So yes, I'm still here. Sorry I've been super inactive.Neko-Raccoon
, I'll have the last breeding pic up soon then we can upload the babies <3
Long story short, life has gotten insane ever since the end of April. Studies have gone wild since I've flunked a lot of modules because of constant stress, betrayal by friends I really thought were like family to me and work as well (that I need to fit in not only to stay sane, but we need the finances).
I've not had time, motivation (or energy) to draw or write at all.
Speaking of, the worst was my friend, my so called "sister", lying and backstabbing me like I've never been backstabbed in my life. It was and is still a bit traumatic. And because of that, a lot of other friends believed lies and kicked sand in my face too.
So, for the last month or two, I've absolutely hated people. I find it hard to trust now, my fuse is very short and I take offense at just about everything because suddenly, I'm very insecure and very defensive. The fact that I'm stressed doesn't help.
It's getting better, but I don't trust myself to be nice all the time. That's why I try and stay away as much as possible from dA currently.
I'd just like to apologize to anyone I might offend or have offended by my short-fused insecurity and paranoid anxiousness lately. I promise I don't mean it. My heart's just a little broken and life's been slapping me in the face since February.
My dad's going in for an operation this week, one which might be dangerous. So there's also that.
I know I'm not the only one alive and hurting, and that I really shouldn't act like I'm the only one with problems. But right now I'm not in a good place, and I'm still in the process of standing up from where I've been shoved down.
I'll get my ponies and fawns going soon<3 I still love them, still want them, still plan for them. Don't worry guys, I haven't forgotten about them.
Again, sorry if I'm mean to anyone. I promise I'm not mean, I only seem mean. It's probably me thinking you're mean, whether you are or not. If there are any Christians out there... I don't know. Please pray for me I guess? I really need it. Thanks guys😣
I'm super sensitive and a little broken right now. Please forgive me.