Just because I can
So much has happened since the last journal I created in November 2017!
almost a year ago! I SHAME myself right now!
I´m usually the novel/book writer when it comes to my journals XD
Since November last year; I had an amazing birthday with my old ones. I prepared dinner for them at my place where we got the share some of the issues we have had that year. such as my depression that hit me like a metal ball, shot out of a canon!
I felt so disconnected to myself I couldn´t do much but sleep. I happen to have an amazing friend who allowed me to sleep at her parents place. She also made sure to keep me alive and gave me food. if not I didn´t have her I wouldn´t have eaten during that week. I lost 4 kg because of it, and I can´t gain them again.
Also I realised that two of my best friends had abused my trust and my money. It has resulted I don´t have much to live for and the one of them doesn´t want to pay the money he lend back, because he rather wants to sit and cry instead of sticking to the deal we did.
I´ve been rather irritated that he wants to play pretty princess while most of us work out tails off; but not him. He got the community of Viborg to find his "job" while the rest of us has to find one without, and all because he uses his stupid "sickness" as an excuse. But I see it this way, if you can sit 10 hours on you PS4 you can also work on job applications!
So the other day I told him and his idiotic boyfriend off because I got tired of him playing the victim and forgetting to tell the whole story to his so called boyfriend.
I did the same thing to a so called friend as well. She couldn´t handle I ask to make things sure when I am confused. But better a friend asking than family members. Because not all in my family knows about though I´ve lived in the family for 20 years now
People get so easy butt-fucked these days; they forget about humanity and respect XD
Anyway change of subject!
April 25 I happen to figure out faith had plans for me that day. and if I knew love would be 1 km from me, I would have found it sooner!
I´m over-happy to have found someone I can share my passions, my love and my life with XD he´s so adorable and thanks to him, I am slowly starting to figure out myself and my issues. I am also briefly accepting it´s ok to cry infront of people without being judged.
But all in all we are happy and we´re both nerds at many points.
I´m the nerd and he´s the super nerd XD
Also I had some people being jealous that I found him; one of them is my ex because she couldn´t handle hearing I was with him but when she had a boyfriend besides me it was okay to tell me everything about him and everytime she was with him XD a bit two eyed in my opinion XD But dafuq I don´t care anymore. She also began putting question to my treatment but haha gurl you have no idea about my brain and what is it can manage xD I have photographic memories, try it could help you actually finishing school instead of wasting your time on drama, make a complete idiot out of yourself XD
Also I am working on Commissions and I´m getting a bit of money
hoping to get more
Still doing fitness and on top of that I joined a group of people where we support each other and help each other working out food programs (: gonna meet´em all on September 3 and December 10, can´t wait :3 they´re amazing
Best of luck out there and remember
-Don´t Forget To Smile