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Literature
Grand Finale
The day before the world ended I sat at the piano resolute to not stand up until I finished composing one final piece of music. Perhaps the last composition anyone would ever write—I imagined other composers were probably too busy panicking and pointlessly running for shelter, or spending their final hours with their loved ones. But I've never felt at home anywhere, the one person I loved loved someone else, and I knew for a fact there was no shelter from what was coming to us. The spotlight of our lives was about to go off and send us all back into a primordial chaos, and I refused to be an spectator of or a participant in the sorry spectacle in the streets. I had a higher, solitary calling. I was sure all this pain and anguish would translate into a wondrous dirge to life. To my life, to be precise. A sorry spectacle if there ever was one.
Only... nothing happened. What I got out from the piano were not laments, but mere whimpers. No chords or melodies I came up with cou
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Literature
pain is my art
I am an artist,
and pain is my art.
I write and make pieces
straight from my heart.
I put on the canvas
reflections of my soul;
without art I am nothing,
with it I am whole
My works are surely good,
and I don't care what others say.
I can see no flaws about it,
though a foolish critic may;
but a critic is a critic
'cause he can't make art himself,
so he throws vile words of anger
to great artists like myself
But still I post my works online
for the entire world to see:
I want them to give me moments
so like an artist I can feel.
Come to me, oh inferior crowds,
For I've made a masterpiece!
The pain of love is always there
so my talent'll never cease.
But what I get is, that's for sure,
not what my open heart desired:
an angry mob of critics
who'd like to throw me into the fire.
There is no talent here, they say,
just stupid words without meaning.
Art should be creativity,
skill and craft and feeling.
And this whole bussiness makes me cry;
How can they be so rude
when I'm expressing my i
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Literature
Untitled Christmas Poem
There's a dead man lying on the table,
he can't hear the carols the band plays.
the music is soothing, the ambient's unstable,
and death may appear in the midst of a phrase
to bring uncalled sorrow on these jolly days
and take our poor souls to its darkened maze.
People are dancing, fueled by the liquor;
the ladies all had their last cigarrette.
The guys look quite charming, but they all are slickers:
they'll conquer your heart and then make you their pet
and all of your dreams you will have to forget
because christmas is here, and it'll cost blood and sweat.
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Forum Features #18 - It's Raining Cats and Dogs
Here we are again! dA's Volunteer team is here to feature the works of dA's beloved forumers!
Once per month we'll select one active user in the forums and we'll feature his or her gallery. This is someone we believe represents the forums well with both good forum-abilities and art!
As we're awesome, we also decided to give an opportunity to everybody to get featured! Every month, we'll create a thread in the Deviation Thumbshare Forum with a different theme! This thread will be made into a sticky for easy access. All you have to do is post thumbs from your gallery matching the theme! At the end of the month, we'll select our favorite thumbs from that thread and we'll feature them in this news article!
The only requirement asked of you is that you're an active member of the forums!
Featured Forumer of the Month: timmy64
selected by TommyGK
"I like this one!"
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An Audience with Felicia Day
    Felicia
                       Day

A highly sought-after actress in Hollywood, a hilarious Internet star, every guy's dream, and fangirled over by fangirls worldwide, Felicia Day is pretty epic.  She's done acting work on hit TV shows such as Dollhouse and Buffy the Vampire Slayer, but she may be most well known for her online work, appearing in Dr. Horrible's Sing-Along Blog and creating the Web series The Guild.

Now, she'll be featured at South by Southwest (SXSW) as a keynote speaker, touching on her experience in the industry and the future of her web series.  And while there, she'll be hanging out with us and sitting down on our
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Forum Features #13 - January (Animal Features)
Here we are again! The MN@ team is here to feature the works of dA's beloved forumers!
Once per month we'll select one active user in the forums and we'll feature his or her gallery. This is someone we believe represents the forums well with both good forum-abilities and art!
As we're awesome, we also decided to give an opportunity to everybody to get featured! Every month, we'll create a thread in the Deviation Thumbshare Forum with a different theme! This thread will be made into a sticky for easy access. All you have to do is post thumbs from your gallery matching the theme! At the end of the month, we'll select our favorite thumbs from that thread and we'll feature them in this news article!
The only requirement asked of you is that you're an active member of the forums!
Featured Forumer of the Month: LOVEintheSNOW
selected by Xerces

