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It was weird, writing again. I often feel the pull of it - I'm sure I always will - but it was strange to actually indulge the notion. What can I say though, I was listening to Hammock and I was moved as I always am by their music. You know, I often wonder how other people think - other writers, artists in general and people with no particular inclination towards art or writing - I wonder what it is like to be in their head and to think their thoughts. How do they occur, how do they flow, how do they feel and form and where does it go? For me, it's a spring or stream of consciousness and is generally inspired by something - strong feeling or moving music most often - but it comes entirely unbidden.

The song in question, by the way, is this one: www.youtube.com/watch?v=ORHckB…

For me it started with a sense of loss and the notion of something slipping away - but I felt that the word wasn't right, the word didn't capture what I actually felt because slipping implies an awareness and of having been holding on to this thing... which I was not - holding on to it, that is. In my life so far, I have only ever learned that I have to let go because so much of what I want, what I felt I needed, was so-clearly not meant for me that pursing it (or even these days simply allowing for it) has only ever lead to awful things and a general sense of abuse and neglect. So as appeal as the notion of this heart of mine, this loving sense slipping away, it was not at all accurate, I had to describe it otherwise and that just lead to all kinds of deeper thinking.

I am very, very smart and I only ever pay for this - but the upside is that things often occur to me long before I feel them - the thought precedes the emotion - but for all of our brain power, nearly every human being is a creature of emotion... it's a part of us and I'd say it's far more a part of most people than rational, measured thinking is. There is nothing about myself that I cannot explain - or at the very least, accurately and reasonably postulate about - but even I am, sometimes, lead by my heart - it resist my head and in this resisting, it will lag behind, horribly, of the thought-out conclusions I've arrived at...

but sometimes it beats me there and it always makes it more... real, ironically enough, than the mere thought ever was. It is *never* enough to simply think something, to realize something - you need that epiphany, that emotional core that consumes everything else and makes you *feel* the thing you were thinking, the thing you suspected

the thing you never wanted.

I've always felt like I have a certain mastery over myself - a strangely unusual confluence of thought and emotion that really works - where I am not overpowered one way or another and I can be both measured and emotional - I love it, it's beautiful I think and a wonderful way to be. I think it is a virtue, I think it is a solid principle on which to build one's perspective and existence and it is a choice that can be made. To be like this.

I like that - I like choice, choosing, knowing, deciding - doing. Unfortunately, that is not the way of the world and no one exists in a vacuum - if only it were up to me and my choices, if simply deciding were enough, was all you had to do to reach something... that would be beautiful, wonderful. But, again, it's not...

Some things are done *to* you and that's what this is about.

A long, long time ago I began to suspect that life would go a certain way for me despite anything and everything that I would do. Suspected - I did not believe it, though, and proceeded to conduct myself as best as I could and as honestly as I could and hope for the best. I tried and I failed and I was continually rejected - have been continually rejected - and it has all meant something, all has had an impact and a measure to it. Logic whispered that my initial suspicions were correct because in all of my observing since, I had not yet been given a reason to suspect otherwise - but logic also assured me that there was no way of knowing - you can't know, that's the point, that's what you have to admit and in admitting that you don't actually know, can't know, could know, that you can leave a space for something to get in, to change, no matter what else you know and what life has shown you. This was a notion hammered home by the beautiful lyrics of a beautiful song I love and adore and that has since become... not a mantra, but a truth for me.

"Allow it and you will have it / allow it and love will be" (The Best is Yet to Come, I refer more specifically to a wonderful translation that claims infinitely more accuracy than the official release).

A lot of people get hung up on "knowing" the future - knowing the outcome and all possible outcomes and they not only shoot themselves in the foot, but much worse and, more importantly, the inflict these notions they 'know' on everyone else to ever come and it's all a disservice and all a travesty that can be avoided by admitting something horribly and painfully obvious - that you don't know because you can't know and that you've only given up when you don't allow for a *chance*.

I must still admit this myself, but I cannot lie... today, I felt the thing that I thought years ago and I didn't just know it

I believed it.

It didn't slip away. I didn't lose it. It didn't even die...

It was never there at all.
I never *had* a chance.
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I was coerced by the wonderfully standoffish Clovejar :aww:
Comment and I will...

