It's been quite a season in the real world. I've traveled abroad, graduated college, immersed myself in queer and feminist communities, embraced the practice of Buddhism, came in and out of alcoholism and drug abuse, and have likely lost a good portion of my own well-being in the process, which has hopefully been ameliorated with a pinch of wisdom. That's what we like to call "wishful thinking."
But I think I've had an adequate amount of time and experience to consider where I am now, as well as the causes and conditions for it. Upon looking back at my art "career" as a teenager, I can say without a doubt that I was the worst kind of person growing up. The internet is a horrible place and I regret having spent a good portion of my adolescence caught up in the darker side of the community. While my choice of peers may have been a contributing factor to my developing understanding of a certain standard of ethical conduct, I'm lucky to have enough wit to realize that I am fully responsible for my own words and actions.
I've become a firm believer in the reality of karma, and also the importance of integrity and accountability. So, I'd like to issue an apology for everything that led up to abandoning my post.
Where I left off, I garnered a reputation for being a licentious, and emotionally unstable buffoon. For bringing romantic interests and struggles to the forefront of my personal character, and engaging in incredibly inappropriate behaviors such as infidelity, slander, and hostility toward peers, I'm truly embarrassed. For contributing to the existence of pornographic material (including jokes about sexual assault; see: Hey Arnold's Sid and Sidney, explicit art; see: Becky the Hedgehog and Mightyena, Blaze and Froggy, among others, as well as pieces such as those I provided for the expression of hate; see: Virusplz), I'm deeply remorseful. My contributions of erotic art to the Ristar Cluster, while a bit more tame than some of my work, have also evoked a great deal of shame.
For all these blunders, I'm incredibly sorry.
Though I wish I knew why I thought such behavior was acceptable at that age. Perhaps it was for the purpose of sustaining "friendships" that I did what was requested of me without batting an eyelash as to whether or not it was morally sound. As the bodhisattva once wisely said, "Caught by the world's delusive arts, I erred." Relationships and sexual expression caught hold of the better side of my judgement, and I behaved like a womanizer and a libertine in general. In short, my conduct in thought, speech, and action, as well as my range of association was incredibly unwholesome.
As your morals develop, keep to them. In the long run, you'll be glad you did.