"Peacock feathers sure are
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Forum Features #10 - October: Halloween
Once again, the MN@ team is here featuring the works of dA's beloved forumers!
Once per month we'll select one active user in the forums and we'll feature his or her gallery. This is someone we believe represents the forums well with both good forum-abilities and art.
As we're kind and awesome, we also decided to give an opportunity to everybody to get featured! Every month, we'll create a thread in the Deviation Thumbshare Forum with a different theme. This thread will be made into a sticky for easy access. All you have to do is post thumbs from your gallery matching the theme and, at the end of the month, we'll select our favourite thumbs from that thread and feature them in the next news article :)
The best thing is that the only requirement is that you're an active member of the forums!
Featured Forumer of the Month: 3wyl
selected by Xerces
"I love the stark and terrifying feel
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Forum Features #7 - July (The Sea)
Once again, the MN@ team is here featuring the works of dA's beloved forumers!
Once per month we'll select one active user in the forums and we'll feature his or her gallery. This is someone we believe represents the forums well with both good forum-abilities and art.
As we're kind and awesome, we also decided to give an opportunity to everybody to get featured! Every month, we'll create a thread in the Deviation Thumbshare Forum with a different theme. This thread will be made into a sticky for easy access. All you have to do is post thumbs from your gallery matching the theme and, at the end of the month, we'll select our favourite thumbs from that thread and feature them in the next news article :)
The best thing is that the only requirement is that you're an active member of the forums!
Featured Forumer of the Month: CatapultedCarcass
selected by FixMeKnow
"I simply ADORE the amazing
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Forum Features #6- June (Industrial/Rural)
Once again, the MN@ team is here featuring the works of dA's beloved forumers!
Once per month we'll select one active user in the forums and we'll feature his or her gallery. This is someone we believe represents the forums well with both good forum-abilities and art.
As we're kind and awesome, we also decided to give an opportunity to everybody to get featured! Every month, we'll create a thread in the Deviation Thumbshare Forum with a different theme. This thread will be made into a sticky for easy access. All you have to do is post thumbs from your gallery matching the theme and, at the end of the month, we'll select our favourite thumbs from that thread and feature them in the next news article :)
The best thing is that the only requirement is that you're an active member of the forums!
Featured Forumer of the Month: WatermelonBread
selected by disintegration

"I love the aesthetics
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Forum Features #4 - April (Fun Features)
Here we are again! The MN@ team is here to feature the works of dA's beloved forumers :la:
Once per month we'll select one active user in the forums and we'll feature his or her gallery. This is someone we believe represents the forums well with both good forum-abilities and art.
As we're kind and awesome, we also decided to give an opportunity to everybody to get featured! Every month, we'll create a thread in the Deviation Thumbshare Forum with a different theme. This thread will be made into a sticky for easy access. All you have to do is post thumbs from your gallery matching the theme and, at the end of the month, we'll select our favourite thumbs from that thread and feature them in the next news article :)
The best thing is that the only requirement is that you're an active member of the forums!
Featured Forumer of the Month: Felissauria
selected by deshrubber
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Ramón Alanis
Artist | Hobbyist | Varied
Mexico
I was born on a cold April morning. Many years later I joined deviantArt.
What non-euclidean map includes the places we are gone from?
—Alan Moore, "The Map Drawn in Vapour"

Prompted by a thread in the forums I took a look at my old dA account, painkiller. I was at first embarrassed. I used this account when I was younger and had less sense. I was an absolute drama queen and I had this thing for quoting songs ALL THE TIME. Was it as a bad as the time I used to go on goth dating websites? Probably. Aw, shit, why did I have to remember that too :dead:

But soon the embarrassment gave way to something different. A killing sadness of sorts. If I may copypaste something I wrote in the thread that prompted this:

The feels come from looking at the comments on my page and seeing all those people I used to know, those kind folk and amazing artists, some of whom even considered me a friend. Many accounts deactivated, others left adrift. I haven't spoken to these people in almost a decade . . . what the hell happened? How does people that close end up drifting apart like that?
Some people followed me into this account, some I followed back. Some I still have contact with, however infrequently. But the bulk of those account, all those people who at point seemed important (no, they were important), I haven't kept in touch since then. What I mean is, sometimes you meet people and you imagine they'll play a big part in your life. Next thing you know they're gone. And sometimes you meet people very briefly, but their impression lingers.

Curiously enough I was talking about this with a friend not long ago. I expressed my concern that maybe it's not a good idea to try and rekindle all those old friendships. Paraphrasing Justin Isis, an author I admire: the people we knew are long dead, buried by the people now with their name. So this whole experiment turned rather bittersweet results.

Incidentally, I'll try to use dA more often. At the moment that means more comments, but I'll see about trying to produce new art. Can't promise anything on that regard, though.

Who will (or would) you vote for? 

26%
17 deviants said A cat!
22%
14 deviants said Obama!
15%
10 deviants said Batman!
11%
7 deviants said Cthulhu!
9%
6 deviants said Not voting!
6%
4 deviants said Fluttershy!
5%
3 deviants said Romney!
5%
3 deviants said Wait, what?
2%
1 deviant said Johnson!
0%
No deviants said Tashy 497!

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birthdays Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2018
:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

It's April 1st which means it's that time of the year again and your special day is here! We hope you have an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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Happy birthday! Cake by Sinister-Starfeesh
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Happy Birthday and Happy Easter! :D
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killjoy Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2018  Professional Interface Designer
You were always one of my favorite people in the community Ramon. It's a shame where things have gone in some ways, and better in others. Hope you're still creating in some way though!
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:woohoo: :party: :iconcakelickplz: !!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY !!! :iconcakelickplz: :party: :woohoo:

On behalf of the birthdays team, I sincerely apologize that your greeting has arrived late this year.

We hope you had an awesome day with lots of birthday fun, gifts, happiness and most definitely, lots of cake! Here's to another year!

Many well wishes and love from your friendly birthdays team :love:

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brennennn Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2017  Hobbyist Writer
Happy birthday! :D
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disintegration Featured By Owner Apr 1, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Why, thank you :)
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