I've never decided to just walk out of the ZDoom forums before, but we'll see if that's a temporary or a permanent change for me. But I am noticing something. I'm quickly burning any remaining bridges to places I once called a safe home. I know I'm tired and I don't feel like I'm getting a ton of sleep, but I thought I did today especially.
What am I actually pissed about? Or am I really pissed off about the various small issues I'm noticing at the places I run into? I don't like bad code any more than anyone else, and I certainly don't like being told that it's not that big of an issue. But I keep running into people defending the practice. Either way, a step back from the forums will keep me from a ban or warning, and I'd much rather leave on my own terms rather than on anyone else's.
That said... one thing that's been hitting home lately is the fact that I really don't have a place to go other than the garage when everything is overwhelming me in the house. And now that it's winter, that's not much of an option unless I'm going to work out. Ugh, the phrase "work out" is a phrase I keep hearing in the wrong sense as well. I'm tired and I'm scared to bring up any important issues because when I do it's clear that what I want isn't on anyone's mind but my own.