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Donavan Neil
Artist | Student | Varied
United States
Hiya, I'm Donavan. :)

Some basic info about me:
I live in the Southeast US, I like to make things, and I'm a work-in-progress. ;)

I specialize in portraiture, figures, and character art, and am working hard every day to learn more. Art is the place where skill meets play, so let's have fun! :)

I'm mostly just a quirky, gay kinda puer aeternus trying to figure it all out.

:D You can follow me in all these places:

Beautiful, powerful words have helped me through some of the darkest moments in my life.

I'm sure it isn't surprising or unique that, having grown up gay in the South, as an atheist, and with bipolar disorder, I have had to compile my own scripture to guide and sustain me.

I'd like to share some small but powerful bits of language that have been fuel when my fires burned dangerously low, and which inspire me now. The Psalms in Sunday school never sounded so sweet as these. I hope this little trio of Bees and Gods inside inspires others as well. :heart:
"The Greeks bequeathed to us one of the most beautiful words in our language
the word 'enthusiasm'en theosa god within. The grandeur of human actions is measured by the inspiration from which they spring. Happy is he who bears a god within, and who obeys it."
- Louis Pasteur

Last Night As I was Sleeping
by Antonio Machado

Last night as I was sleeping,

I dreamt—marvelous error!—
that a spring was breaking
out in my heart.
I said: Along which secret aqueduct,
Oh water, are you coming to me,
water of a new life
that I have never drunk?

Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt—marvelous error!—
that I had a beehive
here inside my heart.
And the golden bees
were making white combs
and sweet honey
from my old failures.

Last night as I was sleeping,
I dreamt—marvelous error!—
that a fiery sun was giving
light inside my heart.
It was fiery because I felt
warmth as from a hearth,
and sun because it gave light
and brought tears to my eyes.

Last night as I slept,
I dreamt—marvelous error!—
that it was God I had
here inside my heart.

The Arrival of the Bee Box
by Sylvia Plath

I ordered this, clean wood box
Square as a chair and almost too heavy to lift.
I would say it was the coffin of a midget
Or a square baby
Were there not such a din in it.

The box is locked, it is dangerous.
I have to live with it overnight
And I can't keep away from it.
There are no windows, so I can't see what is in there.
There is only a little grid, no exit.

I put my eye to the grid.
It is dark, dark,
With the swarmy feeling of African hands
Minute and shrunk for export,
Black on black, angrily clambering.
How can I let them out?
It is the noise that appalls me most of all,
The unintelligible syllables.
It is like a Roman mob,
Small, taken one by one, but my god, together!

I lay my ear to furious Latin.
I am not a Caesar.
I have simply ordered a box of maniacs.
They can be sent back.
They can die, I need feed them nothing, I am the owner.

I wonder how hungry they are.
I wonder if they would forget me
If I just undid the locks and stood back and turned into a tree.
There is the laburnum, its blond colonnades,
And the petticoats of the cherry.

They might ignore me immediately
In my moon suit and funeral veil.
I am no source of honey
So why should they turn on me?
Tomorrow I will be sweet God, I will set them free.

The box is only temporary.
  • Listening to: A Song to Come Home To by Jinkx Monsoon
  • Reading: nothing at the moment
  • Watching: Stranger Things 2
  • Playing: Final Fantasy IX Remastered
  • Eating: Fasting
  • Drinking: Water



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TechTalkPony Featured By Owner May 27, 2019

Happy Birthday! ᵔ.ᵔ…

Shufflet Featured By Owner May 27, 2019  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday!
exotic-legends Featured By Owner May 27, 2019  Professional General Artist
Happy Birthday. :) (Smile)
Have an awesome day. :D (Big Grin)
Inntary Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
awesome artworks^^//
TechTalkPony Featured By Owner May 27, 2018

Happy Birthday! ᵔ.ᵔ…

Shufflet Featured By Owner May 27, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Happy Birthday! :cake:
GabyCoutino Featured By Owner Jan 22, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Nice gallery

Have a bunny
ArachnaFonFenris Featured By Owner Jan 11, 2018  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Oh, I am very gland to take a llama from your hands! Great Chthon will gift you for this one day!

P.S. If this is your willing, feel free to explore my lair.
TheFuhrerDoodles Featured By Owner Nov 13, 2017  Professional Digital Artist
Thanks for the Llama ;)
donavanneil Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2017  Student General Artist
You're welcome. :)
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