[TOW] Lost

Prompt: No Rest for the Wicked

Who even was she anymore?

Ingo sat atop a hill, tears falling down her cheeks like waterfalls - she didn't even bother to try and stop them. She wept for a wolf who had died - herself. As autumn went on the weight of everything crushed her - the fight with titus, the war, and even everything before that. Sometimes she wished she just bent to her mother's will long ago than stood up to her - at least then she would be able to see properly.

Ingo spent practically all of autumn staring at the lands beyond. One step, one decision from just running into the unknown and never to return to the land of Volaires. But she couldn't bring herself to do it simply for the fact that she didn't want to be a loner again, especially with only one working eye. She was trapped and hopelessly lost in only vaguely familiar lands down half a sense.

And gods... Titus.... he may be dead but he haunted Ingo's dreams even after death. The horrific memory of him clamping down on Ingo's skull, resting his tongue on her head, teeth piercing her eye socket.... Ingo woke every night with bristled fur and unable to sleep again for the rest of the night.

Another thing she would never get out of her head was the life she took during the war. It wasn't supposed to be that wolf she killed, it was supposed to be titus. She always tried to reason with herself, trying to assure herself that she did what she had to otherwise she would have lost her life that day instead, but the guilt was unbearable. She caught glimpses of wolves whom she presumed was their family mourning their loss. Their grief was because of her, and she would never forgive herself for it when she wasn't even targetting them. She hadn't even remembered what exactly happened that caused her to kill them, just that it happened.

She was just so lost and she had no idea what to do or where to go from here, so she just sat atop the hill and wept, wishing that none of this ever had happened. Weeping for the wolf she once was for she was too scared to continue as the wolf she had become.

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Sad Ingo content She's not doing too well mentally with the trauma of the war and is riddled with guilt of the wolf she ended up killing (since she was aiming for Titus, not them). Trauma sucks and i wish i could give this girl a hug (i say as if i wasn't the one who inflicted this trauma on her in the first place for the most part l o l).

Also did an experimental lineless piece with fur rendering. I think it came out nice