Hey all it's been a while.
So to recap everything that has happened to me in the past few months. I became dangerously close to rekindling one of my older relationships
because I was really lonely and he was always there be my side. We also have similar after school activities so I see him everyday but I stopped it before it got past the flirtatious stage. I realized that if we broke up again it would damage our friendship and I also realized that I broke up with him because he wasn't the right fit and that hasn't changed.
I have flitted around my circle of friends never really clinging to anyone and am making new friends practically all the time. In fact, I am going to this girl's birthday party on Saturday and I just met her two weeks ago at another
I am taking many difficult classes this year and this, plus the death of two people very close to me, and my aunt getting cancer that she won't survive, has cause severe depression and emotional stress. It has definitely put a lot of strain on my relationship with my family. My parents are always checking up on me because they are extremely worried for my well being but I started volunteering at the hospital near me and have found that being there helps me relax, and calm down. Soon, once my schedule opens up a bit, I will be going back to my job as a receptionist at the health club near me. So I am excited in that respect.
Lately, everything has been feeling very dull. I feel suffocated by the people around me and wish nothing more than to just pick up all of my things and leave. The number of enemies I have has also increased and it saddens me to say that the bonds between many of my friends have weakened. I really want to try changing my look, perhaps going for something more edgy and dark but for the sake of my parents I may hold off on that fantasy although I have already bought a tube of black lipstick and nail polish. >
I have had two pieces that I wrote published in a literary magazine down in the city with is amazing. I would love to share them with you all but unfortunately my contract won't let me. Unfortunately, I have felt lately like practically everything I write is incredibly dull and boring and it's been getting hard for me to pick up my pen and just go with it. I am sure it is just writer's block and it will go away soon but I cannot help but feel that everything I have gone through this past year is starting to take it's toll on me.
My interests still haven't changed. I loved writing and drawing and the chance I get to make some new stuff I'll definitely show it to all of you~