1. Tell you something I learned about you by looking at your dA page for 20 seconds.
2. Tell you a colour you remind me of.
3. Tell you what element I believe you belong to (e.g. water, fire, air, etc.).
4. Tell you what animal you remind me of. 
5. Ask you a question, and you must answer. 
6. Tell you something I like about you or your art.
7. Give you a nickname.
8. Tell you what am I watching/listening to right now.
9. Tell you what food/ flavor/smell you remind me of.
10. Tell you to do this in your journal too, if you haven't already
  • Listening to: Angels
  • Reading: Minds
  • Watching: Dreams
  • Playing: Complexities
  • Eating: Thought
  • Drinking: Wisdom

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stillphototheater Featured By Owner Dec 6, 2018
Thank you for the favorites !
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PennedinWhite Featured By Owner Nov 29, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
Thanks for the favorite and the watch. :)

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Master-Geass Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2018  Hobbyist Writer
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Byuha Featured By Owner Nov 27, 2018
Z97_02 Thanks by Byuha  
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rufflesandsteam Featured By Owner Nov 26, 2018  Hobbyist Artist
Thank you for adding me to your watch list! I really appreciate your interest in my art Hug 
I have to admit though, that I'm not that active on dA (I try my best to change that). If you want to see my newest creations and photos ways earlier I recommed heading over to facebook and/or instagram, as I'm posting a lot more there :) (Smile)
(it's rufflesandsteam / Ruffles & Steam on both platforms.)
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mapok0024 Featured By Owner Nov 25, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
thanks for faving 

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Nimidorin Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
...and all those favourites!^^
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Nimidorin Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much for the watch!
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KaidokJ Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2018   Digital Artist
Thanks for the llama :happybounce:

I knew a llama once. At least I thought I knew him. I mean, how well can anyone really know anyone, much less a llama. With their air of mystery and thinly veiled contempt. It’s hard. But I digress.
His name was Kevin. But for reasons I will never understand, he would only ever answer to Albert. Identity issues aside, things started out okay. The usual introductory sniffing and sneezing went well, despite his allergies, but then things started going downhill during the ritual licking phase of the pleasantries. We pushed through. And had it not been for the spitting, we might have even been able to make it work, but alas, after just 3 seconds of bittersweet brotherhood, we finally decided to part ways. It’s kind of sad, when you think about it. Spitting seems like such an innocent thing to fight over, but he was pretty adamant that I should stop and that was just never going to happen. We might have overcome that issue, but Kevin, like all llamas, was very competitive. First came the stench competitions. Then it was belching contests. And lastly, a painstaking count to see which one was hairier. You can clearly see why our relationship was doomed. The poor fellow was a bit of a sore loser.
So he snuck out, taking with him a failed friendship, an obliviously optimistic dread of the future, and my sixth favorite toothbrush. Now that he is gone, I can honestly say, it's for the best. He was too much of a chick magnet anyway and who needs that poultry drama? :shakefist:

Full disclaimer, as Kevin’s official biographer, a position of which he blackmailed me into (don’t ask), I’ve been instructed to inform you about his ongoing series. The journey starts here with The Kevin Chronicles - Chapter 1, and this gallery contains the rest. You should check it out.

*End of cue card*

And don't worry, they're pretty short.
No pressure though, only if you want.

:D 
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KaidokJ Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2018   Digital Artist

I know you favorited more than this, which is great. :D
But so as not to flood your page, here are just a random selection of replies for the pictures that you favorited.
Sorry if it's still a bit long. ^^;

Thanks for the fav on
DS#6 - Portrait Painting

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The selfies of classical art. Sure, a portrait was a an arduous and time consuming task undertaken by a skilfully trained master craftsman, whose keen sense and exacting eye was not only able to  render a suitable likeness but would also delve into the soul of their subject to bring forth that defining quality of beauty and character. But, like, selfies are like, totally, the same and stuff. My friend Jennifer, like, totally spent, like, 6 hours by the pool finding just the right angle to capture her super cuteness. And then, she, like, spent another 3 hours picking the perfect filter. All her followers, like, can’t even. 23, 000 overnight. That’s art, bitches!

#SelfieCulture #MyFaceIsArt #SelfieArtist

Thanks for the fav on DS#89 - She was a blue eyed mutant...

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I know it doesn’t seem like it, but growing up near a toxic nuclear uranium dump, has left this one woman with some remarkably unusual characteristics. Apart from glowing in the dark, she has 7 toes on her right knee, an elbow that bends both ways and an extra butt cheek. But don’t despair. Life might have turned her into a hideous mutated freak, but she’s a young woman with blonde hair and blue eyes, so naturally she was elected prom queen, given a full scholarship to any school she wanted and is being scouted by the modelling industry. Instagram has also approached her for an advertising campaign to promote ‘diversity’.

