Last week i got a brand new electric bicycle in the mail. Got it from an indiegogo campaign that i was interested in. I waited nearly 18 months for this bike, and five days after i got it, i lost control and ended up bodyslamming the pavement. I was on my way home from work that night, excited about finishing my latest drawing with Erin for our art project: DrawingWithJerin
. Instead, i got to go to the ER after one of the most embarrassing bike accidents of my life, and now, just four days later, i'm stuck in a stupid heavy cast which makes it difficult to do basically everything (including drawing) and prevents me from getting any proper exercise or working on anything that could get me closer to my goals.
I don't normally let shit like this get me down, but if i'm honest about it, this sucks! Like, really sucks. I was on my way to some hitherto unknown level of fitness, i was going to start saving boatloads of money by biking to and from work instead of driving, and we were making excellent progress on our art and our channel. Not to mention that i was on the verge of accepting a major major promotion at work that was going to enable me to learn electrical design and programming on a whole new level. I was on top of the world when this week started! Now i just feel like a useless lump. Drawing and even typing feels strenuous and tiresome, which means i haven't been able to write much code for a few days either, and while there are many things that need to get done, it's now a hassle to do just the bare minimum of getting to work and performing the simplest of tasks.
My car has a manual transmission, which means i can't drive it with one arm in a sling, so i have to bum rides to get anywhere. Since i can't turn my wrist, i can only reach a handful of keys on the keyboard, and it hurts like hell when i forget that i can't really reach across the desk with my bad arm. There are a million things that i need to get done, and now i have to wait for weeks before i'll be able to do any of it properly, and then there's the recovery, which since i fucked up a major joint, is probably going to be both lengthy and painful! I was on the verge of being able to do 20 pull ups in a single set, and now i can't even grasp the bar. I derived most of my motivation and positivity from exercise, and now i don't know what to do to stay motivated.
I am really bummed out by this whole situation, and when i think about how much i still have to do to get where i want to be, i just feel completely overwhelmed and powerless. I know i'm probably just whining and i should just give it a rest and do what i can anyway, but i have no motivation at all to do anything right now. Is there anyone else who's had an experience like this who might have some advice for an unlucky idiot like me?