Just because I can
So! Another year has soon ended and yet we spend so much time to pick on each other with different flaws.
Recently I have said enough to my former friend throughout 17 years. I honestly hope she´s going to be healthy and that life is going to smile at her. Though she says I am mental unstable; I still have time to think on others than myself, and some people could learn from that. Why we have split up is between me and her + the people who was dragged into it; such as our families.
Also on September 28 my boyfriend and I ended our relationship: some knows the reason the rest of you can ask and I´ll gladly explain why. Else I´m not gonna tell it online because I won´t be an ass towards him.
Having to let go of these two has actually been the best thing I´ve done this year, besides learning to say no.
I´ve been told by so many people that I should start be more selfish instead of always putting others before me: Now that I have done it, I should be informed by the same person that I am Mental Unstable for sticking up to myself when I was attacked. - True I may suffer from some sort of Depression but fact is I can be cured she can´t: She was born mental unstable I gained it from trauma and different issues in my life. Just a fact....Honestly I think she´s jealous that I own the apartment I live in and that I get money from selling it, I have different drawing stuff she wants, I have a ps1,2 and 4 plus I have friends who loves me for who I am and accepts when I tell them stuff. Also they understand when we argue that its nt a fight and no one should get angry.
Anyway enough of her and him. They can jump a lake for all I care XD
On September 12 I was in an accident at work. I was going to reach for a giant packet with a 12 kg chair in it. Sadly it hit my head with the edge first and I collapsed immediately - the next I remember is 2 days later.
I am okay now just suffer from some serious head ache but I am under treatment. Also still working my tail off
But my accident does I cannot remember much of my past. So if I write "who are you" please forgive me.
September 25 my grandfather lost his fight to some serious illness and some issues with his heart. The past month has been very stressful for my family and I. We have trouble crying because he didn´t want us to cry, but my mother cries almost everyday because she misses him deeply. Even my father has cried a lot.
Personally I hate to cry so I barely cry when my mother can see it. But I must admit I cried in the phone the other day because I was sad and I felt stressed.
The night between Wedensday and Thursday I had a crazy dream.
I dreamed my grandfather was reunited with my grandmother. He didn´t say anything but he looked at me with a huge smile while he took her hand before they both went through the light.
It was so creepy and when I told mom she was shocked as well but we both knew he had sent his last message to us: He was not suffering anymore because he was now with his beloved.
Else I have been using a lot of time thinking about different things such as different friendships: Weather to end them or continue.
What else? hmmm.....Ah yes!
Some donut thought she frame me for stealing her hair idea; fun part is its a hairstyle that everyone uses, even models...honestly I think models dont give a flying fuck about that donut XD and neither do I because my oc doesn´t look anything like hers XD mine is dark haired hers is a brownie XD But she´s still a cool artist.
If not any further I have started a new art style for my furry art and I´d like to get better: therefore I am opening super cheap commissions!
5 Euros per piece!
Also I hope that you guys stay sharp and remember!
Don´t Forget To Smile