dreamer45555

do you every had the feeling that when it really good you on the mountain but when it the bad it like you lose everything. so me and cody been fighting alot and it just idk if he wants to be with me now. like i too emotionals and do not give not space. i feel like we doing so good and then it just crashing and burning "I'm crashing and burning you're crashing and burning we're crashing and burning"-bif naked. that i tried so hard to just fall apart. i wish he could love me more i wish i can be better, i wish he can be better. i wish for so many thing that will never come to true and i just siting and i feel like a fail so much. like today it

so i moving out of edmonton soon looking forward to it. the first time in my life i feel this direstion i real one that not leaving me any false hope. i have friend there and a bf there. it just so right. well fucking cody is a dream come true i never through i could find someone in my life like him. he can take all the bad and deal with it. the first time i feel like there a future that it going to last and going be ok. it the first time i want to fight and not give up. to tell the world this guy is mine and only mine. so do not fuck with me. he the only person who on my mind all the time. it the first guy that sex is not a  big factor. when

well i started school this week it so much fun i like all my classes i am glad i went back to school i think i going be a good pharamy tech. on the other side i like living in edmonton i am close to everything and i like is walking distance. well i fall for the giuy and i did sleep with him and he everything i hate in a guy i want to date and i did then he turn around he just want to be friends and he like someone else. now i dont think he want to be friends anymore. my lose welli guess in time......