Hey, all. Depressed here. Yeah, I don't really do updates on my own website that much. I'm not sure if I'll ever get around to doing that, but I guess I should just say what's going on here just in case you don't follow me on
Twitter or you're not someone that has to put up with me on my own Discord server. Usually, I don't give way to many details about my personal life and at this point, there are still things I'm not sure when or if I'll share.
Anyways, lately I've felt a lot more depressed than usual. First of all, I keep failing in college so I've gotten to a point where I can't take any more classes unless I wait a year and even then
It's been a while since I made an update about what's going on with me, because well I haven't really felt comfortable with talking about everything that's been going on with me. More than a year ago, I started college and well, things haven't really been going as well as I had hoped. When different people have different ways of reacting to things it just makes things that much worse. My life has reached a point where I feel as if I'm trapped in a loop. In this loop, I attempt to do something, fuck it up, and then end up feeling far too depressed to do anything and then I repeat the same process.
Sometimes I wonder if there's any point in co
Last year I created a Maroon 5 Discord server because I couldn't find one when I searched. Not a whole lot of people have joined so far but at least it's not just me in there. Anyways, here's a link to the server:
Going into the new year I expected it to be a bad one. It seems I was correct to assume so. 2018 has been nothing but garbage so far not only with all the drama going on online but also for me at home. I had a rough start to college back in the fall, not getting the highest grade in one of my classes, but fortunately I haven't failed anything. Sadly, I was informed that I wasn't eligible for financial aid and ended up getting dropped from all of my freaking classes. So last Friday, I spent so many hours wandering around my college campus trying to get this taken care of with getting permission from instructors and filling out all the forms.
It's certainly been a while since I've done one of these updates and a lot has happened since then, so I figured now is as good a time as any to say something. I had one of the longest summers that I've ever had, not only that but it was one of the worst. Every day was another day of screaming at my younger sisters who I am ten years older than and wondering if I would eventually lose my damn mind. I even hit some days where I had been feeling worse than ever and often found myself lying down for several minutes doing nothing on multiple occasions.
Over the summer, I tried doing a YouTube video schedule where I would put out three videos a w