First of all, I'd like to say I'm really interested in the reasons you all have to draw creepy stuff. If you'd like, please share with me your opinion on that matter.
For me right now it's second nature, little by little it has come to be some kind of an identity. I drew this kind of pictures since I was in high school, when I first had a depression stage. /I even had an account here, but I lost the password ( www.deviantart.com/natsumi-aik…
In college, I ended up not working on horror art no more. Art college is not a good place for illustration... at least in my experience.
But monsters, blood, skulls, darkness and death had to come back. Every single feeling of distress that comes out of the creepy images that might sometimes seem simple or predictable is made up with a very particular origin. For me, at least, it's plain and well-known fear, the longing for control of one's fears.
The creatures and sceneries are all built by the symbolic connection between the difficulties I have while living and my wishes of them disappearing. Everything that stops me from doing what I want to achieve, the dark paranoia that comes to me when I'm on street, The terrible anxiety of the apparently threatening people surrounding me at random events. I think about myself as weak. The monsters are the faces of those weaknesses, that determine my human condition. When I'm able to capture them I regain a new strength, even if it is just for a tiny moment.
Being able to symbolically show you all the feeling of curiosity while you stand right before a threat, the disturbing anxiety of having weird ideas on your mind or the mysterious sight of the world made of suffering that I imagine out there helps me fight the fear. Especially the one which comes from my so far empty yearning of doing what I love the most for a living. In this difficult and confusing world that I believe is impossible to conquer.
So, I really wanted to thank you for sharing your work and looking at mine. The most enjoyable part of the process of building a career in arts must certainly be the community and empathy you can get out there. Let's get there little by little...