After have finished some stories to take part to some italian contests,
I start back to work to my book.
Write about BDSM is not an easy thing!
I hear most of the people to complain about 50 Shades of Grey
that is not about BDSM, cause the book or
the movie don't represent this world, that BDSM is a discipline, a way of life,
that is not just a way to have easy sex,
but when I ask them why, or what it mean to live the
BDSM world, or which part is not about BDSM,
I hear a lot of bla bla bla and
excuses, cause for most of them BDSM is just a way to have sex.
When I ask them why I have to make myself hit to feel pleaure or to have an orgasm
Most of them don't give me an answere.They don't know. Some people reply to me
that this is the game: a master/dom hit you, and you have to thanks. That's it!
This is the game and if you don't like to play, you don't have to play.
When I ask about respect, that BDSM is a way of life, what about the rules, etc.
they reply to me that them are the masters and they have the power to decide, and
you are just a slave and you have to obey, and if you don't, you are not a real slave.
So when I ask "if I don't wanna do a thing my master order me, what happens?"
In most cases I always get the same answere: "you are not a real slave".
So I say: "wait... and this is not a disrespect?" but they reply to me
that I cannot understand cause I'm not in this world.
At this point I'm really confused: if BDSM is a way of life and is based on the
respect for the other person, and the things have to be decided before,
cause no one had to be force to do something that don't wanna do,
This is not a contradiction???
So I ask myself (and also to every people who want reply cause is in the BDSM world)
what it mean live in a BDSM relationship? what is about BDSM for you? There can be love between a master/dom and a slave? What about the mental domination?
hope to find a real help to this to go ahed to write my book.
PS: Thanks so much to all for all the support and for help me to choose the name of her new
love. I think that James is a beautiful name but I ever find a bit unreal. Anyway James will be!
Love you all!
TALKING ABOUT LOVE
Stolen from a friend journal. Maybe this can help to each other to know us better.
1. Your Name and where you live?
Esther and I live in Italy
2.what’s your middle name?
My other names are: Alma Maria Serena Consuela
3. Do you still talk to the first person you kissed?
No, I don't see Fabrizio from many years (last itme in 90 during the Blond Ambition)
4. Your age when you give your first kiss?
19 (in the car of Fabrizio)
5. …. and you had sex for the first time?
Ever 19 (with another one for mistake and was not a good experience)
6. what do you think about safe sex ?
Every people had to use condom to prevent disease and pregnancy.
Abortion is not a method of contraception.
7. How many relationships you had in your life? 6 in all my life
8. who was the last person you hugged?
I don't like much hug people cause I'm emphatic.
9. the name of the boyfriend/girlfriend you loved the most?
The person that I loved the most was not a boyfriend but a special person who teach me to respect myself and really loved me.
10. how did you meet your boy/girlfriend?
Most of my ex (4) was italian soldiers (I love men in uniform) so I meet them in place where I go to dance.
11. The name of your last boyfriend or husband?
I never been married and my last BF name's was Danilo (and was in 2001)
12. if you can came back, you'll do with them the same things?
13. who is your lover that make you suffer the most?
Alberto cause cheating me, married a rich girl and after an years still call me. Now his behaviour will be considered stalking.
14. do you ever been in love with a person of your same gender?
Not for now, but you never can say never in life. Love is a strange thing.
15. are you in love?