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Anastasja Erlenda Irma Y
Heard Island and McDonald Islands
Current Residence: Surabaya
Favourite genre of music: Brit-pop, jazz
MP3 player of choice: Archos, iPod
Favourite cartoon character: Monkey D. Luffy

e p i c f a i l

Fri Dec 31, 2010, 7:07 AM

Pick a cigarette and start smoking.
I should be happy in this last day of the year, especially it's also my birthday. In fact, I'm in my lowest state.
This year, I think it's the worst year of my life; ruins everything I touch, loosing job, another fail relationship, my friends start leaving me, went bankrupt, and the worst... I can't focus and find some determination.

I had a conversation with mom this morning, mommy tells me about her friends who have to had a kidney surgery. It's her only left, because last year doctor saved her life by taking the other one.
And I say "it's about time mom, how old is she anyway. It's nature, everybody have to die somehow"
"NO!, look at me dear! I'm old, but I never give up, unlike you, not everyone thinks that life's just about waiting for death. I feel sorry to you, if you don't know what's the meaning of life and survive! There's something wrong with you, and if you don't fix it immediately, you'll end up crazy."

I hold my words, I didn't know, that that kind of comment would turned out this way. I left mom, and say silently; I do know mom... I've experienced to live with someone who had struggling for whole 9 months against cancer.
It's more than 3 years my dad passed away, but remember anything about him, is always triggering my tears. You're right mah, I have to do something, instead of try to find what it is the best for me, in fact, I have never find anything....

Thanks for reading this, I have to share, I could barely hold it alone

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supridiot Featured By Owner Sep 6, 2018  Student Traditional Artist
mba'e apakabar. saya fans lamaaaaaa
naruzo Featured By Owner Edited Jan 7, 2016
baru aja nge-pin di pinterest trus share di fb tentang tutorial "kate beckinsale" nya
ternyata orang surabaya
keren !!
axis000 Featured By Owner Oct 14, 2015  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Inspiring Gallery!
weknow Featured By Owner Sep 19, 2015  Professional Digital Artist
how are you, hope everything is great with you, still adore your art
che38 Featured By Owner Mar 29, 2015
:iconaawplz: YOU HAVE BEEN HUGGED Glomp!
Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!)

1- You can hug the person who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 10 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them in public! Paste it on their page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely get started hugging right away!

If You Get 7 Back You Are Loved!
1-3 you're bad friend
4-6 you're an okay friend
7-9 you're a good friend
10-& Up you're loved
SaraswatiDevi Featured By Owner Jan 28, 2013
Namaste! Welcome to :iconthe-veda:

We hope you enjoy the delicacies submitted to the gallery, and please suggest any activities you'd like to see. :) Rules for submission are on the main page of the club.

You are welcome to introduce yourself :bulletred: here :bulletred:.

We have more art than what's submitted in our faves, and we have quite an extensive collection already. :D

And if you know of any art by others that you'd like to share, please feel free to submit them to the club as well. :love:

ChrisIwanski Featured By Owner Jan 7, 2013  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Chris was here....?
Neil-Ericson Featured By Owner Sep 21, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:D Beautiful artwork! :D
Ktp08 Featured By Owner Aug 16, 2012
Keren gallerynya sis. Liat Sarah Michelle Gellar portrait gak bisa berhenti menatap..hehe. Salam kenal!
OLIVEGIRL Featured By Owner Jun 21, 2012


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