Two years ago, I made a promise. I promised that I would be less of "request spammer", pushing my art requests on other users constantly and following them up with constant insistence that they be finished. As one of my recent interactions with another Deviant shows, that clearly did not happen.
I am still an attention-seeker who bothers other artists for requests and trades, something that in hindsight I should have realized long ago was a terrible idea.
I am still fixated on certain subjects in these requests, to the extent that artists who I ask for artwork may tire of drawing those subjects.
I still sometimes ask artists for free trades or requests without checking to see if they offer those first.
I feel like I have let so many people down as a result of this. I've let down the artists I gave requests to, who I promised I would improve my etiquette for but never did. I've let down my friends, who expected better of me. And I've let down myself, for not changing my behavior
I will begin this with an confession. I have a had a habit, for a long time, of making requests on DeviantArt with no regard for the feelings of the people I was giving those requests to. I have been blocked in the past for this behavior, and have resorted to bribing with gift art and other “manipulative” methods to be unblocked. In short, I had very poor internet etiquette and did not learn from my mistakes.
The events of the past day have changed all that. After a long conversation with a friend of one of the people who blocked me, I realized the sheer scope of the mistakes I had made. It was an eye-opening experience; before t