- OverlyBitterBrunette

Thanks for the fav on Inktober 28: Gift - Unofficial Goober/Kevin X-Over

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Sometimes I really wonder what it was that I did to ever get saddled with such an attention hungry creature like Kevin. I mean sure, there are plenty of reasons why it was bound to happen, but it would be nice to know which one specifically I’m being punished for. It’s not enough that he has his own series, promotional material and there’s talk of an upcoming comic adaptation for his life story but now he feels compelled to just randomly drop into another character’s storyline, all because it seems to be garnering a little bit of attention. And what’s worse, he has the nerve to blame me for the whole thing. Take it from me, if you’re ever asked to housesit for your sister’s Aunt Tilly’s hairdresser’s dog groomer, then just make sure not to open the door to any talking llamas named Kevin. That alpaca timeshare deal he’s pedalling is a total rip-off. 

#StillWaitingForMyAlpaca

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KaidokJ Featured By Owner Nov 22, 2018   Digital Artist
Thank you for choosing AbsurdAir, your captain for this flight is KaidokJ. I have no license, I’m considered legally blind and I’m easily distrac… Wait, what was I talking about…
But not to fear. There’s a good chance we’ll never make our destination, but since this whole flight metaphor is just a weak attempt at a humorous anecdote, I don’t think that’s going to be a problem. Ah damn, I just shattered the illusion by crashing through the 4th wall.

Anyway, thanks for the watch. :happybounce:
I’m sure you regret your choice by now, considering this madness is basically what you signed up for, but since all tickets are non-refundable, welcome to Crazytown. Quarantine measures come into effect upon arrival. :psychotic:
On a more serious note, here’s basically the run down. Posting regularly (fingers crossed), free funny stories in almost all fav replies, and an intro to Kevin the Llama in the Llama Badge reply. Also, if you haven’t already heard, I’ve been designated Kevin Llamason’s official biographer, so you can check out what he’s been up to in The Kevin Chronicles. (Unfortunately “The Kevin Chronicles” are currently on hiatus, while Kevin gets a handle on his pinecone addiction. In the meantime I hope to experiment with a new format in the near future, so keep an eye out for that)
So that’s about it. Thanks again for flying AbsurdAir, and I hope you enjoy the ride.  
 
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veganviolinist Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2018
Ohhh my goshhh
Thank you so much for the one month core membership
I'm so happy La la la la Heart 
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mic-ardant Featured By Owner Nov 21, 2018
Thanks my friend for the Favs.
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stillphototheater Featured By Owner Nov 20, 2018
Thank you for the favorite !
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jjulie98 Featured By Owner Nov 11, 2018
Thank you for all the favs!!! :)
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shtolets Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2018   Digital Artist
omg thank you so so much for your support!! 
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SaraFormosa Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2018   General Artist
HiBear Emoji-10 (Long time no see) [V1] Thanks for supportsparkles emoji  Cresent Moon Emoji 
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Louna-Ashasou Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2018  Professional Digital Artist
Oh my gosh... I'm on my phone so I have no idea how to check for am eventual message but THANK YOU SO MUCH
For this lovely present of yours! I was so surprised to get the mail this morning xD you are way too sweet!! Thanks a lot, truly!
I hope you are doing great :)
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Prixelpop Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2018  Hobbyist General Artist
Thank you for the many favourites!
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Sehlley Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2018  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you so much for all of the favourites!
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Zakuro-Kona Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2018   Traditional Artist
Many thanks for the watch!  I had to watch you back after reading just a few of your poems; and I look forward to reading more of your prose when I've more time later.  What I read was deep, sorrowful, and relatable... melancholy yet emotionally powerful.  Plus your clever compositions of the words add even more intrigue! :heart:  

Have a wonderful day~ :aww:
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Dranira Featured By Owner Nov 6, 2018
Thank you so much for the watch, I really appreciate it a lot! :)
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Angelinia Featured By Owner Nov 4, 2018   Digital Artist
did i do something wrong?
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Genisay Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2018  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for the fav on Chiqa.
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Phleitist-Pleyada Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2018  Hobbyist
Thank you so much for faving! Hug Lavender Rose (Meaning: Love At First Sight) 
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