person too and I ask myself everyday if I should try harder if I should work harder on talking to said person... But then I think that if said person wanted to talk to me then said person would do so. With that thought it just brings that squeezing feeling back and makes things feel rather lonely. Sometimes when I get this feeling I let myself cry while other times I hide it away so no one has to worry. It has to go somewhere right?

In slightly better news  I am going to be an aunty for the third time. My younger sister is having her third child, she found out today that she's 5 and a half weeks and she's hoping for a boy. Personally I think her eldest son is enough to handle but another boy in the family wouldn't be to bad. Though that's because there is little to no guys in the family that were not married in lol.

Well I am off to try and sleep, maybe, just maybe I'll be able to get a good nights sleep for the first time in a long time.

Yeah I can never sleep, its one of those times in a day where I am wishing for sleep but my mind has way to much to think about. So much to say to people that just can't be said. Its not that I am afraid to.... no its that I am not allowed to (supposed to). That's one thing anyway, another is that feeling in the pit of my stomach like I am being lied to but I can't figure out who it is that I know that's doing so. See already way to much thinking going on.

Then there is the feeling of my chest being squeezed so tight that I feel like I am going to burst into tears but I wont let myself. I would talk to someone but the only person I trust I barely if ever talk to anymore. I miss talking to this person too and I ask myself everyday if I should try harder if I should work harder on talking to said person... But then I think that if said person wanted to talk to me then said person would do so. With that thought it just brings that squeezing feeling back and makes things feel rather lonely. Sometimes when I get this feeling I let myself cry while other times I hide it away so no one has to worry. It has to go somewhere right?

In slightly better news  I am going to be an aunty for the third time. My younger sister is having her third child, she found out today that she's 5 and a half weeks and she's hoping for a boy. Personally I think her eldest son is enough to handle but another boy in the family wouldn't be to bad. Though that's because there is little to no guys in the family that were not married in lol.

Well I am off to try and sleep, maybe, just maybe I'll be able to get a good nights sleep for the first time in a long time.

Hey everyone so I was feeling a little in the slump of not having enough money to go to a con this summer so I was looking around on our lovely AB website to see if they had anything new to perk up my spirits. To my happy surprise they did. I was looking at a forum and came to happily find someone was hosting a cosplay picnic in Boston.

You heard me right everyone, a cosplay picnic, there will be so much to do there as well as photographers to take pictures. If you are all interested just go onto facebook and search 'Annual Summer Cosplay Picnic'

With that it'll give you the board and all hte information you'll need. If you're already wondering the date it'll be on July 7th! This really thrilled me because its just a few days before my birthday, the perfect birthday gift to myself for working so hard on other things.

With a wedding cake due right around the corner, I am growing so excited to make it. My very first wedding cake for someone, I can't wait to see how it comes out. I will make sure its perfect though.

Anyway back to the cosplay picnic, it'll be in the Boston Commons and if anyone is taking the train and subway you will not be alone. I know a lot of people including myself that are doing the same thing. I can't wait to see who is there and what wonderful cosplays will be showing up.

If anyone is going please do tell me I will look out for you

Its been nearly a week since Anime Boston now and I am still not caught up on my sleep XD I had a blast though and can't wait for next year as well. I took a lot of pics and I already put a good amount up. I still have a lot more to go so within these coming days I'll have it all set for everyone to see. I hope that everyone that went had a wonderful time like I did. It was such a great time for me to meet other people and to get to take pictures. I was also able to help my friends out as well. I had a wonderful time.

Now is the job to think about what to cosplay for next year. What does everyone think? Anyone got any ideas they are willing to throw out there for me. I need to get started on the disign and them the patters and stuff so please do speak out if you like.

Thank you all I hope you have a great day and good sleep

Ok I hate mornings, I am not a morning person at all. The only three people that can get me to wake up early is my grandparents because they pretty much push me out of bed or my wonderful boyfriend who will happily text his heart out just to wake me up. If I am not in labs getting my blood moving I am sitting in a small class my head bobbing back and forth trying to keep awake. I wish they had late night classes then I would be a truly happy camper. :sigh:

The only upside to being up this early means I get out early With only two classes a day and only two hours in the class I am happy to say I like the odds. Down side though is I don't have a car so when I have free time like I do now I can't go take a nap in the back seat. I have to sit around and find something to do. Normally which is sitting back and reading a wonderful book, well this dumb butt today forgot everything that wasn't connected to my cloths or backpack. So I forgot my book and my wallet. Thank god I forgot to take my student id out of my jacket or else I wouldn't have been able to catch my ride and get into my school building.

In turn though means I have no money to get myself some coffee which I soooooo desperately need right now. XD I think if I rub my eyes anymore than Ialready have, my eye lids may fall off.

Better note though, Anime Boston is only a few more weeks away. I still have some last minute touches to do on my outfit but I think I'll get it together in time. I am more worried about the wig, its really really snug because of my hair. I may need to chop a lot of my wonderful hair off to get it to fit without me feeling like it'll pop off at any moment. Though I think that would make for a wonderful picture. So would make me laugh. A good friend of mine told me that it looked fine though I am not sure about it all.

Then out of no where I try to put the straps on my strapless bra just for one day to see if it would be comfy and I damn got a strap stuck on it. Now I don't know how I am going to get it off without breaking it before AB. Why do they need to be complicated, it would be so much easier if I could just clip it on instead of putting it through a loop and such. That is the the second worst of the two though so I am not going to fuss to much about that.

Anyone on to better news. I am going to be an aunt again any day now. My sister is having a little girl this time around. I swear though I can't spell this child's name to save my live, its even more complicated than her brother's. She'll be beautiful though just like her mother and hopefully she wont be a troublemaker like her too lol. Noooo she'll be an angel.... I hope.

Oh and who out there is going to Anime Boston?! I wanna see who and how excited you are about this up coming year, there will be so much to do and so much going on. Can anyone give me a show of joy!

Oh time for class, love you all and have a wonderful day.

Ember